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I dont know what my feelings are

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Breathing still hurts alot whenever you are around.

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I became autoimmune to myself and theres nothing more destructive than me to me

#autodestruction #sad #tw s3lf harm #depressed

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May it end

There comes a time when time does not run, my veins run out of oxygen and my blood stops, never to see my heart beat again. If I feel like my fucking brains are going to go out of my head and that they don't stop talking to me about oddities and to avoid seeing my face in all the fucking mirror, shoot. That to go back to being who I was I have to remember? I'm not even sure what the hell I had breakfast yesterday, my art becomes violent and with my self-destructive thoughts I think about it, I think about it and I think about it again, why doesn't it stop hanging around? And with red eyes from crying my mind goes blank, I can't even think. How many voices speak to me at the same time? How long am I going to have to keep listening to their whispers in the wind? Why are my actions not in accordance with my pacts? Why do I hide everything from people who want to treat me with tact? My fear is so great that it takes hold of me in my own fucking room. And I feel like I'm killing myself, what happened in an alley and I see a homeless man and a cat and all I think is that they deserve a good time. And I'm not missing anything, my head is a mess and a little after day I'm still hurt and even so I laugh. And I drown those thoughts among so many among hundreds, I drown them with songs that speak of suffering, that hits me in the constancy of losing my breath, and I don't feel? And what happens when I lie? When I look at the passage of time and I think how much fucking time i have been trying?

Drknss

#suicide #thoutghts #sad #depressed #dark #art #writing #poetry

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Water in my veins

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Contigo haría todo el porno que tengo en mi Tumblr

Y las cosas tiernas, pero sólo contigo.

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by Brendon Burton

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*Intensifies*

Te amaré por S I E M P R E. Entiéndelo, no me alejaré me dolería demasiado.

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One day you will find someone who doesn’t look at you and see only the broken pieces. Instead they will see the light that shines through those cracks. They will help you grow flowers within those pieces of you that you assume will never live or breathe or grow again.

One day you will find someone who doesn’t allow you to see only the worst in yourself. Instead they will show you the same reflection in the mirror that you have come to hate so much and show you the flecks of gold that you have constantly missed seeing in your own eyes, the beauty of your soul as it resides inside your face, the softness inside your heart that glows so beautifully through.

One day you will find someone who shows you that everything that scares you can be defeated. They stand by you and hand you the weapons that will defeat your demons, never once trying to fix you, instead giving you the confidence that you can and you will fix yourself. They are the person who will cheer you on the most, never feeling insecure of your successes, instead encouraging you to grow more successful everyday.

One day you will find someone who will aid you to become the best version of yourself. They show you how brave you truly are and give you perspective on the things that have tried to destroy you. They let you fall apart when you need to and help you piece yourself back together again. Their love for you gets you through everything.

One day you will find someone who brings you healing. They take your hand and walk besides you on this path which you think you are completely alone on. They allow you to take in everything around you at your own pace and at your own time. And most importantly they help you to evolve into the person you need to be. They help you become the hero in your own story.

Nikita Gill, One Day You Will Find Someone Who Brings You Healing

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Acting like you don’t care is not letting it go.

Penelope Douglas, Bully (via wordsnquotes)

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Still waiting for Saeran’s route…

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