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Inspired by walking home with low blood sugar and autism mixing in the most horrible way. Felt like everything was both cake and a bed, and that I could eat it at any time if I chose. It was inviting in the way that the soft snow looks inviting on an especially cold night in the forest. I knew if I were to lay down, I wasn't going to get back up. Anyways I got home and ate some eggs and now I'm alert and perky and in a great mood and it's like nothing happened. Such is life with sensory issues.

#every time i have a sensory problem it's like #mom can we get high? #no we have high at home #the high at home:

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what a fucking coward

#autism

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#polyamory

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created while slightly inebriated. Will delete later when it isn't funny

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every post i see that's like "if you're scared of being like [bad person] that's means you're better than them and won't be like them" and it's like. lmao. my dad used to have crying sessions where he would confess his fear of being like his mother and causing me to grow up to hate him. usually after he did something fucking awful, to redirect the attention to his own pain. the girl who sexually assaulted me had panic attacks sometimes about the idea of maybe being a rapist, making it impossible to set sexual boundaries with her without her freaking out. whether you're afraid of being some kind of bad person has basically no bearing on whether you are that way

#not going to go into the details of my own traumas because i dont feel like it #so instead ill use the example of the show bojack horseman #since i feel like that show does a phenomenal job of explaining this well #in the show he is constantly agonizing over whether hes a bad person #he couldnt care less about the pain his actions cause but is terrified that his actions condemn him as a person #and unfortunately thats how a lot of people tend to think #ive had my many brushes with extreme examples of this and im sure in the past i have acted like this to a lesser degree #but its maladaptive and not a productive way of thinking about yourself or your actions #and it ultimately leaves you centering yourself over your victims which isnt ok

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David Lynch - Cheese

#david lynch #cheese

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sometimes instead of a horrid little monk, divine visions of lesbians dance in my head dispensing wisdom

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Absolutely loving the recent boom in activity in the various polyamorous tags. I see you guys!!! Definitely feels like I'm not the only one here now :)

#polyamory #polyam #polyamorous #polyam positivity

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there is something so uniquely fulfilling about using the phrase “our girlfriend” while talking to a metamour. like, hi, hello, this person is beautiful in so many ways and you also see that and we can just sit and talk about how amazing she is

things like “gonna go make our girlfriend food” or “have fun with our girlfriend this week!” are just…so good :)

#polyam

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I love being Polyam.

I love that my new romantic relationship does not come with the expectation that I will have to stop being affectionate with my friends.

I love that my partner understands that my QPR is just as important to me as our new romantic relationship.

I love that the needs I cannot meet for my partner can be met by someone else and they are free to pursue that.

I love that the needs my partner cannot meet for me can be met by someone else and I am free to pursue that.

I love that my life is full of every kind of love and yet still more can and could be added in the future!

#polyamory

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beautifully said. 💜

original

#finally someone else is saying this!!! #amatonormativity #patriarchy and amatonormativity

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Something that frustrates me about online culture is that there's a lot of people who will assume that their specific niche of the internet is so important that it affects offline events such as local, national, or global politics. I can almost guarantee that whatever politician you don't like is not secretly in league with that faction of your niche that you don't like.

I want to be clear: I don't think it's wrong to notice parallels or recognize patterns, but we should be mindful that the niches we engage with are microcosms. They are much more likely to reflect the general culture than influence it.

For an example that I think won't be too incendiary: online dating can be incredibly exclusionary to multiple different types of people that tend to be marginalized or discriminated against in some fashion irl as well. Those cultural problems existed before online dating and likely will exist after as well. Is it more likely that online dating reflects that cultural problem or that the cultural problem was caused and influenced by online dating?

When engaging in an issue within your niche, I would suggest remembering that fixing it in your niche is not going to change the culture in general. I also think it's important to remember that just because you first noticed the problem in your niche, that doesn't mean your niche is what caused the issue. You likely simply didn't notice it before that point.

I'm also aware that this bit of internet culture is likely itself a microcosm of some greater tendency within people and that fixing it online will not necessarily fix it irl. That said, if people analyzed that tendency a bit more, it would absolutely make the internet a but less annoying lol

#online culture #internet culture #uhhh society i guess

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Finally found some time to actually try out Letterboxd! And of course I had to dump all of my thoughts about Funny Games (1997) into one spot as soon as I did that.

#funny games #funny games 1997 #letterboxd