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Being with bucky after the winter soldier

This is my first time posting so sorry for any errors

I feel like not enough people take about bucky after civil war he needs so much love then but here you go the headcanons enjoy

• These headcanons are full of angst but that realistic for his life sorry

• Bucky would react differently here if you knew him before the winter soldier or if you are meeting him as bucky for the first time here

• If you knew bucky in the 40s his trust will come easier than if you are a stranger but he is still extremely stand off ish he's not sure why your familiar to him or why you feel safe to him but those unanswered questions will worry him , but he knows you’re safer than hydra so if you offer him protection and shelter after he pulls Steve from the river he will go with you but he will be extremely on edge his trust will not be easily won but if you are dedicated and patient it can be gained

• If you have not meet before the connection between the two of you will have to come much later in his healing journey he is not letting a single soul into his life till he has figured out at least the tip of the iceberg of who James Buchanan Barnes is

• This will not be a fun or easy journey in either situation you've met him in. this man has been through the worst imaginable things and is trying to become himself again for the first time in 75 years it will be a long and hard journey

• Choice will be overwhelming for him at this time he has not had a say in anything for so much of his life ;what he eats, when he sleeps, what he wears, every aspect of it has not been up to him and having to decide it all on his own will be very overwhelming for him. you will need to help him without controlling him for example meals, give him two choices to choose from instead of every food being an option to choice from limiting it to just two would be so helpful for him

•He will need a schedule to regulate himself he was in the army then was controlled by hydra both which would have kept him on a daily schedule most likely he would find the schedule helpful when to wake up when to eat, this would need to be a schedule he makes for himself if someone else made it for him it would feel restricting like he would be punished if he did not comply but if he made the schedule himself it would help him have a purpose to wake up each day and know what he needs to do which days he gets the grocery which days he researched his past all of it on his terms and have a schedule would help regulate his system which would be all-out of wack from his former treatment

•In this time he will need comfort and reassurance more than ever but that comfort and reassurance will not come from physical touch for him for a very long time he was known touch as something that always results in pain so trying to help him with touch would have the opposite effect words of affirmation and quality time would be your best ally in this time

• With that being said as he starts his journey of healing and rediscover your relationship with him would need tk be completely platonic, he had been through so much and jumping into a relationship would not be good for his recover but having someone who loves him who is always there to support him without wanting anything in return would be the most helpful thing for him , I think if you had him jump right into a relationship he would feel like he owes his partner a lot of things he would bit be able to offer at this point and he need s to be completely focused on himself and healing instead on another person

• In time of his life his nightmares are worst they have ever been his nightmares are not just his brain scaring him it is his brains desperate attempt to get him to remember his life and for the first time his brain is not being wiped constantly so his mind finally has a chance to get those memories through to him sadly the effect is that sleep in miserable for him now

• He will wake up thinking he is back in Hydra, and you will need to reassure him he's safe. He will be very paranoid. You will need a lot of patience with him

• He spend a lot of his time researching who Bucky Barnes is if you knew him before you will be his greatest tool to learn who he was and who will be now , Bucky will never be 40s suave bucky again that man is gone and is not coming back that personality is gone but his heart , loyalty, ideals are the same your job is to help him discover that again think Peeta after the hackerjacker venom. Peeta was not the same, but he was still Petta bucky is still bucky, but the trauma has changed him, and you have to love him through

• If you knew him in the 40s you have to reassure him that you're goal is not to bring the man you knew back but to fall in love with the new man he is , he will be very afraid that you want the old him and not the broken empty shell of his former self he sees himself as

• He is broken and hurting. You have to be a balm to soothe the wounds of his mind

•This time in your relationship is painful for both of you and will be a painstaking process, but to help his sweet man regain himself and to see him heal will be so worth it

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