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why are you havinyg ao many mangos recently. where are you getting them. mangos are eexpensive

our store sells blemished mango for a dollar....

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this is the funniest fucking thing i've ever seen

reading this deposition that just got dropped where someone sued musk and ohhhh my god it is this funniest thing ever . i can see why his lawyer tried to keep this confidential . they’re both maybe the biggest idiots . this is like ace attorney

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can we please please please please please stop using "mentally ill" and variations on that term as an insult. i am so tired

#i don't want to hear it #especially with the US election coming up #people in the political sphere just loooooove to say this shit #psychosis #schizospec #actually mentally ill #mental illness #actually autistic #mental health #autism #tagging this just with stuff i have available. tagging is hard and i am tired

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Me: *takes a random autism test and scoring super high* Ah...Still have it, I guess.

#i have to check ok

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why do people think that the autism sense of justice is good. i want to kill people

#actually autistic #autism #autistic things #autistic experiences #am i just mentally ill in general and this isn't an autism thing? #like and subscribe ig

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#RAHHHHH #mental wellness #mental health

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I'm so sorry, I'm absolutely losing it. I went to my neighbor's today to find out what I would need to do to care for their puppy this weekend, and This Fucking Thing appeared ajgldfkjhfg she is a turkey hen. you know, the birds who quite famously look like this

with no feathers on their heads, or very little, mostly along the spine/top of the head... and this gal just rocks up with not only a LITTLE bit of feathering, but almost completely covered. Even her WATTLE had feathers.

I'mc rying

i said, what the hell is going on here? and they were like

her name's Fluffy

#me irl

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diagnosed with ?????

#actually mentally ill #mental illness #psychosis #schizospec #mentally ill #delusions #hallucinations #actually psychotic

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life with psychosis

#REAL SHIT!!!!!!

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Schizospec culture is to look back on posts you made during an episode really bad and think “wow I what was talking about”

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my meds started working (i realized i've been stuck in a delusion for over a year)

#psychosis #schizospec #actually mentally ill #mental illness #schizophrenic spectrum

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you know what, shoutout to the neurodivergent people with "scary" symptoms.

the ones who:

-say dark things without realizing

-talk to themselves

-have homicidal thoughts

-get really, really angry

-make others uncomfortable on accident

-don't tolerate bullshit

-can't/won't mask

-have dark interests

-have genuinely hurt others before

-have been in a psych ward before

-obsess over people

-have intrusive thoughts about hurting people

-have sexual intrusive thoughts

-don't really care about others much

-always choose themselves first

-have low/no empathy

-are seen as creepy or scary by others

this goes out to my folks with autism that isn't "uwu cute". personality disorder havers. schizospec people. ocders. odd and ied havers. and anyone and everyone else.

this post does not support intentionally hurting people. but people who have hurt others in the past and have changed or are trying to change/in the process of changing are more than welcome here.

#whoo!!! #go us

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how do people know how to feel things. or interpret comments or gage situations or emotions??? what is the normal amount of issues to have until it becomes an actual problem? WHAT IS NORMAL???????? seriously send help

#mentally ill #actually mentally ill #tw caps #psychosis #mental illness #schizospec #i need professional help maybe possibly

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This Van Gogh painting was created right after his first psychotic episode and I understand this painting more than any other piece of art. The distrust and fear in his eyes is one only understood by those with psychosis. To see your world crumble around you and become something new and terrifying is the greatest fear I have ever known. He looks almost scared of himself, seeing a new person in himself that he hasn’t seen before. The look in his eyes makes me think of how I look at others, unable to trust those I once could, becoming fearful of my own friends and family. His pain is so visible here and it really resonates with me.

#i've had that look before #i understand this in a painful and terrifying way

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Dissociation be like:

Gee, when was the last time I felt an Emotion?

“Tell me a bit about yourself” umm… who am I, and what do I like?

*Viewing the grocery store like a new reality to the point where you get disoriented and have to leave*

What was I doing again? Oh, right ✨absolutely nothing✨

Am I dizzy or am I tired? Am I tired or am I floating? Am I floating or am I floating?

These are… interesting… *Goes catatonic while questioning your hands*

“I’m sorry, but the person you are trying to reach is currently unavailable-”

Hold up, when is next Tuesday again?

*Stares down clock for a full two minutes* What time is it?

*Fumbling, bumping into, and tripping over everything. completely dazed and unfazed.*

*Laughing* like, I know that should hurt, but like…

*Was literally just put through a traumatic situation* Eh, I’ve been through worse 🙂

“You’re so resilient” *can’t connect to feelings or memories enough to be disturbed unless you’re literally facing torture, brutality, and/or death*

Why actually deal with your problems when you can just completely erase them from your mind?

You need drugs to screw up your perception? Pathetic. *Simply zones out really hard until everything goes all floaty and shifty and far away.*

*Stands up* Have I always been this tall?

“Yeah, yeah, life sucks. But have you seen this picture? Yeah, I get it. The world is falling apart. I promise I care. It’s just. well. cats in bow ties…”

I don’t need company. I have my brain for that. *Has a conversation with yourself for three hours straight while everything around you fades into the background.*

*Gets behind a wheel. Blanks out. Turns the engine off and sits in the parking lot for 20 minutes before:* Wait, why’d I come here?

*Wandering aimlessly in a state of mental confusion*

*Cracks an egg directly into the sink while cooking* Wait, what’d I just do?

*Appears to be sleeping with your eyes open. Is actually just staring through everything while your vision unfocuses and mind goes completely blank.*

Blacking out in social situations for reasons while some unknown force overtakes you and having very little memory of what you said and did after the fact.

Having very little connection to anything at all, feeling like you’re an observer of your own life rather than a participant, and feeling like everyone you interact with is being viewed through a wall of glass rather than being part of the same world as you.

#me rn 😩 #i'm aware but i'm like... not #and if i think about it too hard i get nauseous #rip me ig