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me: I'm done grieving, I already accepted my illness and all it brings with it, it's totally ok

also me on a random tuesday: my life is never going back to what it was, I'm never going to be able to do the things I loved the most the same, it's over and I gotta learn to live with that but it's kinda impossible because I'm so young and I had so many dreams and so many things I wanted to do that I can't anymore, at least not without all this pain and suffering

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Did really good on Tuesday classes. Got a good workout and stayed alive. I knew I shouldn’t have gave it my 100% and experience the consequences 😭

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That chronic fatigue is certainly syndroming today. Haha

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"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

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getting disabled over a period of time is so weird, because sometimes i’ll just see something, let’s say about running, and think “i should do that!” and then i slowly realise that i can’t run anymore. i can barely even walk. it’s weird because there wasn’t one event that happened that made me like it. there wasn’t a day where i woke up and couldn’t run anymore. it was slow and gradual. and sometimes i realise how much ive lost that i didn’t even realise because it all happened so gradually. sometimes it feels like yesterday i could run and today i can’t, and sometimes it feels like forever ago that i could.

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“Have you tried exercising more?” MOTHERFUCKER I AM LITERALLY A PROFESSIONAL DANCER THAT DANCES ALL THE TIME. LIKE IT IS PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE TO EXERCISE MORE YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND IM LITERALLY AT THE MAXIMUM

i think every physically disabled person should get 200 dollar whenever someone suggests exercising more btw

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Day 83629372927 of going to dance despite feeling too tired to dance because nothing else is wrong with me but my fatigue

#I CANNOT DO THIS ANYMORE #ballet #disabled dancer #actually disabled #ballerina

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Whoever invented backwards fouettes. I’m gonna fucking get you. When I get you. Boy when I get you.

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Top ten worst ballet moves and types of ballet combinations (I have POTS)

10. Frappes

9. Long turn combinations

8. Backwards Port de bra.

7. Penche.

6. Forward Port de bra.

5. Those moves in choreography where you kneel and then get up really quick. I see stars

4. Standing in one spot as an ensemble dancer for a really long time. Fuck this I need to sit

3. Grande Allegro

2. Petite Allegro in general

1. Petite Allegro that involves a bunch of really fast little jumps. Specifically that kind of petite allegro. Tachycardia 📈

#ballet #disabled dancer #actually disabled #ballerina #dance #dancer #disability #disabled #invisible disability #disabled ballerina

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idk who popularised the narrative "i don't let my disability stop me" but it needs to be stomped on, pulverised by a meat grinder and then thrown into the depths of the sea never to be seen again.

it is by far the most popular ableist narrative and i see it so much and immediately just think i'm a bad person for not being able to 'get over' my disability despite the fact it's an incurable, permanent and severely disabling disability.

stop stop stop stop pushing the mindset that people have to persevere despite their disabilities in order to be a worthy person

leave me alone and let me be disabled in peace

#I’m a professional dancer #I try not to let my disability stop me #I really do #but sometimes it does #and that’s okay #I can persevere #but sometimes I can’t #and that’s still okay #my disability stops me from doing what I love sometimes #disability is DISABLING

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“Have you tried exercising?” I am literally a professional dancer I’ve tried exercising for the last 8 years and still have a chronic condition

please be aware that disabled people are not "against exercising"

Some disabled people's symptoms worsen when exercising and they can't affort that while holding a job/studying/making an ssi application

some diasabled people cannot exercise unless in physical therapy, which they may not have acess to.

Some disabled people risk hurting themselves permanently by exercising

A lot of disabled people do exercise but abled people don't consider it exercise because it isn't normal enough.

Most disabled people have been told to "just exercise" or "try yoga". Most disabled people have been guilted into thinking it's their fault because they're not exercising or not enough. Most disabled people feel like shit when you bring up exercise because they'e learn it's followed up with either a lesson on how they can "cure their disability" or how they're "letting themselves go"

Some disabled people get trauma response by people telling them to exercise, or that execise is good for them even if that is true.

When someone tells me exercise is good for me i have to stop myself from sobbing on the spot. Because my dad and doctors told me i should just exercise no matter how many specialist's letters i have saying i risked permanent damage. Because my physical therapy is right there, i just can't acess it. Because all the ressources are a subway away and i'm being denied them. i'm being told to way for a year and a half while i watch my mobility and pain worsen, knowing it could be getting better. Because it reminds me how abandoned i am from people who could save me.

Because telling disabled people "exercise is good for you" or "have you tried exercising" is an insult to how much they want and are trying to get better. This is getting in the "i know better" position and getting mad when you do not know better.

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Also the clear beads are representing invisible disability :)

Disability pride Kandi I made. I don’t intend on wearing this to dance because it is big and clunky, but I wanted to show it on my disability side blog anyways :P

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Disability pride Kandi I made. I don’t intend on wearing this to dance because it is big and clunky, but I wanted to show it on my disability side blog anyways :P

#kandi bracelet #kandi #disabled #disabled dancer #disabled ballerina #disability pride #actually disabled #ballerina #ballet #dance #dancer #disability #invisible disability