curiouschaosstarlight

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The theme in question

#self reblog #chaotic queue

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There's nothing wrong with my ears, I just grew up watching subs o7 It's easy for me to do and helps keep my attention instead of it wandering around the screen or off the movie/show entirely!

Why do people need subtitles to watch a show in English? I don't get it. What is wrong with the ears of young people?

#reblog #the idea that subtitles are hard to process/distracting for others is #so odd to me emotionally #logically i absolutely get it but emotionally it's just like #“????? really?? reading?? you're struggling with reading?? the easiest thing to do in the world??” #i have to remind myself im kind of an outlier and not everyone thinks reading is easy or processes written word better than spoken dialogue #(something im on top of for my tastes in fiction and entertainment and food and clothes but not for the concept of reading) #(maybe the fact that my mom's an avid reader and does in fact use subtitles has horrifically skewed my perception or something)

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Did you know? Tumblr DOES have a post length limit. Strangely, though, it's based on how many blocks of text you have. Supposedly this implies that you can have any length post so long as it's one block of text? Very strange, will have to investigate further.

#reblog #ahhh the new “do you love the color of the sky?” #someone post jurassic park and then @ me so i'll finally read it #(dont do that)

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#reblog #im in this picture and i dont like it

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I need to, like...grab my Dottore and squish him down until he behaves-

#not important #desert doktorspiele #i desperately wanna write him more #been looking over my drabbles and it's like #1. something i didnt finish (or lead-in to rp stuff so it's deliberately left off on a “wait that's it??” kinda spot) #2. really self indulgent in a way i feel like i have to justify #3. there's like...one or two things i think would be good enough to post but im a coward/it feels sorta weird with them being rather short #(secret fourth option) #what we're dealing with here is stage five brainrot where i've rotated him in my brain SO dang much #i can only seem to write him in an ultra self indulgent manner absolutely based in my headcanons #so he's inherently very canon divergent and also #kinda the reverse of like...Everything #which is normal for my takes tbh but not great for attracting other fans #if the fandom zigs i zag kinda thing #boi is evil and maniacal and malicious? #well! i wonder where my characterization lands then-- (rhetorical) #that's just kind of a generalized summary it's a Lot of factors- #but if i keep shaking him around maybe he'll finally work with me in a way where #i can sneakily introduce the self indulgence bit by bit so by the time you realize it #it's too late and you're trapped and he'll live rent free in your head forever maybe

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The theme in question

#blog stuff #my polls #nothing between “a day” and “a week” so i guess we're going for a week #tbh im most concerned about if it'd make my blog...strange to navigate? #it would be dark mode discord mind

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hweh...

Everything is going on steam sale

but I am so broke q-q

#not important #so many games I wanna buy... #some of them i could buy but it'd mean going hungry for a week #not the best of trade-offs #sigh...

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shadow the hedgehog is cool. gunblades are cool. vampires are cool. scythes are cool. white hair is cool. we need to stop lying about what is not cool

#reblog #cant pay me to stop doing “edgy” things #red eyes?? mismatched eyes?? white hair?? #demons and killing gods?? #i think you'd have to pay me $1billion to get me to stop loving those #(i wouldnt stop loving them but i would maybe stop bringing it up publicly) #(maybe)

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i can be both; the ‘fast replier’ or ‘never reply’ person

#reblog #if i dont reply to something...99% of the time i either forgot #or i Thought Really Hard About Replying and then my brain goes “oh well you must have!” #basically if you're waiting on me for more than two days in an otherwise active convo #you're absolutely encouraged to boop me/be like “Chaos hey? you still there??” or something #the remaining 1% is “my social battery is just really dead for some reason” #in which case you're still allowed to boop me and find out what's going on #...not to say that my social batteries NEVER drain (they do) but #im currently in a situation where recharging them is usually pretty fast #(and if im excited anything's possible--) #i hope that makes sense

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based on a conversation with @fynn-arcana

not my drawings, my edit

#reblog #>:3c

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"These characters are unsalveagable!"

Wrong! Not even my least favorite fucking character in the universe is unsalveagable!

Try again!

#not important #this is kinda silly but also i am serious #i wish i'd given myself an out to rant about that 1 character #because it might pique someone's interest and get them into my favorite game ever #but sadly i did not #(does that sound weird? it's okay im being weird)

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Fuck your word count!

༺𖤐๋࣭ ⭑🕸🦇🕸๋࣭ ⭑๋࣭ 𖤐༻

"Focus on your word count," "Write 2,500 words a day," "Real writers set monthly word goals."

SHUT UP! Your word count doesn't matter. You're just stressing yourself out.

It doesn't matter if you write one word today or 10,000! At least you wrote something! Focus on that.

Quality and sanity of quantity.

#reblog #writing #THANK YOU #i can write 2K on a VERY good ultra inspired day #every other day is anywhere from 1 to 200ish words #sometimes i feel like i wrote a lot and totally MADE a chapter or something #and then it's only 200-400 words...sigh #it's been hard to be proud of that much #especially after leaving a discord group where everyone was laughing about #writing 4k+ a sitting #and even still i have a friend that makes me #VERY self-conscious about my lack of writing #she's very sweet and doing it completely unintentionally but...

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It's not an "abandoned" WIP, I didn't intentionally leave it in the forest to die and forget about it, it is a lost wip who wandered into the forest despite my pleas not to. I sit at the edge of the forest every day and hear it calling for help but there is nothing I can do. It is a haunting wip

#reblog #writing

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you're going about your normal day when, suddenly, surprise! you've been pokémon mystery dungeon'd!

unfortunately, due to budget cuts, the pokémon assigning quiz has been canceled. instead, you must spin THE WHEEL, assigning you a random, unevolved, non-legendary and non-mythical pokémon. you must now go on some sort of world-saving adventure as this pokémon. good luck!

tell me in the tags what you rolled, and how you feel about it - for bonus points, you can spin the wheel again for (or just take your pick of) a pokémon to be your partner.

bonus rules:

you're not shiny unless the wheel tells you you're shiny

take your pick of regional forms and evolutions (for example, if you roll vulpix, it's up to you whether that means normal or alolan vulpix)

apply whatever logic you like with regards to gender

have fun and be yourself!

#reblog #hmmm flabebe #if i cant be green then i guess blue #im not sure if that pokemon is fitting for me though #my partner is a kabuto which i am THRILLED with #my favorite fossil pokemon

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Also, feel like I should add;

If you politely tell me not to ship your characters a certain way, or not to bring up certain ships/headcanons/characters/etc around you, I can 1000000% work with that! Some of my friends can attest!

If you leap straight into "DONT YOU DARE SHIP THIS OR I WILL RIP OUT YOUR SPINE AND BEAT YOU WITH IT!!" guess what that gets you

go on guess

Bounced back and forth, think I'll just make this post-

(Warning: Under the read more, if tumblr keeps the read more intact, is me, an aromantic/aegofictosexual person ramble-ranting about aroaceness in fandom. You're free to scroll past if you wish, or to disagree with me on whatever takes for whatever reason, this is just my one opinion on something I consider to be a big pet peeve of mine.)

(If you read this and go "but I don't do that!", then I trust you, and you're not the kind of person I'm talking about. I'm moreso referring to some things I've personally either witnessed or experienced in previous fandoms, and nobody this applies to will actually see this post unless it, like, gets a bajillion notes...um, hopefully.)

It is so. fricking. frustrating. having my only possible representation in media be like...[that one character] from DR. You know. the otaku or "geek" that's portrayed to be unattractive, "gross", and "weird", and will eventually express sexual attraction to "3D" people, because their attraction to and obsession with 2D was never a sexuality, but intended to be some creepy, incomprehensible thing, and a way to demonstrate their shortcomings and inability to actually court someone.

Characters who actually match my sexuality and experience will never exist unless I make them with my own hands, because both allos and other aces consider me "not ace enough".

This honestly plays a big part in why I'm really touchy about aroace headcanons; because often times they're blatantly used to say people aren't allowed to ship [character a] with [character b] -- and the person making the headcanon is usually 100000% fine with [character a] being put in a gay ship, but will loudly complain if they see them featured in the (usually het, usually canonically teased) first ship. Because it was never about actually writing an aroace character, it was about reframing "ewwww you like THAT ship?? gross uxu what's wrong with you??" into "uhhhmmmm but that character's aroace-coded" "sorry, I can't see them as anything other than aroace" (yeah, I didn't ask? Everyone else gets to talk about THEIR ships with that character and you enthusiastically support them...) And it's like... I feel like these types of headcanons specifically are always presented like, inherently, I'm totally, obviously going to agree with them, and if I don't, then clearly I'm just not aroace. (I wish that was more of a dramatization, but I had someone who I previously told my seuxality to go "oh. well. I'm asexual, so I see this character as aroace-coded, (and I'm right)" <- not outright said but very, very heavily implied, especially because they continuously insisted the character was "canonically aroace-coded", and I just had to sit there like... "...okay, but I'm aroace. (and I think saying that about a clearly het-intended character that's constantly being flirted and canonically shipped in extra side materials with is kinda hurtful)" <- I didn't say that part)

And the fact that no one respects if a character is canonically het or bi kind of plays into why I don't care when a character is canonically gay or ace. If everyone's sexuality is just "gay (MAYBE ace!!!)" or "okay but have you CONSIDERED they might be bi??? (stop putting them in het ships >:((( )" only when it's convenient, then why should I care for my downtime? It doesn't change canon. And I don't feel represented by people's on-the-whim, flimsy-as-fuck headcanons.

But it does still piss me off when people take a reboot or remake or continuation and flagrantly disregard a character's canon sexuality.

And it's upsetting that aroace characters 1. aren't really a thing for the most part, and 2. get written over when they are a thing.

I imagine that when I finally manage to finish one of my stories or games and, y'know, all of my characters are bi/pan/demi because that's what I tend to write...that's probably just gonna get changed to be "whoops everyone's gay lol" by the fandom, and I've already come to terms with that. (Well, by the part of the fandom that isn't populated by "ugh, everything is so WOKE now!" assholes, I'm just gonna pretend they won't even show up because they aren't worth it.) But then, it's also like...if someone officially continued or adapted my properties, and they changed my characters to be all straight or maybe one character gets to be kinda-sorta gay or something, I. I would definitely lose my shit.

-vague gestures-

I don't really know where I'm going with this, I just wanted to say my whole piece without having to worry about being accused of derailing/not listening to a post-

But basically if you're outraged whenever a gay character's sexuality is changed for any reason in any context, I better hear you be that upset about the rest of the possible orientations, and not pulling that shit yourself. I swear to god.

#self reblog #discourse #it gets you spite

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Bounced back and forth, think I'll just make this post-

(Warning: Under the read more, if tumblr keeps the read more intact, is me, an aromantic/aegofictosexual person ramble-ranting about aroaceness in fandom. You're free to scroll past if you wish, or to disagree with me on whatever takes for whatever reason, this is just my one opinion on something I consider to be a big pet peeve of mine.)

(If you read this and go "but I don't do that!", then I trust you, and you're not the kind of person I'm talking about. I'm moreso referring to some things I've personally either witnessed or experienced in previous fandoms, and nobody this applies to will actually see this post unless it, like, gets a bajillion notes...um, hopefully.)

It is so. fricking. frustrating. having my only possible representation in media be like...[that one character] from DR. You know. the otaku or "geek" that's portrayed to be unattractive, "gross", and "weird", and will eventually express sexual attraction to "3D" people, because their attraction to and obsession with 2D was never a sexuality, but intended to be some creepy, incomprehensible thing, and a way to demonstrate their shortcomings and inability to actually court someone.

Characters who actually match my sexuality and experience will never exist unless I make them with my own hands, because both allos and other aces consider me "not ace enough".

This honestly plays a big part in why I'm really touchy about aroace headcanons; because often times they're blatantly used to say people aren't allowed to ship [character a] with [character b] -- and the person making the headcanon is usually 100000% fine with [character a] being put in a gay ship, but will loudly complain if they see them featured in the (usually het, usually canonically teased) first ship. Because it was never about actually writing an aroace character, it was about reframing "ewwww you like THAT ship?? gross uxu what's wrong with you??" into "uhhhmmmm but that character's aroace-coded" "sorry, I can't see them as anything other than aroace" (yeah, I didn't ask? Everyone else gets to talk about THEIR ships with that character and you enthusiastically support them...) And it's like... I feel like these types of headcanons specifically are always presented like, inherently, I'm totally, obviously going to agree with them, and if I don't, then clearly I'm just not aroace. (I wish that was more of a dramatization, but I had someone who I previously told my seuxality to go "oh. well. I'm asexual, so I see this character as aroace-coded, (and I'm right)" <- not outright said but very, very heavily implied, especially because they continuously insisted the character was "canonically aroace-coded", and I just had to sit there like... "...okay, but I'm aroace. (and I think saying that about a clearly het-intended character that's constantly being flirted and canonically shipped in extra side materials with is kinda hurtful)" <- I didn't say that part)

And the fact that no one respects if a character is canonically het or bi kind of plays into why I don't care when a character is canonically gay or ace. If everyone's sexuality is just "gay (MAYBE ace!!!)" or "okay but have you CONSIDERED they might be bi??? (stop putting them in het ships >:((( )" only when it's convenient, then why should I care for my downtime? It doesn't change canon. And I don't feel represented by people's on-the-whim, flimsy-as-fuck headcanons.

But it does still piss me off when people take a reboot or remake or continuation and flagrantly disregard a character's canon sexuality.

And it's upsetting that aroace characters 1. aren't really a thing for the most part, and 2. get written over when they are a thing.

I imagine that when I finally manage to finish one of my stories or games and, y'know, all of my characters are bi/pan/demi because that's what I tend to write...that's probably just gonna get changed to be "whoops everyone's gay lol" by the fandom, and I've already come to terms with that. (Well, by the part of the fandom that isn't populated by "ugh, everything is so WOKE now!" assholes, I'm just gonna pretend they won't even show up because they aren't worth it.) But then, it's also like...if someone officially continued or adapted my properties, and they changed my characters to be all straight or maybe one character gets to be kinda-sorta gay or something, I. I would definitely lose my shit.

-vague gestures-

I don't really know where I'm going with this, I just wanted to say my whole piece without having to worry about being accused of derailing/not listening to a post-

But basically if you're outraged whenever a gay character's sexuality is changed for any reason in any context, I better hear you be that upset about the rest of the possible orientations, and not pulling that shit yourself. I swear to god.

#not important #chaotic rambles #discourse #sorry for the vagueness about characters n stuff i just dont wanna wind up in any fandom searches #how to bridge the fact that im only attracted to fictional characters #with the fact that i have to be repeatedly made to realize i've never seen any character like me in fiction at all ever #only characters that are kinda sorta like me and also the unattractive loser butt of every single joke #also character sexuality is so...weird and not-solid to my brain y'all #i only have like...two or three characters that are full-on gay? out of the hundreds i've written? #about the same for het or ace or...you know any other combinations/other sexualities #it's usually more natural to my brain to have my characters shipped with basically anyone and everyone #and only a few times has a character effectively grabbed me by the horns and went “no. im not into that. and you cannot make me be.” #which creates a funny tidbit where two of my gay characters have radically different tastes in the same gender #so they both think the other one is “weird" and it's just really amusing to me #they also arent attracted to each other due not fitting into each other's tastes #it's just like...the only two men in a gay bar and they hiss at each other like cats #why did it turn out this way? genuinely no clue #i have a third gay man but he's got a third completely unique to him taste and he's just standing there #awkwardly sipping his drink like “oh god neither of these two ask me to agree with them please”

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cuddle buddies

#reblog #kitties #oh they are chatting <3