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When I was a kid, maybe 14 or so (which is, you know, 20+ years ago), I belonged to a Yahoo! mailing list for an anime called Gundam Wing. It was mostly populated by other teens, of varying ages, as it was started by a teen and her friends. Eventually it migrated, when Yahoo! groups started as forums, and even branched off into non-GW related stuff in a second forum.

One of the things I remember the most clearly is the oldest person in the group. Her name was Steelsong. She was a 40-something Dom with a sub whose name we knew even though we knew nothing else. She ran her own fanfic archive because the web was still handmade HTML and navigated in webrings and I’m pretty sure Google didn’t exist or was only barely, barely launched and not well known. She was kind and patient and we loved her. She treated everyone on the group with the respect given any adult, even though most of the rest of the world was still treating us like we were children. Not teenagers even, but children. She never once condescended to any of us, never made our youth a barrier to her respect, never treated us like we were incapable of being full people or like we were less than her because we were young.

I remember that she hosted our fanfiction, as absolutely terrible as it was (and I still have some of it, I am WELL aware of how cringingly terrible it is, just absolute nonsense garbage), right there alongside of other fic that was soul-achingly beautiful. Not a separate section for her friends or for kids, just right there like we were good enough to feature alongside other authors. I never once received crit from her that I didn’t ask for, only support. Only love. I am still writing today partly because Steel was so kind about our fic, fanfic and original.

I remember that when I started doing clay sculpture, she commissioned a tiny pair of dragons from me, to support me doing artwork. She sent a check my mom cashed for me, and my mom helped me mail it when it was finished. It broke in transit, and Steel assured me that she mended it and that it was still beautiful. It was a small gold dragon curled up with a small silver dragon.

I remember that her patience knew no bounds. I remember that she was there for us, regardless of reason. When we wanted to know silly things like what to do with a single AA battery, she answered. When we had serious questions about sex, she answered.  When we had questions about writing, she taught us. When one of our group members, a young gay teen in Australia, ended up in the hospital and then stopped making posts, and we all knew what had happened, she let us talk to her about it because we couldn’t go to our own parents, even though we had just lost a friend.

She was not a replacement to my parents, but she was an extra parent, in some ways. A friend, certainly, but someone that had been through more life than we had and was willing to pass on knowledge if we asked for it. Someone older that we trusted with things that were too uncomfortable to go to our parents or teachers or whatever about, because we already knew she wasn’t going to judge us or something, and that we would get an honest answer.

I don’t know why I’m remembering this so hard tonight, and I’m not sure if there’s a point to sharing this, except that I know she’s gone now. She was ill the last time we spoke, and her site went down a long time ago, and I miss her. She was a huge influence on my life, then and now. She was hope, for me, that life as an adult didn’t have to be boring, it wouldn’t have to mean giving up the things I loved and Becoming Only Responsible With No Fun. Her presence meant I had hope I could still write and play with friends even when I wasn’t ‘a kid’ anymore. And she’s gone, and I miss her, and I wanted to share her from the perspective of youth, and the perspective over twenty years later has provided me.

And I think of her, when people go off about older folks being in fandom with younger folks. I’m an older folks now, or at least middle aged folks because there are certainly folks older than me still, but I wasn’t always. I’ve been here since i was a younger folks, and I know how much Steel’s presence and support meant to me, how much she helped not just me but everyone on that group. And I think of the people saying older folks don’t belong in fandom, and that they shouldn’t interact with younger folks at all, and I just think… I can’t agree. I needed that kind of solid presence in my life back then and even at the age I am now, I need the folks older than me to stay. I want them here.

So I guess, like, if you’re here and you’re 40 or 50 or 60 or 70 or 80 or whatever, I want you here in fandom with me, still. Your presence here is a comfort. It is hope. It is a reminder that life will continue to be fun, even as I get older, myself. And if you’re younger and you have this sort of elder in your groups, I hope that they are like Steel. I hope they are kind and patient and supportive, and that knowing them gives you hope for your own future. I hope in twenty years you look back and remember them fondly.

#fandom thoughts #good things

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#sterek #sterek art #sterekauzine #signal boost #oh wow

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SEVEN SENTENCE SUNDAY MONDAY

thanks for my tag @greyhavenisback! it's definitely more than 7 sentences, but here's mine (sterek, EXPLICIT)

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Occasionally, Stiles jacking off is just. A needs-must kinda thing. Like, a solitary perfunctory task. Some Lone Ranger mandatory mission. More of a means to an end than a purposely pleasurable activity, y'know? 

Those times include (but are certainly not exclusive to): 

1) Stiles still technically being a teenager and therefore occasionally still being prone to random and annoyingly persistent boners.

2) Stiles's ADHD meaning Tightly Wound is his default setting and he occasionally has to knock one out just to settle his damn nerves.

3) Occasionally (all the fucking time) Stiles can't sleep at the times he is actually supposed to be sleeping and desperately needs those oxytocin and dopamine chemicals that a good wank produces as a natural drug to float away on and knock himself the fuck out.

4) Occasionally, Stiles's brain simply hates him just that extra special amount and absolutely does not allow him to think of anything else until he imagines that Dangerously Hot Supermodel Asshole Werewolf (whom he's supposed to despise) using his Dangerously Hot Supermodel Asshole Werewolf mouth to work Stiles's dick until Stiles comes so hard into his own hand he can only see Tungsten light for a full minute straight.

On this fateful evening it is a hateful, hateful combination of the latter two on the list.

So, when well on his way to what he knows will be a successful yet frustrating orgasm, Stiles doesn't think him hearing a body climb through his bedroom window, quiet careful footsteps padding towards his bed, and heavy breaths tickling his ear canal as much of an issue—it's a scenario he's imagined a ton of dirty, sordid times before now. 

No, the actual very real issue presents itself when Stiles hears the absolutely definitely one-hundred percent not imaginary whisper:

"Do you need a hand with that?"

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tagging, play or nay: @shealynn88 @sharkfish @novemberhush @petrichoravellichor @rauko-is-a-free-elf @winchester-reload @verobatto @jmeelee @slytherkins @ltleflrt @catboynecromancy @flitwickslittlebrotha @demonlandline @ohhalefire @blue-eyedbeta @halinski @chrisbitchtree @grey-sides @stevewhoreington @witchsickness @aeon-of-neon @luulapants @jaskierswolf

#sterek #sterek fic #oh wow #yes please

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I’ve got one more character portrait I wanted to get out of my system before I need to work on other projects, so here’s Derek for ya! I honestly wasn’t sure how Sourwolf was going to turn out, but he actually exceeded my expectations. He was thankfully easier to draw than I thought he would be (the grumpy characters I do draw are hard AF to get right), so he was a breath of fresh air. I could definitely get used to drawing him more (and maybe doing some really cool things with his eyes). Also, swooning over that facial hair and the shadows, and this general colour palette was really great to work with. You can view Derek as part of the work Snapshots of Time on AO3. Thinking about maybe working on Scott or Lydia next, but we’ll see!

#derek hale #derek art

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Random sketch of my “Stilinski Twins Mafia AU” as a warm up

Google says, Mieczysław means “Sword” and “Glory,Famous”. Then the name I chose for Void, Mścisław means “Vengence” and “Glory,Fame”

#stiles stilinski #stiles art #stiles au #stilinski twins

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#confirmed.

- requested by anonymous ♡

#love in the air #payu #rain #payurain #favorite weather boys #just so gorgeous #the scene and the gifs

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payu: ‘Rain belongs to P'Payu now’. let me hear it. Rain: Rain belongs to P'Payu now.

#love in the air #payu #rain #payurain #favorite weather boys #this is gorgeous

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what are you looking at? love in the air episode 3

#love in the air #payu #rain #payurain #favorite weather boys

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“hey,” he said, half-asleep, “what were you before you met me?” “i think i was drowning.” a pause. “and what are you now?” he whispered, sinking. i thought for a second. “water.” ⚊ ocean vuong

#wangxian #wangxian edit #wangxian gif #oh wow oh wow #this is just gorgeous #the untamed

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moodboard: jyler (jeremy x tyler)

#jyler #jyler edit #jyler graphic

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- Midnight Visitor -

I finally finished giving this piece some extra love. This is a unique little illustration of mine because I didn’t use any references, it all just came from my head. I’m rather proud of that. 

Print Available / Ko-Fi 

#drarry #drarry art #drarry kissing #h/d #oh wow oh wow

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And here we have Teen Wolf in one single little gif.

Jeff is busy trying to convince people that he is a good writer, but Sterek is in the background shitting on literally everything Jeff loves.

#sterek #sterek tags #also #hobrien #hobrien edit #hobrien gif #lolling forever #still priceless #still accurate

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Just A Little Boy | Derek/Stiles | 2k

author : canigoforaquickwee | fairydustedtheory

Written for Sterek bingo 2020

Prompt : Childhood Friends

Summary : Stiles met an older boy during the school trip to the beach when he was four.

#sterek #sterek edit #sterek graphic #sterek au #sterek kids #sterek summer

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i just think they’re neat!

#sterek #sterek art #oh wow #so cool

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unpopular opinion: sometimes... fandom isn't that important. sometimes fandom isn't "that deep" to someone. sometimes people don't interact within the fandom and like to watch from afar. sometimes people just want to look at cool art or read cool fanfics, and that's it.

let's normalize fandom being a hobby or an interest and not a lifestyle. normalize taking a step back, taking time off and disconnecting from fandom without feeling bad. it's okay and healthy to prioritize yourself over media instead of consuming it 24/7. it's okay to set boundaries and enjoy something the way you need.

#fandom thoughts

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#sterek #sterek edit #sterek gif #oh wow oh wow oh wow #still perfect #yes please #gimme gimme #such a fave #this fandom i swear #sterek is eternal

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Got a weird thought on my way home from work while listening to the song I Want You To Want Me. And I was thinking what would Derek do when he shows up at a party cause Stiles drunk butt dialed him or something. But when Derek walks into the room where a very drunk Stiles is singing the song only to turn around to face Derek when the course comes on and starts singing to Derek. And Derek can hear that there is no lie even if its just a song.

wow stiles ur embarrassing 

and derek u so cheesy 

#sterek #sterek art #sterek comic #lol #yes please #go stiles