cantstopbing3ing

[cantstopbing3ing]

I need the person I mentally pretend is my rival to post more pics/vids so I can feel something that doesn't have to do with my real life where things suck and are really boring, yes ik this shit is toxic

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[cantstopbing3ing]

What happened to my drive? It's like I still desperately want to lose weight, but my willingness to stop using junk food to cope for even a couple hours at a time has completely vanished. I'm not sure how to break out of this state, I feel really stuck.

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[cantstopbing3ing]

September 29th

169.0 (⬇️ 2.0 lbs)

Great now I just have like, 70 lbs to go 🥲

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[cantstopbing3ing]

Bought my leeks and made the soup, but I didn't get to it until the evening so I guess the actual fast starts tomorrow morning. I feel horrific, I hope this fast cleans everything out of my system, all the salt and sugar and other crap making me feel so awful. I just want to feel light and energized like I used to when I was almost skinny and barely ate anything.

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[cantstopbing3ing]

Tomorrow I'm going to buy some leeks and do the magic leek soup thing from French Women Don't Get Fat. I need some kind of reset because I am so stuck in a binge cycle right now. I'm also going to start fasting after 6 pm instead of eating right up to the end of the day. I want to use my evenings after work for other shit, not wasting all that time on eating and then feeling like garbage.

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[cantstopbing3ing]

Idk man all the stuff I'm learning in "Recovery" isn't making me skinny so what's the fucking point honestly?

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[cantstopbing3ing]

Not dead, I just tried to lose weight the healthy way and gained weight instead, surprise surprise

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[cantstopbing3ing]

June 6, 2023

I binged pretty badly after work today, and I'm just feeling so low, so disappointed in myself and powerless about my life right now. I want something to go right for me. I want something incredibly good to just happen to me, because my life has been so awful and miserable and lonely and unlucky for 28 years. Can't something miraculously good happen to me to just level the scales out a little?

[cantstopbing3ing]

June 5, 2023

Weight: 160.4 lbs

Total eaten: 1,500+ cal.

I'm really not doing well with food the past few weeks, I feel really unmotivated compared to how I felt in April. I still start my days with good intentions, but I lose steam quickly. I'm still working hard to try to get more sleep at night, but it hasn't been going that well, only minor improvements. That being said, there's so much going on in my life right now that I can't set aside in order to just focus on losing weight. I'm overwhelmed, and feeling pretty discouraged about all of it.

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[cantstopbing3ing]

June 1, 2023

Weight: 158.8 lbs (⬇️ 0.2 lbs)

Total calories eaten: Unknown

Did okay for most of the day and then ruined it after supper by eating chips and salsa and then some raisins later. I cut my caffeine intake a little, hoping it will help me sleep better. So far not working, I can't seem to lay down at a good time in the evening.

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[cantstopbing3ing]

May 31, 2023

Weight: 159.0 lbs (⬇️ 1.4 lbs)

Total eaten: 1,797 cal.

I don't wanna talk about it 🥲🐖

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[cantstopbing3ing]

May 30th

160.4 lbs

Said I wouldn't binge yesterday, but I forgot it was a holiday and I had the day off, so that was a fucking lie 🥲 I'm back at work today, so I should do better. Being off work leaves me with no structure to my day, and I tend to respond by wanting to eat constantly. I really want to learn how to regulate my eating even when I'm just free all day.

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[cantstopbing3ing]

I binged so badly the last two days, and I'm pretty upset at myself for it. I feel awful and gross and bloated, I'm never going to get skinny if I do this on the regular. I know I can do better tomorrow and start fixing it, and I will, but I feel so awful right now.

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[cantstopbing3ing]

May 27th

155.8 lbs (⬇️ 0.2 lbs)

Ate too much with my bf last night, but at least I still lost a tiny bit of weight. I was looking at some pictures from when I was at and when I was near my LW recently and I can't believe I ever fucked that up and got this big again.

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[cantstopbing3ing]

May 26th

156.0 lbs (⬇️ 0.4 lbs)

I was hoping it would be a bigger drop, but this is okay. If I can be under 155 lbs by next Thursday the 1st it would be nice. I also found some old pictures last night from when I was about 125 lbs or so, and on the one hand I obviously looked SO much better than I do now, but on the other hand honestly how did I still look so big? I only hate being short when it comes to the fact that no matter how thin I get, I'll never look as long and slender as somebody who's tall would.

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[cantstopbing3ing]

May 25, 2023

2 bananas (210 cal.)

1 Almond Milk yogurt (190 cal.)

1 can peas (175 cal.)

2 cups black beans (450 cal.)

2 tbsp chocolate chips (160 cal.)

Total: 1,185 cal.

Fucked up again today, I'm just glad the chocolate chips and the yogurt are gone. So many calories for so little food in those. I'm also worried because even though the beans are really good for you, I put too much hot sauce on them so it's a lot of sodium. 😬 Fingers crossed for weigh in tomorrow morning, hopefully I'm not too bloated but I'm really worried. Need to think hard about what groceries to get for next week to try to maximize my progress.

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[cantstopbing3ing]

May 25th

156.4 lbs (⬇️ 1.6 lbs)

Finally! Back to making some real progress after 3 days of shedding binge weight. I might start making myself some Salads for my lunches as a treat, I kinda miss them, but they're not as cheap as eating canned vegetables, so I can't do it all the time. I just don't want to stagnate.

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