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when people i love talk about wanting to lose weight and start reducing calories, i get so scared. i know exactly what it can turn into and i would be heartbroken if it happened to them too.

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calorie count

mini wheats- 230

2 fruit roll-160

390

liwuids

redbull- 110

vitamin water- 100

210

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calorie count

sour skittle- 100

trolli jelly beans- 110

pickle- 10

misc- prob ≈120

rice and tofu w/seasoning- 220

total- 560

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i need to purge

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i also relapsed in sh a couple times due to some relationship issues. i dont understand why i did… i was upset so i just did it and now i cant take it back. i had been clean for TWO YEARS before that. i just feel so stupid because my relationship isnt even bad.

why cant i be in love without being actually insane

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i had a whole moment in front of my bf and i feel embarrassed because i basically said i wanted to die. i dont really but at the time i did and now i cant remember half the things that had upset me

i want to call with him bc i love him but i physically dont know how to face him after that

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everything SUCKS

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guess whos baaaaack……. fuck

i think im gonna try to make my page less negative. maybe ill try poetry again? idk, im depressed again and dont know what im doing

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while we’re destigmatizing mental illness, don’t forget people with personality disorders. people with psychotic disorders. people with eating disorders. people with anything other than mood or anxiety disorders. “mental health matters” doesn’t start and stop with depression and anxiety.

i hope today and all the people in it are kind to those with a forgotten-about-until-it-can-be-villainized mental illness.

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hey

some real non-toxic weight loss tips for ya!

negative calorie foods aren’t real

if you only do cardio you’re gonna be really flabby cause you lost ur muscles first

you wont get bulky from lifting low (10-15lb) weights you will just lose fat faster

you can drink too much water 

fats are not your enemy oh my god! if you eat fatty foods you stay full all day

you can lose up to 2 pounds a week if you eat a whopping 1,200 cals a day. seriously.

not eating enough slows metabolism = slower weight loss

the more carbs you eat the hungrier you are gonna get during the day

take ur damn multivitamin

you will be fine if you cheat on your diet once or twice. you wont gain anything from eating a single piece of cake. you could die tomorrow enjoy your life

lose it slow for minimum skin sagging

fruits have a lot of sugar, cut them out if you are taking the proper vitamins

spot training isn’t real you cant just lose it in one place

stress can make you retain weight. so, ironically, if you’re worried about losing all the time you will just lose it slower

track your weight loss with weekly measurements. The scale is addicting and usually inaccurate and you will feel a lot more accomplished this way.

Your ideal thin self with a wonderful life doesn’t exist. Its still going to be you but just a little smaller. Learn to love the you right now cause you are all you got.

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answering what i have answers for. not doing thirty days cuz that takes forever

1. cw:54.3k/120lb i think

2. 162.5/5’4. no, it makes me look like a twink/femboy when i am not. i prefer women but everyone thinks im gay

6. yeah sometimes. i either restrict for too long or just feel shitty about something

8. hella benchpresses, hella pec flys, and a bunch of ab workouts. mix thay with cardio when my heart can take it

12. fruit, vegetables, anything vegetarian. pasta, rice, quesadillas sometimes

13. id say half between both. i exercise as a coping mechanism, eat when im hungry and sometimes binge. but i dont purge much anymore so thats whatever

15. im vegetarian cuz i dont like meat. ive been since i was like 12 so idk uf it helps or not cuz i dont remember that far back. vegetarian diets do more harm than good to some people so i dont recommend to anyone

17. not officially diagnosed, but probably. i dont think im as bad as i used to be w it tho

19. i had a couple fries earlier, before that probably like a month or two ago

24. im not pro anything and wouldnt recommend it or encourage people to do it

25. yeah, throughout middle school. first experience was mad difficult tho

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petition to replace overeating with masturbating

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This is a vent account. Please get help if you relate.

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went to lunch with my friends and i fee so shitty now. i ate so much

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i know my partner would want to know if i was getting bad again, but do i want to tell them or do i just want attention

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