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Hey moots would yall hate me if I became a miku girl 😂

Husband managed to score tickets for Miku Expo and its delightful

#shut up carm #i dont need another music hyperfocus oh god

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Hey moots would yall hate me if I became a miku girl 😂

Husband managed to score tickets for Miku Expo and its delightful

#shut up carm #i dont need another music hyperfocus oh god

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Oh Astarion, we're really in it now

astarion + text posts (part 18)

#bg3 text posts

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*crying sobbing and unsubscribing from my patreons and my streaming service subs so I can start saving money to sell my soul at Dragoncon for the bg3 cast signings* 😭😭😭

I'm sorry artist besties I promise I'll come back when I have more money in my savings

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mom, dad… i’m…. RANDOM!! LOL XD

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bon appétit friends umikochann's artwork

#screeching #dave jones #bg3 #halsin

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Neither of you are to blame... and I know your pain, I truly do. Thaniel was my friend, also. I played with him, grew up while he stayed the same. He made me who I am today… and then he was ripped away from me, same as for you. But you need not be alone any longer. You need not invent friends. Thaniel is back. He is waiting for you. 

BONUS

Happy Halsin!

#halsin #halsin silverbough #bg3 #crying

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it always struck me as kind of hilarious that you have to pass a 30DC check to convince shadowheart not to kill dame aylin but if you're just like "sure do whatever lol" she chooses not to kill her anyway. tsundere ass fuck. killing is bad unless it's out of spite. i have morals unless you try to tell me what to do

but i just got to that scene in my new replay and it made me realize that that's not what's at stake at all

because the persuasion check isn't "don't do this". the persuasion check is, your life is whatever you make of it. you don't have to do something just because your goddess tells you to.

convincing shadowheart not to kill dame aylin is easy. she knows it's wrong, and she doesn't want to, not really. if given the choice, she is literally unable to go through with it even if she clearly wants to, or wants to want to so badly she can't tell the difference

the problem is convincing her she has an option in the first place

the problem is convincing her that her life is her own

shadowheart has never belonged to herself since she was captured. not in body, not in soul, not in mind, not even her memories. she quite literally doesn't know who she is in more ways than one. she doesn't know her past or her family, she doesn't know who her loved ones are (including the sharran loved ones, like nocturne), all she really knows about herself is a fear of wolves that's been implanted into her by lies and an attachment to a flower she can't remember the details of. and a mission. always a mission. the will of someone else she has to carry on, that is not for her to understand or question or think about. she can't even want to serve shar, because she isn't allowed to pursue her intention to become a dark justiciar. she is supposed to be well and truly nothing, empty as the sharran doctrine

(oh, and pain that she doesn't know the reason of. no matter what, she must bear the pain)

how can she see herself as more than her goddess, when she quite literally doesn't know anything about who she is other than her devotion to shar? how can she choose her own destiny, when she couldn't even choose how to devote and give herself over to her?

she can't, which is why, unless you have infinite rizz points and/or roll a nat20, shadowheart attacks you. not dame aylin. you. and she never argues about whether or not it's the right thing, because she knows. what she's rebelling against isn't the idea of letting dame aylin go. what she's rebelling against is the idea that she could leave her cage and belong to no one but herself. because the idea is scary and she quite literally doesn't know where to begin. which is why her obsession becomes to find her parents, even though she doesn't remember them at all. because maybe they can tell her who she's supposed to be, and she can have the comfort of having her path laid out before her again

(which is also why she has to kill them. not because of some hand hurty curse bullshit. but because she just wants them and selûne to become the new shar, and she has to let that go if she truly means to claim herself again)

and now im sad. because it's easier for shadowheart to do turn against shar and everything she's ever had on the grounds of saving someone else than on the grounds that she deserves better than to be a puppet. even if you do nothing, saving dame aylin, to her, is easy. saving herself is a wholly different matter, one she's not sure she has any right to, or wants to, even if it's what she really needs. accepting a selûnite's humanity is easier than accepting her own. losing everything is easier than gaining her own autonomy. and she will fight tooth and nail to be allowed to stay in her own, metaphorical soul cage

#bg3 #shadowheart #Shadowheart analysis

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I adore Halsin. One of my favourite discussions with him is over his body, where he tells you that he thinks people's perception of what people can and cannot be is too narrow <33

#halsin #my man <3

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the act two romance scene with Lae'zel is actually so funny the more cringe of a character you are

because like she's nearly fucked you to death at least once at this point and could have gotten over whatever lust had she for you if it was just lust. like she even basically tells you this is a one time (and maybe two time) thing to sate both of your desires

and like there's not a hint of anything different for the longest time. she doesn't flirt with you. she doesn't hint at wanting to sleep with you again. she doesn't make any real comments about the fact that you have. you're just going about your tasks like whatever

and then she just wakes you up in middle of the night and tells you that she's been OBSESSING over you and she can't take it anymore. like there have been NO hints of this, but apparently she's more distracted by thinking about you than she has about the tadpole in her head, her people trying to kill her, and her entire worldview falling down on her. she's literally like "I can't stop obsessing over you. I need you to beat me up right now."

and like the specific phrasing she uses to describe her obsession is WILD

so just remember every failed roll and fuck up you did between fucking Lae'zel and this moment because the whole time Lae'zel is like seeing that and like OBSESSING over it all. like your ass gets knocked down in battle and your face hit the ground and she's just seeing that like "I wish that (the ground that your face hit) was me..."

#lae'zel #i fucking love laezel #baezel #my Durge didnt deserve her so they broke it off after he hooked up with minty #im hellbent on doing a gale origin and romancing her

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Lets talk about Stillmaker, Durge’s other canon blade

Okay, so we already know that Durge had the Bloodthirst dagger which was created from Bhaal’s own blood and carried by his chosen.

But there is another dagger in the game you can find that also canonically belonged to Durge, Stillmaker.

We see Stillmaker portrayed in Dark Urge’s official artwork, and it’s also Durge’s blade in Idle Champions, as you can see.

I’ve noticed that Stillmaker matches Bloodthirst in design, but it is conspicuously green, as opposed to every other Bhaalian weapon I’ve seen which are red.

You know who else’s canon weapon has the same green coloring? Gortash. And who is the color green associated with? Bane. Stillmaker looks like it was made in the same design to Gortash’s crossbow.

I posit then, that being close to one another as they were, Gortash either made or commissioned Stillmaker to match with Bloodthirst and gifted it to Durge. It’s far more his style in looks, and I feel it’s something he would have done as he describes Durge as his nearest and dearest, and we know they worked very closely together and admired one another.

It truly makes my Durgetash heart flutter!

EDIT: Here is a close up of the weapons together in game!

EDIT #2: We were discussing on discord yesterday, Orin would have of course kept the Bloodthirst blade after dispatching Durge because it’s made of Bhaal’s blood and carried by his Chosen, but she would not have wanted some sugary gift from her sibling’s Ex and probably tossed it away and Dolor ended up with it, and that’s how it ended up in his stash.

EDIT #3: @arikandkade made an EXCELLENT addition to this theory and I’m adding it because it’s just such great information, thank you so much for this info!

#bg3 #durge #the dark urge #durgetash

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I'm doing that thing again where I've been staring at my own writing for too long and now I hate it – probably going to spend the rest of my week focusing on cosplay since momocon is in less than a month and I have almost *nothing* ready for it

#shut up carm

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#for me it's the beginning. i can only write middle and end 💀

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baldur’s gate 3: award winning and critically acclaimed addition to the medium, received widespread praise and multiple game of the year titles & trophies

also baldur’s gate 3:

#Lmao #bg3

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Mortal Astarion X F! Human Tav. Ummm, angst.👀

For decades, this manor offered him a place to call home in the truest sense. 

The hallway was a sacred gallery, adorned with paintings that were not mere canvases, but tangible echoes of their life together. Each brushstroke, lovingly rendered by her hand, captured the essence of cherished memories.

Whenever he opened the door at the end of the hallway, he was greeted by the radiant smile of his beloved, and the hearth beckoned him to surrender to its comforting embrace. Yet, it was the vast window next to it that held the greatest significance. The tender caress of sunlight danced across his skin as he lost himself in the pages of a book beside her. It was here, bathed in the golden rays, that he could truly revel in the miracle she had bestowed upon him – the cure to his vampiric curse, a gift of life, a reminder of the depths of her love and the power it held to transcend even the most insurmountable of boundaries.

Here at home, he had found everything his heart desired.

But nothing is ever truly perfect. Life simply doesn't work that way.  Even the mightiest of fortresses cannot withstand the relentless march of time.

He thought he was ready for it, but not like this.

Never like this.

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The poem cited is "When You Are Old" BY W.B. Yeats. One of my favorites.❤️

Alright, thanks for reading the second installment of my "this did not really happen to my couple". After delving into the mortality of my Tav, Amaara, I found myself confronting a fear more profound than death itself – the fear of morbidity, of life's vibrancy fading before its inevitable end. So I decided to yank my CP around this theme. Self-indulgence at its finest.😊

#stOP MAKING ME SADDD 😭 #bg3