disgusting-whore-child

[disgusting-whore-child]

vent 2.0

rb this if u hate ur brother

tw for heavy stuff

Matthew, my dear brother, you make yourself hard to love.

Why must you be so angry and hateful? 

Your words are like spikes

I wish you were my sister.

Do you even love me?

I wish you were dead sometimes

You would be happier with God, and we would be happier without you

I wish I loved you the way I should, yet my hate for you clouds my mind. 

I wish we were all happy

I wish you were happy

I wish I was happy

Please, just leave this home

Leave forever and never return!

Be gone, Matthew!

#Matthew is my brother btw #i aint tagging all that

[disgusting-whore-child]

vent

heavy stuff warning

Why, God?

Why have You made me suffer?

Every day is pain and agony

I am always the one in a 3 group or the one partnered with the teacher

I am always the one in the deep corner of the class

I am always the weird one

Why, God? Why must I suffer?

Nothing brings me happiness the way it used to

My friends hate me and for good reason

Please, kill this bastard son

Take me in Your hands and make me pure again

Remove this disgusting perverse filth from my mind and make me a pure child in Your eyes

Make me one alone, make me walk alone in Purgatory

Every bone in my body hurts

My wrists are a telltale sign of my hatefulness

My stomach hurts, shall I tear it out to please You?

Purify me, make me happy again, please God!

#champions slashes #vent #su1c1dal #internalized homophobia #Internalizes transphobia #self hatred #religious trauma #chr1st1an1ty