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the urge to overdose on my antidepressant in hopes that this feeling and thoughts will go away asap because i don't like this at all. i hate it. i hate it so much it makes me sick and makes me want to hurt myself.

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god i want to break down pero wala akong safe space dito lol fuck i hate myself

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tangina bakit naman naiiyak in public kanina pa 'tong mga luha na 'to di na ako natutuwa. kanina sa registrar naiyak din. ano ba 'to. bakit ko ba pinagdadaanan lahat nang 'to lol

#mylife

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siguro di ko na lang isshare yung next journey ko. para walang expectations and inputs from other people. as much as possible siguro family ko na lang muna makakaalam, and siguro itong blog ko lol.

i hate what i'm feeling right now. i can't understand it. but it feels so heavy and depressing. can't believe i'm crying AGAIN in this hallway.

i hate nostalgia. i hate reminiscing. i hate this all.

#mylife

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umuulan pa nga, wala na naman akong payong. di ako makaalis agad for fuck's sake.

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i still hate myself for not being able to finish in this school. and to hear na sayang 'to, na nasayang ko 'to, it hurts and i hate it.

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i wish people around me doesn't think na sayang at di ko natapos pag-aaral sa school na 'to. i wish they don't think na it's a shame. so that i won't have to think that way too and believe it.

i've been conditioning myself to think na hindi yun sayang. na hindi sayang ang ust. na it's okay, it's not a shame. not a waste. kasi para naman sakin eh kaya napagdesisyunan ko lahat ng 'to.

i hate the word sayang. i don't want to hear it. both from the people who don't know me and those who are close to me.

kasi if i hear it from them, that means it's true. it's sayang. and i don't like that. ayoko isipin na sayang 'to.

#mylife #thoughts

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dami ko nang reblogs hhhhh :/

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𝙷𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚢 𝚙𝚛𝚒𝚍𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚑 𝚐𝚞𝚢𝚜!!!

#lavenderhaise #reblogs

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shouldve named my cat kenma instead of kuroo because she has kenma's attitude 😭😭

he does not wish to be held

#lavenderhaise #reblogs

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ang sarap sana ng kinain kaso so much oil and now i wanna throw up

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CANON 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 KYS 🤍

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+ bonus

#lavenderhaise #reblogs

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:(

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kawalang gana mabuhay today

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why is everything so heavy and depressing today wtf is this. i have thoughts of self-harm pa. ayoko mabuhay. gusto ko mag od. gusto ko lumaklak ng gamot tangina ano ba 'to. di naman ako nag skip ng gamot kagabi pota

#mylife

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di ko maintindihan nararamdaman ko pero nakakairita ang lahat ng bagay. ang sama pa ng pakiramdam ko. potek. gusto ko na lang mmty.

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KINIKILIG AKO.

pampalubag loob kasi di makakapunta sa concert ni ayu this June 1 *shoots myself*

see you next time, lalove. 🥺 i'll make sure to be on your next concert. ily always, my celebrity 🥺🫶🏼

#leejieun #iu #아이유 #이지은 #인생네컷 #life4cuts #litrato