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Was bickering (messing around) with my dad cause he said I wear pajamas to school all the time, when I don’t. Little does he know it’s because I feel fat as fuck in them and would never wear them to a public space

#no eating #eating diary #eating #im going to kms #light as a 🪶 #might kms #ready to kms #💡as a 🪶 #mealsp0 #@ana

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Guys I started watching glee and Kurt is literally me im him Kurt is me and I am Kurt

#ed blogg #glee

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How do I explain to my friends that I’m not a bad student or lazy I’m just severely depressed and haven’t been eating or sleeping so I’m constantly tired

#no eating #eating diary #eating #im going to kms #light as a 🪶 #might kms #ready to kms #💡as a 🪶 #@ana #mealsp0

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Feeling really gross and ugly today

But I’ve dropped 3 pounds in the past week and a half so

#tw disordered eating #no eating #disordered eating thoughts #eating diary #ed not sheeren #ed not ed sheeran #4n0r3xia #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ana diary

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Hate being on my period

generally weigh more and it literally hurts to exercise, specifically running. Tender chest one of the worst parts of my period for me

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So I kind of have a little bit of a crush on pastry girl (from my last post) And I’m actually about to lose my mind, I can’t tell if she hates me and is just friendly towards me because we’re friends with the same people, or if she actually doesn’t hate me.

But I’m convinced she hates me, in the post below this I was talking about the pastries to brought to practice yesterday and she brought them in a couple minutes before practice officially started, so it was Me, Pastry girl, My dad, A Co-Coach, and this girl Armadillo, and we’re all sitting on the side of the mat (that I had just mopped that they were getting crumbs and blueberry all over lol hahahaha) and I’m going through a playlist with Armadillo and Pastry girl offers a pastry to everyone EXCEPT ME. She’s literally sitting like 2 feet in front of me offering them to my Dad, our Co-coach, and Armadillo AND SAYING NOTHING TO ME, and yeah I was gonna recite my ‘no-thank-you-I-had-a-big-lunch’ monologue if she did offer me one, but she didn’t!

And I know this is like an obvious thing of yeah she hates me to other people, but she very regularly talks to me during practice, gives me her notes from our shared English class without me asking and stuff, helps me with playlists, and sits me with me. IM SO CONFUSED

I’m about to lose it OH MY GODDDD

#i’m about to lose it #im going to kms #might kms #ready to kms #i wanna kms #tw disordered eating #no eating #disordered eating thoughts #eating diary #ed not sheeren #ed not ed sheeran #4n0r3xia #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ana diary #light as a 🪶

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Not to post more about wrestling when this is mainly an ED blog but

I’ve been baking almost like my entire life, and I don’t think my dad has really ever told me I’m good at baking, and yk maybe I suck at baking, but I really love it.

Anyways, there’s a new girl on the team and she brought some pastries with her yesterday for the coaches (terrible idea around wrestlers btw esp because we have a tourney Saturday) and my dad (a coachh) just kept saying stuff about how much of an amazing baker she was, and she probably is (I didn’t have one because I had my meal at lunch and I had reached my cal count) but it just hurts to hear him praise wrestlers (and pretty much everyone except his kids) when he’s never really told me the same about things I’m interested in

I make a lot of cookies and cakes and he actually refuses to try them sometimes so I force feed them to my brothers

I have like a lot more to complain about but this post is getting a bit longer so I’ll save it for a different post

#tw disordered eating #no eating #disordered eating thoughts #eating diary #ed not sheeren #ed not ed sheeran #4n0r3xia #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ana diary #im going to lose it #im going to kms #light as a 🪶

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Especially during school, I feel like only eating lunch makes 24 hr fasts so much easier, like making it to ≈12pm is so much easier for me than making it to 8

Especially since I won’t seem like an @n0rexic to my friends, since they’ll see me eating at lunch, and since we usually eat dinner super late at my house, it’s pretty easy to just sleep through it to avoid eating

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rb if you’re still active on edblr january 2024!! moots? happy new year! 🎉

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Being the daughter of a coach to a sport you don’t play is so strange

Like I’m not Grace I’m “Coach’s Kid” and I’m like forced to meet people. I can’t meet them on my terms (I met a couple of wrestlers because they just randomly showed up at my house and I was all in my pajamas and stuff it was embarrassing) and my dad has no problem telling the wrestlers embarrassing things about me for some reason

And I like this girl on the team but I can’t date her because I’m the Coach’s daughter and if we dated and broke up it would mess with the teams dynamic (I don’t wrestle but I’m the co-manager of the team)

Oh yeah and IM FAT AROUND WRESTLING WHICH IS KIND OF ALL ABOUT WEIGHT AND I WILL NEVER ESCAPE IT. Told a guy on the team I didn’t wrestle and he went, “oh I can tell” IS THAT HIM CALLING ME FAT OR HIM SAYING THAT BECAUSE LIKE I DONT WRESTLE.

Anyways

#tw disordered eating #no eating #disordered eating thoughts #eating diary #ed not sheeren #ed not ed sheeran #eating #4n0r3xia #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ana diary #kill my life #kill my self #lesbo

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Worst part abt visiting family is not being able to do my workouts without everyone being up my ass about not eating very much and working out (the boys will make fun of me and the girls with over encourage me 😝)

#tw disordered eating #disordered eating thoughts #eating diary #ed not sheeren #ed not ed sheeran #4n0r3xia #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ana diary #no eating

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Do oranges make you fat cause I am fucking this thing up 😫

#tw disordered eating #no eating #disordered eating thoughts #eating diary #ed not sheeren #ed not ed sheeran #eating #tw ana diary

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My stomach hurts 😢

#tw disordered eating #no eating #disordered eating thoughts #eating diary #ed not sheeren #ed not ed sheeran #eating #4n0r3xia #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ana diary #hot girls have tummy issues

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About me

Name: Grace/ Gracie

15

Height: 5’1

Sw: 137

Cw: 125

Gw1: 125 ❎

Gw2:120

Gw3: 115

Gw4: 110

Ugw: 90-95

Been surrounded by wrestling all my life and if you know anything about wrestling you know it’s all about weight

Really only doing this because I don’t like how I look, I used to be a lot smaller when I was younger and quarantine kind of fucked me over. I don’t support fatphobia I just don’t like how I look fat. (Also doing this cause I wanna be like small and pretty for the girl I like 🤭)

Always love having moots so come talk to me if you wanna (13-18 no like adult-adults)

This is an ED blog but also just my little silly girl blog

#tw disordered eating #no eating #disordered eating thoughts #eating diary #ed not sheeren #ed not ed sheeran #eating #4n0r3xia #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ana diary

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Wieiad

Med fries- like 390 I think?

One of the small line gatorades- 85

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Walking and jogging on 15% incline for 35 minutes: -451

Net: 24

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Planning to walk more again later but I’ve been so tired lately so maybe maybe not

I HAVE BEEN 130 FLAT ALL WEEK. How I make it go down more 😭😭😭

I keep seeing motivation like oh be so skinny all your friends can pick you up but all my friends are wrestlers and can so imma need diff motivation, someone please send me meanspo

#tw disordered eating #no eating #disordered eating thoughts #eating diary #ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #4n0r3xia #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ana diary

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WIEIAD

-McDonalds meal: 1150

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Dance: like around 200

Net:950

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First time in a while that I’ve eaten more than 1000 cals in a day but idrc cause I took like 5 Benadryl before eating and went to sleep IMMEDIATELY

Writing this on the treadmill

I’m really tired rn so I’m gonna go straight to sleep after I’m off of the treadmill

#tw disordered eating #no eating #disordered eating thoughts #eating diary #ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #eating #4n0r3xia #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ana diary

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Wieiad

Strawberry vanilla olipop- 35cal

Chicken Quesadilla- probably like 500cal or something

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Dance: ≈-300cal

Fast: 20hours

Reg walking cals: -138

Net: like 193 or something

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I’m so fucking sick of myself

Why I can’t I like an0rex1c right isn’t that like the one thing I should be able to right I’m so fucking fat and I perform in less than a month and also tomorrow

I’m so ugly and I know being skinny isn’t going to fix my face but idk I’m so sick of everything

#tw disordered eating #disordered eating thoughts #no eating #eating diary #ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #4n0r3xia #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ana diary