cuppykin

[cuppykin]

Hair really really changes things on a guy ah man

Which hair beard combo looks best to yall

#cuppyart

[cuppykin]

So I found out about the dealer plushies

#cuppysketch #buckshot roulette #oc x canon #ocxcanon #the dealer

[cuppykin]

Fuck it, Milkplane Swap AU

(yes this applies to the rest of the characters too but I haven't planned anything for them yet😭)

#that’s not my neighbor

[cuppykin]

Some more Dealer sketches cause, rn he's my go-to whenever I'm anxious and need to scribble.

#buckshot roulette #wtf he’s so HANDSOME AND HUGE

[cuppykin]

who want buckshots

#buckshot roulette

[cuppykin]

"After he fed me and gave me a place to stay, he told me that he can teach me his favorite sport."

#buckshot roulette

[cuppykin]

I missed seeing your posts, Cuppy, are you doing any better?

I’m doing better! I’m still taking a break, as I realized I’m actually doing better without social media in my life as heavily rn

But I’m still gonna post art! Dontcha worry!

#Ask

[cuppykin]

is izaack shooting his shot with francis because of the heart background? if so, i approve

Hell yeah!!!

And also here's a bonus doodle I did a while ago that me and oomf were talking about TEEHEE

#that’s not my neighbor

[cuppykin]

My Angel, my muse, my Aphrodite

#cuppysketch #buckshot roulette #oc x canon #ocxcanon #the dealer

[cuppykin]

💋👇

#thats not my neighbor #god i love men

[cuppykin]

I'm gonna work on making full refs of all my little food buddies, I WANTED a lil profile for Meri, in all her quirky lil glory

#cuppyart #meri galette #cupcake #food folks

[cuppykin]

Thank god Steven’s a military pilot and not a commercial airline pilot

means I can draw him like this

#cuppysketch #that’s not my neighbor #steven rudboys

[cuppykin]

Couple more fellas

#cuppysketch #that’s not my neighbor #steven rudboys #izaack gauss

[cuppykin]

I have a plan for every single man here

[cuppykin]

hey I got a new boyfriend while I was gone can you guys be nice to him

#Cuppysketch #that’s not my neighbor #francis mosses

[cuppykin]

I hope you guys dont think lesser of me for this. I've been trying to, at least online, not be too too open about my personal issues because for the most part they don't effect how I post, at least till now

[cuppykin]

So my post before I left was vague, let me tell you guys what's up in more detail

This will be very long, and not very pleasant to read, so if you want some news related to how I'm going to post, it'll be here: I probably won't go back to regular posting for a long time and instead just post art/writing here that I think you guys would like to see, but for more details, read below

If you still want to reach me off social media, my Discord username is still Cuppykin. You're free to show me cool stuff you find on the internet in my DMs

I am currently seeking therapy at the moment, and the reason why I can't stay on social media much anymore is because I was at a breaking point, and with the elections coming around in the US, i have a lotta fears

Avoiding my fears by not looking at the internet is impossible, but I'm afraid of a lot of things. And seeing my fear shared by many I thought would be comforting, but instead its stopped me from enjoying anything I do in my day to day without thoughts of something bad happening to me because of the things I love. I'm a queer black artist who draws and writes nsfw content and has verbalized my distaste for the state of the US and the politicians who run it, so you can imagine why I'm scared the way I am

But even then, lately every time I look at social media I just scroll until I see something that upsets me, and then I continue and repeat. And that's extended into other stuff. Looking at things until I see something that upsets me, but it seems I reached a breaking point because when i DO see something thats a sensitive topic for me, I start to break down and cant function. Even as I type this I'm still having bad thoughts, most about things that COULD happen in the future but aren't here now and whether or not I should just end my life before things get too bad.

I've been extremely unhappy. At my worst, I couldn't do anything at all and would just. Sit, and think about dying or something to avoid any current or future problems. It's been so so hard, and I don't know when it's going to get better. I wanna be able to do the things I love again without fear and paranoia stopping me, but it's hard.

But the good news is I'm trying. I don't want to be like this for long, and that starts by actually taking steps to improve.

I'm so sorry that this came out of nowhere. I thought I could handle it, but at this current moment I'm at an all time low and I'm trying desperately to find hope in my life for a bright future. Not just for myself, but for most people on this rock we call Earth. I just want to be happy and healthy, and have the people i love AND the people I hate also be happy and healthy. I'm just very tired, and can only hope for better times

#update #is what ill tag this with