“first” is such a bad word. who made it and why do they hate me, specifically. it’s sharp. it’s bright. it’s the kind of headache that makes your neck hurt too. it’s a jarring clang and metal scraping on metal and fucking styrofoam. terrible word.
third, however, is a fantastic word. so soft. cocoa. rounded edges. matte. a desaturated green. swamp. thursday.
I hate the fact that the world has made me feel like I should be ashamed of myself because I need things to be able to function
Like I need my headphones due to high sensitivity but I feel like people look and stare wondering
I talked to my school counselor n talked about wearing sunglasses for classes because the lights are really bright and it makes me feel like people will look at me more
I hate that due to these I feel like I'm "too sensitive" despite the fact that some of these things have caused me physically pain. Getting headaches, my ears in pain because of the noise, crying because of all of it feeling overstimulated, shutting down because I can't handle it
It's really hard to remind myself that I'm not "sensitive" for something I can't control, it's not my fault that I have sensory issues, I didn't ask for it. I'm still a functional person who can do things I just need some extra help.
[Video description: a man holding a small chocolate box is wearing a orange plaid shirt, he is mostly bald but has a beard and small amount of hair on his head. The man also has tattoos on his arms.
Man: you know, momma always said having kids was like a box of chocolates
You never know what your gonna get
(the man opens the box and pulls out a small note with the word pansexual written on it)
Man: thats a good one!
(pulls out note with bisexual written on it)
Man: i like that one too!
(pulls out another note with asexual on it)
Man: thats a good one!
(pulls out card with gender fluid on it)
Man: yes!
(pulls out card with non binary on it)
Man: oh, yes!
(pulls out card with trans gender on it)
Man: definitely!!
(pulls out card with straight on it)
Man: thats a good one
(pulls out card with gay on it)
Man: i like that one!
(pulls out card with lesbian on it)
Man: and i like this one too!
There isn’t anything in this box that i dont like!
The video ends and is credited to princess dad @/ourdadnow on tik tok