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Expertise can't help you here.

#dungeon meshi

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hugs !

#dungeon meshi #SJDJDKDKDKD

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#dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #farcille save me..............

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I’ve been getting into Dungeon Meshi lately. I wasn’t really sold when I was told the initial concept but after watching one episode I was super into it. It’s really cute and clever!

#dungeon meshi #dunmeshi

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Honestly I don't think I'm qualified to make this post, I just don't know if I can make coherent enough words man. But the thoughts are in there and I will try to articulate them. This is probably going to be mostly images though. anyway yeah KABRU POST.

A couple nights ago (at approximately 2:30am, lasting a little over half an hour) I had a bit of a moment about Kabru. That, too, was mostly images- most of what you see in this more concise post were presented then as well. I think my main points of the "moment" were about Kabru's trauma + self hatred, his autism and/or general otherness, and also a little labru if you'd like..

I think something easy to start with is I wanna point out Kabru's constant back and forth and conflicting opinions of demihumans and how, I believe, thats a reflection of how he goes back and forth on what he believes his purpose of living is- and the general worth of his own life. I've said it before and i've just kinda shown it in images; Kabru is "i think im a monster and it disgusts me" where Laios is "I know im a human and it disgusts me" (i could go more into the latter on another post)

the above are both from the world bible, with the left being from the section on kobolds and the right being from the section on Kuro specifically. Utaya was very near to the desert where most of the kobold population is, this is likely why Kabru is able to speak Kuro's language- he grew up around demihumans. (chapter 48 cover, kobold chapter in the world bible) I won't try to speak for how his mother or the rest of utaya felt about the kobolds but I can say that Kabru was very much othered as a child, as was his mother, purely for the way her son's (kabru) eyes looked.

I feel like its fair enough to say that both kabru and the kobolds were othered, and possibly for similar reasons (villager's seeing them as nonhuman, as monsters) and the fact that Kabru learned their language probably didn't help his case. I think his perception of kobolds (and all demihumans, subsequently himself, as he probably still views himself as nonhuman or not human enough.. deep down) was damaged by the Utaya incident. at 2:30am when I first started this ramble my main comment was that "had the utaya incident not happened kabru would have little reason to feel ashamed for his connection to monsters. and may have ended up similar to laios in that he couldve had otherkin swag" which is just a sort of silly way of saying Kabru could've learned to love the thought that he is possibly nonhuman or at least not hated himself so much for it.

in the original ramble I said, and quote, "he has been STALKING laios. laios is his hyperfixation to learn how he can ever be loved. he keeps going back and forth so harshly on wether or not he wants to kill Laios and he clearly sees his survival from utaya not as an unfortunate trauma [*] but as a necessary, deserved fate. a punishment for his mother's witchy sins, and for his sin of being non-human. to atone for it all, to apologize for being alive, he tries to better the lives of all humanity. He was set on his way to dethrone the governor of the island . do you understand? im going insane" *i also said somethings about the way he processes other people's traumas and not his own. He's able to understand and even help some people, but he struggles to process his own issues and see himself as worthy of love and life.

^some examples of Kabru being understanding of or helping others who have suffered greatly. I think its also worth mentioning that with Rin (called "Lynn" in that translation) he says "I wish there was a way to get her out of this" though he's insisted and pushed for himself to go into a dungeon;

In chapter 94, Mithrun says "The desire I had left wasn't revenge. All I wanted.. was for it to finish devouring me." and I don't feel like it's a stretch to say Kabru was in a similar situation. Mithrun sought out the demon with no plan on how to kill something like that because deep down he wanted it to end his (Mithrun's) own life, to finish the trauma it caused and kill him. I think Kabru went into the dungeon in part with the hopes that it'd kill him. That the same thing that destroyed Utaya and caused him so much trauma would just.. finish him.

I just think Kabru is a beautifully complex character, I have a lotta thoughts on him and I don't see nearly as many analysis posts for him than I do Laios (despite labru being such a popular ship)

there is no tldr for this post idk how to summarize it. do what you will with this collection of images. have fun. go crazy

fun fact the woman in the bottom left corner is his mother, she is labeled here as "witch"

#dunmeshi #kabru

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I love them. So much.

#dunmeshi #i didn't expect this manga to make me cry in the last chapters but aauuuuggghhh this made me so soft

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OB-FUCKING-SESSED WITH THE WAY THEY DID THIS SCENE . WISH I COULD SAY I EDITED THIS

#dunmeshi #HFSLFJSITJSLDK

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trying to describe why people should read blue flag is so difficult. it's imperfect but in the same way that being a teenager is imperfect. it fucks up sometimes but in a supremely human way. it cuts into your gums like an apple with sweetness that rips apart your ability to speak. it's about being closeted to the world and what it's like to be closeted to even yourself. it's about being in denial and friendship and first love and heartbreak. it's about losing your childhood and yet not being ready to be an adult. it's about familial trauma that lingers in the foundation of your home no matter how much you try to ignore it. it's about running away from your problems and it's about being so injured you can't run away. it's about the heavy silence where you just sit, motionless, across from people who care about you but don't have the words to express it, when breaking the surface tension is impossible because no one is brave enough to skip the first stone

#ao no flag #op you are so right i first read it finishing college and i still can't get it out lf my mind

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touma really thought he was slick with this

#ao no flag #the tags in this post ksgkdkfkdk

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Blue flag does many subtle things remarkably well, but one of my favorite is that Taichi is a pretty average looking protagonist, but every once in a while the camera/POV switches to the perspective of someone who's in love with him and suddenly he's gorgeous. Nothing about him changes- he's drawn with the exact same features as always- but it's instantly obvious why they love him. We see him through their eyes instead of through Taichi's own, and he becomes the most beautiful person in the world and he doesn't even realize it.

Taichi looks up at Touma with doe eyes and food stuck to his face and suddenly he's heart achingly cute. He gives a full body laugh and it's so rare and genuine that Futaba/we through Futaba's eyes stare in lovestruck awe.

It's just. It's so subtle and deftly conveys so, so much without uttering a single word. But it also strengthens the fact that the camera POV is tied to the characters. So when Taichi/the default POV does the same to the others, every time it oogles Touma or makes Futaba glow, that's Taichi. That's his feelings, his love, his attraction that he doesn't even realize he's feeling yet. And you reach that final reveal in the final pages of the story and then you go back to the beginning and you the reader have the fanfic oh. moment. Because it's been there all along.

#ao no flag #yessss this is one of my favorite details #how the pov tells you so much about what that character feels even if the narrative hasn't told you yet

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Extremely funny to me that a spy and an assassin who married each other for self-preservation reasons and constantly lie about themselves have one of the healthiest and openly communicative relationships I’ve seen in manga

#spy x family

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absolutely fascinated by the aesthetics (especially fashion) of the one piece world. the mix of modern and historic. the use of swords and guns and horse/buggies with the snail phones and the neon bar signs. the Hawaiian shirts and jeans and polos with 17th century military uniforms and overcoats. electricity but no power tools. the one giant strip of land and islands. the vibrant hair colors and accessories. the metal jaws and axe hands and clown noses and One Outfit To Rule Them All for each character

#opla #one piece #it's so cool it's one of my favorite things in fantasy #when you mix all the elements new and old to create something with its own rules and it's so much fun

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gay ass reaction

#opla #LITERALLY #it sure af isn't intentional but they really made them the fruitiest crew in all of east blue

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skip and loafer ch. 53

shima seems to see romantic love as a combination of different attraction factors, where liking someone as a person (for their personality) can be compensated for other things, therefore your standarts are lower when you're romantically attracted to someone. the way he sees it, the highest form of steem you can have for someone is to like them as a person, where these other factors don't matter and what you truly value is solely their personality.

i think it's interesting how mukai introduces this conversation by building a hierarchy of feelings, where romantic love stands on top of the feelings of friendship and of liking someone as a person, because that's one concept i've been personally focusing on deconstructing in my life. it's precisely by differenciating these types of feelings and putting them on a hierarchy that so many people end up in romantic relationships with people they don't really like, or why so many people drift away from their friendships when they start dating someone.

through everyone else's eyes, shima's feelings are romantic, and he doesn't feel like they are, because romance to him means something else. the lines between liking someone as a person, as a friend and as a lover are blurred. and listen, that's how they're supposed be. to love someone as a lover is supposed to mean you love them as a friend and as a person as well. a friend and a lover shouldn't be too different, and liking them as a person is supposed to be the core of both feelings.

i don't think shima is being innocent, like i've seen so many people saying on twt since the chapter came out. i think he's touching something very deep about relationships in our society that so many stories that focus on romance fail to address. in most of these stories, romance is the final goal. that's where most of them end. that's not the case here. i was already surprised when mitsumi and shima started dating, and even more surprised when they went back to being friends. that's not the usual narrative for this kind of story. because here, it doesn't seem like this hierarchy matters. and i think it's beautiful and i think it's HUGE how both shima and mitsumi value their friendship above everything else. not only them, because friendship is one of the main themes of this story. both as a dynamic and as a type of love as well.

but people have different perspectives on love and how love feels for them. it's different for mitsumi, for shima, for mika, for fumi. the way you're taught about love in your family or as a child in general has a big role on shaping that. we saw the matter of mitsumi having received lots of love in her family and childhood friends being brought up before as an explanation for her confidence. then, on the other hand, that's why we see shima acklowledging this on the next panels:

we know a few things about shima's family and their complicated relationships. shima never realized his little brother liked him because he saw his behavior as coldness or indifference, when he was actually being considerate of the distance shima was putting between them himself. he felt the need to please his mother by acting in order for her to love him, or for him to be worthy of her love, because their relationship was too anchored on exploitation. his father was having an affair, which not only made shima watch the failure of his parents marriage but also perceive romantic love as something superficial (as in "people break up and move on to the next person") and possibily as something that pushes people away. then shima's first girlfriend only liked him because of his looks, and so many others confessed to him without barely even knowing him. how could shima trust his own feelings after all of that? if he spent most of his formative years in an environment of appearences where love was tied to selfishness, interest, volatility, coldness, pain? shima learned to supress all his feelings and be a people pleaser as a survival mechanism. don't get too attached, live up to others expectations, keep your distance, smile and wave, bottle it all up. he is a kid that doesn't know a single thing about love and is scared as hell of it. love feels as if something is about to break.

that's why liking someone as a person feels more important to him. and that's not only the highest feeling he can have for someone else, i think this is the highest form of feeling he thinks someone could have for him too. it's the kind of feeling he thinks his own mother couldn't have, because acting was more important to her than who he actually was. it's the feeling he unconciously doesn't allow others to feel for him, because he never shows people who he truly is. so shima understands mitsumi's words as a love confession back in chapter 41. she didn't say "i love you", she said "that's what i love about you". and he asks her out, not only because he already knows mitsumi is different, so it seems more reasonable to give it a try, but also because he thinks this is how it's supposed to go. this is what he thinks it's expected to give her in return.

when society puts romance on the top of the relationships/feelings hierarchy, it builds an insane amount of expectations around it. i think it's crazy how friendships feel so free while romantic relationships feel so enclosured. they have too many rules. you're supposed to do this, and that, and behave in certain ways. if you start dating a friend then suddenly your friendship dynamic changes. a boyfriend or a girlfriend have responsibilities that friends don't have. it's a weight. i can't imagine a person like shima feeling any other way about a romantic relationship. for him, this is a big, big weight. that's why he puts an emphasis when he says "i thought that i could be a 'boyfriend' too". a boyfriend is a social role. when he phrases it like that, he's using the word "boyfriend" as an outside concept: he doesn't know what it means to him, he only knows what it means for everyone else. and that's not something he can do.

mukai is absolutely right when he tells shima he shouldn't be going out with anyone. shima isn't ready to be that close to anyone, not even his closest friends. i can't even describe how sad i felt when mukai said this to him:

shima is just so, so lonely...

but this doesn't mean that shima's supposed to become ready to be a "boyfriend" on those terms. i just think he's still trying to figure out what all of these things mean to him. and the good thing is that mitsumi is also trying to figure out these things too. the difference between them is that mitsumi is a few steps ahead, because she already understands what friendship love feels like. and when it comes to that, she gave us one of the most special love confessions i've ever seen.

so many people talked about this scene already, but now, in the light of chapter 53, her saying "i really like this person" has a whole new meaning. this is the most honest love shima has ever received from anyone. no romantic confession could top that. no romantic feeling could heal his wounds the way these words from mitsumi can. this is a treasure shima can't afford to lose.

we're taught that romantic love will save us. that it will make us the happiest, that it completes us. we grow up believing that we can't survive without it. what we really can't survive without are our friends... skip and loafer is putting friendship above everything else, but more than that, it is questioning how romantic love is supposed to feel. some people feel it, some people don't. i think most of us don't really know what it is. we think we do because we read enough, we saw enough movies, we listened to enough love songs. i think i felt it a few number of times in my life but everytime i felt it for someone new i asked myself, was it really love before? what is it, really? if i never read those books or saw thoses movies or listened to those songs. would i recognize it? would i know it better? would it even exist?

aren't shima's feelings for mitsumi already valuable enough? big enough, true enough? would they change if he called them romantic? mitsumi has SO much to teach him about love, about himself, about others. their encounter is so beautiful and so rich. we see how much he's changing, how many new things he's finally starting to understand about himself, how many important steps he's taken since they met. is finding romance at the end really the most important thing for their story?

#skip and loafer #LOOK #THIS IS IT #THIS IS THE CORE MESSAGE #and my aro/ace whatever heart feels really vindicated bc this difficult relationship with romance resonates so intensely #bc the difference between romance and friendship is so freaking blurry #and it's so hard to navigate when you don't know the difference between the two #shima loves mitsumi above all else and that's a fact #she's his favorite person in the world #and whether that's romantic or not!! shouldn't!!! matter!!!!!! #bc that love (same as their gestures towards each other) is one of a kind

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giggling and kicking my feet

#mystic messenger #a menace

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Things to never say to someone who just came out 🏳️‍🌈

That's gay dude

#mystic messenger #SJDKDKDKDK

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that panel where kashima's like "i decided to wear pants today. from head to toe a dude!" there's no one more blue hair and pronouns than her

#gsnk #my favorite manga ever #go kashima i love how gender you always are