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i kno i haven’t been active in a minute but curious if anyone would be interested in gaalee fics in exchange for donating directly to Palestinians’ GFMs. i have a massive spreadsheet of people i have been trying to help spread but my IG following is not great and i thought this might help

the fics would have to be a reasonable length for me to write (i don’t expect to get many of these but still) so between 3k and 5k words probably and nothing NSFW. the minimum donation would be like $5 and the length would not change based on donation amount, but you could donate to multiple funds and get different fics or combine into a longer fic (baring in mind longer works will take me more time)

i don’t feel well rn but if ppl show an interest i’ll make a formal post with more details

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A comprehensive guide as to why Aburame Shino is peak Autistic Representation

Very long post under the cut!

( This is poorly organized and doesn't actually include everything, but you know :] )

It starts with the flashback to when Torune was taken and flashbacks to early academy days, during which Shino is about 7.

He showed no interest in playing with other children, or in making friends. He didn't see a point in talking to people who didn't want to discuss his special interest, which he dedicated all his free time to, and he didn't emote when Torune was taken away, even though it impacted him very deeply. Even as a small child he talked "like an adult", monotonous, strange phrasing, over-explaining, and too quietly. When he wasn't being ignored by his classmates, they were trying to use him.

Later on when you see him socialize more, in Pre-Teen and Teenage years, more things become apparent.

In general he seems semi-verbal, most of the time silent, and becomes agitated when forced to repeat himself. Konoha Hiden expands on this, saying that he wishes people just knew what he meant and felt without him having to talk, and that he is bonded to Akamaru because he feels that Akamaru is the only one who he can communicate with in that way. When he's upset he isolates and at one point is even seen hitting his head when he was trying to cool down and was interrupted by unwanted social interaction.

He doesn't understand why people need to see his face, and usually doesn't look in the direction of the person he is addressing. He also doesn't understand jokes, rarely laughs, and angrily dissects puns…but then later puns become his entire sense of humor. He's never dressed for the season, either. Aburames tend to be very covered up by default but besides his Part 1 outfit he is always in multiple layers regardless of the season. (Year round trench coats are a huge autistic stereotype.) He gets along better with people outside of his age group, respected by adults and looked up to by younger kids who think he is cool and knowledgeable. Konoha Hiden also states that during this period he was suffering with comorbid Anxiety and Depression.

There's a lot of black and white thinking on display, for example he is anti-alcohol-- obviously he would have been taught not to drink as an Aburame, but he also doesn't like when others drink. He sees it as universally bad. He's a stickler for the rules and often scolds his peers for not following rules and guidelines. He also seems like a bit of a prude even though it is suggested that he himself has a dirty mind (noticing girls' cup sizes and the implications of Road to Ninja treating his Personal Business as a personality trait) which is a funny hypocrisy I have noticed in a lot of autistic people. He holds a hell of a grudge and ruminates endlessly, which is documented at higher rates in autistic people due to rigid thinking.

He is trying to make friends like Torune wanted, and is now aware that not having friends is a bad thing. He starts feeling the pain of being ostracized not only in general but also by his friend group and isn't even sure if he has friends. He is 17 years old before he understands what allistics consider friend status.

We start to see some of his sensory issues pop up too. He is seen wearing sunglasses even at night and while sleeping. He hates any food that smells strongly and his favorites are pretty bland. He pulls a piece of meat out of his mouth, in public, uncharacteristically violating taboo. He was able to identify the number of people in a distant group only by sound at a time when this would have been above his skill level. (Which makes sense. Team 8 is thus Eyes, Ears, Nose. More on this later.) By Boruto, he has added ear protection and stronger eye protection that he wears when he is expecting to be near fluorescent lights or crowds. Suddenly his overall mood is greatly improved and he can smile openly.

He shows signs of hyperempathy in being overly distressed when losing insects, as he has many millions of them, and having an exaggerated physical response to anticipating Sakura and Naruto's despair.

He has chronic bitchy resting face and is extremely blunt to a a degree of being insulting, which makes people assume he is a mean person. He also comes across as pedantic to his peers, when from his perspective he's just didactic, and even though he over-explains everything his peers still have difficulty understanding what he's saying.

He will also randomly connect the topic of discussion to his special interest and begin infodumping about bugs, and isn't aware that people around him are not interested or worse, repulsed by his special interest until told, at which point he feels personally hurt. Generally his interests are very stereotypical of an autistic person: bugs, comics, ecology, strategy, etc.

He seems level-headed and robotically analytical until he reaches a certain threshold when he suddenly over-emotes in dramatic and awkward ways.

You might notice that when his hands aren't in his pockets, he doesn't seem to know what to do with them; they're always balled into fists, which smells of someone who was taught not to stim. Even so, when he gets really excited in Konoha Hiden and is being himself, he starts spinning around. His speech quirk preceding frequent over-explanations (Why? Because... / The reason is because...) is also considered a type of echolalia.

Mentioning Hiden, in the Blank Period we start to see changes associated with the autistic experience of starting to understand that you are awkward, not knowing how to fix it, and all the anxiety that comes with that. He is stuck riding the lag train and is fully ready to become a hermit in the woods.

He isn't understood in the way that he wants to be understood. He can't let himself get comfortable in other people's homes. He uses his trench coat as a barrier between himself and other people, treating it like a security blanket. He still doesn't understand how his choice of attire affects people's perception of him and becomes agitated when he's told it makes him look suspicious. He doesn't appear to be pursuing any intimate relationships, and displays a lack of boundaries when picking Choji up with his insects when he gets excited.

The lag train becomes even more apparent in Boruto. He hasn't found a partner, his friends are growing even further away from him, and possibly worst of all he's seen as more childish-- too grown-up as a kid, too immature as an adult.

He is masking extremely heavily for the sake of his career, mirroring Iruka, removing almost all of his personal identity from his appearance including the parts that made him feel safe-- everything has to be professional. This actually hurts his ability to work with kids because he already knew how to talk to them, but he is now trying to emulate the image of a teacher for the sake of professionalism.

In the classroom he struggles with things I have seen real-life autistic teachers talk about: He works well with the younger kids, they love him and his fun facts, but the older ones can tell that there is something different about him and they will ignore or outright bully him. It's very difficult to control them or hold their interest. (He later develops stomach problems due to stress from working with said older kids)

The big problem is that he is not good at masking. In traditional settings with very clearly defined roles and rules of how to act and what to say he gets by just fine, but in organic interactions it's nothing but spaghetti and this causes him severe stress. He is proud of himself for being able to speak to many people in a day now but at what cost? Pattern recognition and rigid thinking of course leads to rumination spirals, and under extreme pressure he starts reverting to childish things. He has only had Kura-maa a short time before he becomes attached and starts personifying it. This may seem childish, but autistic people are more likely to do this and will continue to do so later into life than their allistic peers. (See Object Personification in Autism: This paper will be very sad if you don’t read it)

He has become a real people-pleaser, allowing himself to be imposed upon constantly, and apologizes excessively even for situations that were not his fault, which are both behaviors many autistic people pick up. And, for all his masking, he can't hide that he is still terrible at understanding and constructing metaphors, ie "bad insects" and the yakisoba bun analogy.

He is trying his damnedest to adapt and accommodate himself in a rapidly changing world that wasn't very friendly to him to begin with. He was able to slide under the radar as respectable and somewhat normal when the world was as rigid as he is. Now every day he's facing new challenges that he isn't used to and he's acting a little fucked up and neurotic, overcompensating and making it worse.

So yeah, maybe he's not 'cool' by most standards. Not everyone gets a happy ending where they become the most ideal version of themselves. Not in real life, and not in animes that have hundreds of characters. What's important is that he is exactly on the trajectory set by previous installments to the series and very accurately and thoroughly depicting autistic struggles in every aspect of life. And that's pretty cool to me. :)

#Shino #Shino aburame #His story really hits home #No wonder why he used to be my favorite character gnngnngn #And it made me really sad to see him being constantly bullied and the writers were like “haha it's fun right” NO IT'S NOT PDBFBFODJF #Thanks for this amazing analysis

[darkyukifr]

GaaLeesbians, part 48956

I am obsessed with Indian musics (and the dances! AND THE CLOTHES) for quite a long time now, so here I am paying tribute to them and to GaaLee

#gaalee #gaara #rock lee #gaaleesbians (once again (and forever)) #lesbians #I don't like drawing backgrounds but it adds so much to the atmosphere *cries in pain* #darkyart

[darkyukifr]

$1 = 100 words: drabbles or ficlets of your choice of fandom and pairing/character!

As some of you already know, I've been dealing with some serious health issues in the past year. My doctor has recommended a treatment that could help alleviate or even eliminate my symptoms, but it's very intensive (5 days a week) and very, very expensive. It also isn't covered by my insurance. Being sick has decimated my savings and my PTO from work, so I can't afford to take time off or pay for the treatment on my own right now.

As a result, I'm offering to write drabbles or ficlets in exchange for Ko‑fi donations!

Here's how it works:

Send me a Ko‑fi donation in any amount.

I'll write you a drabble or ficlet according to the amount you sent. $1 = 100 words!

Contact me either in your donation notes or by any of the methods listed on my Ko-Fi page with the fandom, ship (or character(s) if you want gen), squicks/do-not-wants (DNWs), and a one- to two-word prompt. Remember, these are drabbles, so there won't be too much plot to them!

I'll send you your drabble / ficlet via your preferred method within 2 weeks of your donation date.

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[darkyukifr]

i just think 4ggravate are neat

#YOUR DRAWINGS ARE AMAZING #I could honestly share your whole blog gnzieugbezubgzue #but I love the Sumeru's gang so I am sobbing on your interpretation of them because they are BEAUTIFUL #AND CYNO'S HAIR I'm looking respectfully #and the bodyshapes gnzieubgiezu #genshin impact #cyno #kaveh #alhaitam #tighnari

[darkyukifr]

do you have any other ships you like besides kakagai?

Yes :)

(The moss sold me on it, I love you, The Moss)

#gaalee #gaara #rock lee #look at them being lovey-dovey #fanfictions also sold me on them - WRITERS I LOVE YOU #I love the colors and the dynamism #also why is it THAT FUNNY I love it

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Naruto #69 (3/4)

The Start of a Crimson Spring

n. 2

n. 4

#maito gai #rock lee #ok let me cry alone in the corner #don't mind me really *sobs*

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do you ever feel victimized by fanfic authors when you make them fanart and then they give YOU compliments and you try to give THEM compliments and its a vicious cycle??? ♥♥ ft. @nicolareed

#YES #I'm sad I used to be too shy to do that BUT I'M NOT ANYMORE #I also love watching other writers and artists working together goejrkfhd my little kokoro #I wish I could draw a fanart for all the writers I admire (maybe I will (WHY DOES IT TAKE SO LONG TO DRAW)) #Also this comic is very cute and I LOVE IT

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today i sketched temari 😁😁

#temari #this feels so dreamy it's GORGEOUS #the colors and the movemeeeennntsss aaaaaaahhh

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They are old and enjoying their life together

At first I wanted to draw them with traditional wedding clothes but then I saw all the embroidery on the gorgeous Algerian costumes AND I’m a lazy person (shame on me)

I absolutely love when writers and artists give them some cultural backgrounds with different clothes, customs, and my favorite one : the focus on the languages bgzieubguzebi I LOVE THAT like it’s so intimate to talk about your mother language and having your loved one learn it because they want to know more about you and where you come from? YES PLEASE

#gaalee #leegaa #gaara #rock lee #I don't know how to draw old people I'm sorry I swear #but it's never too late to learn #I looked at some pictures of my father for the wrinkles (I love him) #darkyart

[darkyukifr]

greetings gaaleesbians i have returned victorious from my venture into the sacred lands of the Tokyo Metropolitan Area and other glorious places in japan with absolutely banger toilets and thusly i can resume my scheduled shitposting. here’s some nejiten garbage from the draft of the upcoming chapter of tgod

#nejiten #Neji being like “actually 🤓☝🏻” and I don't know if I love or hate that #also this is absolutely canon

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Idle Games and Ignorant Altercations. Why, Even Saints Would Crumble at the Sight of Such Impudence.

#gaara #long hair + Gaara = YES (I'm good at math) #the art is beautiful and gorgeous and spzbcivndozvf #I love the clothes

[darkyukifr]

#gaalee #gaara #rock lee #traditional clothes (and traditional flirting hehehe *wink*) #I love the patterns

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To continue with the outfit swaps, Tenten with Lee's outfit, it would have been very fun to have all of team Gai in Green spandex

#tenten #team gai #Or team spandex #I absolutely love the idea #she looks AMAZING and I love it

[darkyukifr]

Hi!! Want to tell you that your art style is incredible! And for the theater boi request, maybe Kankuro and Akamaru is a good idea?

Have a great day/night!

Hiiiiiiii ah thank you!

You hit me right in kokoro with your req, always weak for kankuro with animals

insert kiba saying "i thought the 'good boy' title goes to me?" on background

#kankuro #akamaru #I love the artstyle #dear artist your Kankuros are amazing #akamaru is a good boi

[darkyukifr]

I have this headcanon where after several years of knowing each other, Lee would show gestures of tenderness towards Gaara while being careful to respect his boundaries. He would be very casual about that to make him comfortable, but sometimes he would look right in the eyes to convey all of his affection.

And then at some point, Gaara would reciprocate by putting his hand on Lee’s lower back while walking and other little displays of fondness that are actually big steps for him.

I am very vanilla but I LIKE SMALL GESTURES OF TRUST AND TENDERNESS so yeah I had to draw that

#gaalee #random gaalee headcanons I have in my head that are actually haunting me #the hand on lap move is my weakness (I'm lying I have many others) #darkyart