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vampirism poses the question "what if there was a fundamental, horrible, unending well of want in your soul that, if truly satisfied, would lead to great pain for all those you hold closest and, in turn, their absolute and total revilement of you?" and naturally as a person with no problems I don't relate to this in any way at all.

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no matter the struggles there is always ao3 in bed

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sometimes, it's not so much about the romance as it is about the devotion. the adoration.

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Well, I am still a little worried that having had tech issues for the better part of the day yesterday makes me look bad.

But not having to push through the calls and put on the bubbly customer service voice when I was feeling so down already really helped I think. And I’m feeling better about work this morning. Sometimes things do work out for the better

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I feel like a big part of enjoying life is being able to get excited over the truly small things, like having a fruit you like, wearing your fave socks, the smell of rain or the way light comes through your window.

When my anxiety got very severe last year, the thing that made life worth it was those tiny little things, which became tremendously important when I wasn’t well enough to really do anything or go anywhere for a year. A brown egg, some cute stickers, a wildflower my neighbour brought me on the way home from a party, seeing the weather change every day, watching the birds from my window… It’s happiness in miniature, and deserves some attention.

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MY INTERNET DISCONNECTED ARE YOU KIDDING ME

What sort of monkeys paw shit is this. Now I literally can’t work until the technician gets here. But also the absolute LAST thing I need is my job second guessing their decision to let me work from home. I’m banging my head against a wall

I don’t think I’m ever going to be able to reconcile the utter normalcy of a 40 hour work week with the sheer horror and misery of it

I’m so tired. Every single day I’m so goddamn tired and I have to do this every day for the rest of my life what the fuck

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I don’t think I’m ever going to be able to reconcile the utter normalcy of a 40 hour work week with the sheer horror and misery of it

I’m so tired. Every single day I’m so goddamn tired and I have to do this every day for the rest of my life what the fuck

#negativity #the horrors are hitting harder than usual today

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People call Heaven Official’s Blessing / TGCF a slow burn but Hua Cheng is literally courting Xie Lian like they are DATING. Slow burn who??? They’re sleeping next to each other on straw mats and Xie Lian’s offering to cook him dinner and they’re bantering across THE HOME THEY SHARE like a bunch of desperate hussys

San Lang LEAVES XL WITH A KEEPSAKE OF THEIR TIME TOGETHER SLOW BURN WHOMST

They have A DATE in HC’s armoury where they HOLD HANDS and XL pets San Lang’s quivering sword I-

Hua Cheng basically throws himself at this man he’s like you want a sword?? All of them ?? You want ALL THE SWORDS?? Fuck it take the whole room THE WHOLE ROOM JUST COME VISIT I WILL CLEAN THEM FOR YOU

Like he isn’t the king of a whole realm with shit to do

And this is just the first half of the first book—again I ask the world SLOW BURN WHOMST

#tgcf #mxtx

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in all seriousness it's very alienating knowing theres Something Wrong With You. like seeing your mental illness come through in your behaviour and thought processes and knowing it's irrational and unhealthy, knowing other people are reading you as weird or stupid, and not being able to do anything about it is such a lonely experience

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hes vashing that stampede

#trigun #vash the stampede

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I have an exam but instead of studying I got possessed

#trigun #trigun stampede

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#god this never fails to crack me up #’the Punisher said WHAT!?’ #im giggling #trigun stampede

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Last drink hm?

#it’s allergies that’s why my eyes are red and my nose is running and my chest aches #I’m just allergic to grief and visiting loved ones at their grave like it’s their home #bringing gifts of alcohol and flowers and conversation to those who are there enough to listen but not there enough to respond #just allergic to all of that in general #anyway amazing art it didn’t make me cry at all #trigun

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making a collection

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Trigun Fanfiction Appreciation Week!

From May 5th to May 11th 2024 we're encouraging everyone, as a fandom, to spread some love for the amazing fic writers we've got using the tag #trigunfanficapprecation! This includes;

posting fic/author recs and reviews of your favorite works!

comments! go back and comment (again or for the first time) on works you love, comment on new works you've found, and just show authors you care!

authors! feel free to rec your own fics you'd like to see get more attention in the tag as well!

anyone with an ao3 account please drop a post if you're willing to hand some invites out so more folks can make accounts to comment!

share any other things you'd like to appreciate fanfiction in the fandom. ever made fanart, an inspired fic, or anything else because of one? show it off and make sure you send even more eyes the way of the work you love!

Anything people share in the tag will be reblogged here so there's one easy place to access it! Any kind of fanfic is welcome, just be sure to tag things properly so everyone can find what they want and avoid what they don't!

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:O!!!!

#!!! the boy!! #vash the stampede #trigun

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This is not an unpopular opinion and is very much supported by the text and is The Point, but it is the reason I became obsessed with Vash in the first place. And it’s that Vash is really smart and knowledgeable, but he deliberately lets people perceive and feeds into the perception that he’s a dumbass. So, I watched Stampede first, it got me into Trigun, and there’s a moment in the first episode when they’re preparing for the duel and he smiles and waves at Meryl and then turns away and you can see his expression drop. You can literally see him drop the goofy mask and get serious, and that’s the moment I realized I wasn’t going to be normal about him at all.

But what’s even better about this is that the goofiness and kindness isn’t fake. It’s still a part of him. Everyone assumes his kindness and ideals are born from naïveté, but it’s not. He’s experienced the consequential suffering for his ideals and decided it was worth it.

#trigun #vash the stampede