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this is my first petition, and i’m pretty hopeful that people may see it and reply- (i’m sorry if i’m not too literate — english is not my strong suit)

(cw // content mentions dec 18th, mentions of suicide and cyber bullying)

#sign the petition #ourdeathisnotyourproperty

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nospace is a terrible app since they’re ran by creators who supports nfts. also, the users harassed and called an 18 year old shawol a necrophile just because he made christmas imagines in a YAPPING app-

#ourdeathisnotyourproperty #nospace #shinee #jonghyun #kpop

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made a video about it

#BOOST

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KEEP BOOSTING, REBLOGGING AND LIKING THIS POST!!!! IT’S CLOSE TO THE TOP!!!

made a video about it

#ourdeathisnotyourproperty

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My brother’s friend wanted to ask if this Zepeto character looked like Jonghyun so here it is-

#TF?????? #i feel like whoever said no is fucking blind like how tf-

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things hasn’t been the same ever since the two left…

#those people? well they're fucking racists #they're making black people look terrible when they're the most awesome people i've ever met!

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you are such an amazing friend asahi. seriously. i’m cheering at you. people like this are scumbags. take a mental break from tumblr for a while. at least that’s what i did.

this is why i barely talk to tumblr users. if you ever see a user trying to debate with you, don’t even try it. their pea brains doesn’t understand if you agree with them or not. that’s what happens when you lose touch with reality.

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tumblr users are dumb as hell i can’t stand with them

these black girl mental health ads on the hating black women website is wild. this app is truly so shameless

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AYYYYYYYYYYYY THAT’S MY SHIT

how to summon the whole fandom

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NO NO NO NO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I give up on this blog I am sorry 😭

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Alright guys… it’s this time of year.

(CW // Dec 18th, death, rape, a bit of humour because that’s just how I cope with stuff like this)

If you guys know me, there are 2 anniversaries for me. Starting positive, this is my 14th anniversary with SHINee and being a blinger. Just 14 years ago in this day, I went to my cousin Natsumi’s (or as we call her Natty) house for her birthday where they would play music, particularly K-pop mainly. My eldest cousin Izumi (or her english name Isabella) played Replay on the computer and my 4 year old self liked the tune and asked for the name of it. The interaction went something like this (according to both Isa and Natty):

4 y.o Asahi: Oooh! I like this song! What is it called?

14 y.o Isa: It’s a song by SHINee. It’s called Replay. Do you like it? Do you want me to play it again?

4 y.o Asahi: Yes!

9 y.o Natty: Yeah! It sounds good!

14 y.o Isa: Ok then! *replays the song* (you see what I did there lol)

9 y.o Natty: *dances with my other cousin* (which is her little brother Ji — he was 3 at the time)

4 y.o Asahi: *watches the video from the computer whilst dancing on the spot* That guy is cute!

14 y.o Isa: *pauses the video* Which guy?

4 y.o Asahi: Go to the beginning!

14 y.o Isa: Ok! *replays the video again* The guy walking in?

4 y.o Asahi: Yes! He’s cute!

9 y.o Natty: No he’s not! This one is! *points to Taemin*

14 y.o Isa: He’s literally my age, Nat.

9 y.o Natty: I like him, he’s my favourite.

4 y.o Asahi: And I like the cute one.

14 y.o Isa: You mean Jonghyun?

4 y.o Asahi: Who’s Jonghyun?

14 y.o Isa: The guy that was walking at the beginning, that’s Jonghyun.

4 y.o Asahi: Ohhhhh-

9 y.o Natty: Who’s the cute one?

4 y.o Asahi: The cute one is Jonghyun.

9 y.o Natty: No! My favourite one!

14 y.o Isa: That’s Taemin, he’s literally 14.

9 y.o Natty: So you want to date him?

14 y.o Isa: No! He’s just too old for you.

9 y.o Natty: Well I’m gonna wait until I turn 18 to date him.

4 y.o Asahi: I love Jonghyun… he’s my favourite.

9 y.o Natty: See? Even he’s too young for him!

14 y.o Isa: I was joking!

9 y.o Natty: So can I date him?

14 y.o Isa: When you get older yes.

4 y.o Asahi: Can I date Jonghyun?

14 y.o Isa: Once you turn 18 yes.

4 y.o Asahi: But that’s going to take forever!

9 y.o Natty: You have 14 years! Surely that’s enough time to meet him and marry him!

14 y.o Isa: What do you mean marry-

4 y.o Asahi: OOOH I WANNA MARRY JONGHYUN- ISABELLA CAN I PLEASE MARRY HIM?

14 y.o Isa: When you turn 18, you two are going to have a beautiful wedding with flowers.

9 y.o Natty: AND YOU BETTER THROW THE FLOWERS TO ME BECAUSE I’M GOING TO MARRY TAEMIN!

14 y.o Isa: No you’re not.

9 y.o Natty: Yes I am!

14 y.o Isa: No you’re not.

9 y.o Natty: Yes I am! Asahi, can you give me the bouquet of flowers at your wedding so I’m next?

4 y.o Asahi: Yes! I will marry Jonghyun and you will marry Taemin! Isa, who are you going to marry?

14 y.o Natty: I’ve already made up my mind! *fast forwards to where Onew is* His name is Onew!

9 y.o Natty: Not as cute as my Taemin!

4 y.o Asahi: Not as cute as my Jonghyun!

14 y.o Natty: They’re all cute, but this is my husband!

4 y.o Asahi: Can Jonghyun be my husband too?

9 y.o Natty: No-

14 y.o Isa: Yes he can, sweetie.

4 y.o Asahi: Yay!

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This was from a home video camera where it started out as a birthday celebration since we went out to eat, went home to celebrate with cake and then this very moment that made history as it is. At the time, Izumi just came back from South Korea about few months ago hence the reason why she knew about K-pop very well. She got into SHINee around the time they just debuted, so she knew much about them more than me. She even met them before they debuted and almost made a connection with Onew.

I was lucky to say that I saw Jonghyun when I was 8 years old because little did I knew that this may be the only time I got to meet someone as beautiful as him. The second anniversary is the one that we all know, and if you don’t know about it then… unfortunately this isn’t positive at all.

Today marks 5 years since he began his Inspiration concert tour in heaven. If you guys didn’t get the hint of what I was talking about, he passed away 5 years ago. It’s one of the most hardest days in my life aside from the day my grandmother died and when I got raped by someone I thought was a friend.

Since it has been so hard for the past few years, that was why I would resort to violence where I nearly killed someone over it. I found someone who used to bully me in secondary school teasing me for the fact that Jonghyun died. I knocked her out and until this day she had to wear a wheelchair to walk around. It was so bad that I nearly got arrested but since I was a child, I was let off.

Because I really wanted to get that anger off me, this was why I tried for an alternative, dark/edgy/black humour. This was the thing that really helped me for the past few months alongside with making stories like he was still here. This has been so helpful with me for few years and I feel think that doing what I do is better than what most people would do and pretend that he never existed. I got to write about him being sexy and adorable — exactly how I saw him until this day. He even saw himself as that, so why should I even listen to the mob and do what they want to do. They clearly don’t know how it feels to be in a situation like this, or even being in my life. I’ve been harassed out of my fandom a few times online, but still tried to stay strong. However, I don’t think I could do this longer which brings me to this saying, this is going to be my last fanniversary with SHINee.

I’m not trying to say that I’m gone for good, I’ll still be around especially if you want to vent ( which my url is @mylittlejjongie ) and also to check up on them. I will still be making fanfictions of Jonghyun until the very last one. No matter what, I’ll still love SHINee and all the things they had done for me over the years and this isn’t exactly a farewell. It will be a slow process, but I will be stepping down from the Shawol throne for the last time.

Thank you to everyone who I had met on the way, especially to my cousin Izumi for getting me into SHINee in the first place. Who would of known that a little 14 year old girl would create history from a 4 year old. Of course, I can’t not say thank you to Jonghyun for everything he had done and congratulations for everything he accomplished in his life. No matter what, I’ll always remember him as the guy from the beginning of Replay and that he the was guy that was my first ever childhood crush.

One day I’ll see him again and we’ll be together forever. Not a soul in the light would ever tear us apart as I would be living my 4 year old self’s dream of marrying him with the flowers surrounding us. It would be us and only us.

Also I’d throw the bouquet of flowers below. Hold tight, because you’re next in line.

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Ok that’s an awful picture to end with…

WAIT-

RIP Jonghyun’s titties… now where am I going to get milk now?

But nah fr I miss him so much… I wish this never happened at all. If anything, I’d prefer it if it was me over him.

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#the self deprecating joke- that’s DEFINITELY asahi #but yeah we understand and we hope to see you whenever you decide to come back

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FINISHED!

#milkforjonghyun

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ALMOST DONE

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I’m half done now! Idk how I’m gonna do this but I’m doing it!

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HOW THE FUCK-

#milkforjonghyun is finished in 2 minutes lol

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Good luck everyone! I hope it goes well for you!

#milkforjonghyun

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