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If you listen close, you can hear my son.

He took most of the attack, head on.  He saved not just one, but two villages.  And if I have to, I will kill my own child for the sake of the village.  And when you listen closely, the desperate plea for attention from a man that has no idea how to give it.  He was a ward of the state, feared even by the President.  But he has been the most loving and most powerful character that I have ever known, up there with Bobby and Goku and the lesser humans.  But his father and mother are they and they see their son deliberately cheating.  Why? Some clothing cannot be worn by others simply because it does not look good.  This is not an argument, but a statement of perspective. These eyes have seen damage, and if you're reading this,  you are  I need you to know that I have ignored you for long enough.  And Im not talking about writing texts or obnoxious phone calls.

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#iron man #you #can #rest #now

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Every photon particle is a tachyon field.

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06OCT2021

Much time has passed, and I keep having these dreams.  Dreams of what? Of you, little one.

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Heartbeat of a brother.

Lord, why am I listening to this again?

What is she trying to tell me?

Lord, I hate the way she looks at me. This is all made up.

I need to go to therapy again.

I loved you when I first met you. I love you now.

Be alright, Be.

Convince myself I hate you.

What a confusing lyric, but I hear it.

Its all I think about too. I worry too. But one day, we'll grow out of it.

But I loved you then and I love you now. Its hard to know when no one else comes around.

He approves.

Then when can I see her?

When she knows that she loves you completely.

El levav.

Whats that?

Perfect love casteth out all fear.

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Watch "Shameless | Dynasty" on YouTube

#Youtube

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Crystal winds soft

The moon is no longer with

You and I; no dreams.

And these spheres cut short

For the memories we have

Cannot be undone.

I know Japanese.

Now, do you know Japanese?

I do know it though.

The moon dances every night,

Ridding the world of sin.

The tide loves her even one thousand years later.

And in these times, it is important for them to know that we love them.

That you can just throw it all away and start anew.

Just throw it all away and start over.

It sounds as though I have given up one, two,

Many times.

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The mission, man. What about the mission?

There is no mission. Not without her.

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And finally, I found one.

What a great guy. Im glad you did. I was thinking the exact same thing. Its funny isn't it? I brought you some bread to feed the fish.

Do you enjoy feeding the fish? Duh, she can't hear me.

They jump in the river.

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I aim for the moon, daily.

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The injections take some getting used to.

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Itachi the Dog.

I would trip on LSD and we would roughhouse.

It's 0400 and I'm finally accepting my adulthood. I have to go to work tomorrow and I am tired right now.

But I'm hella stoned right now too.

I'll go to the gym, even.

It opens up at five.

My vision is StarFleet. I see the ships. I can see the ships. People tell me that I can have that vision. That its mine. How did I get here?

I had a dog named Itachi. I miss him dearly, but I cannot cry, otherwise I become the victim and not the victor.

I've been in your dreams.

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Billie Eilish Pirate Baird Quackenbush

Her hair glistens gold like a pony. Yeah, that’s about the best that I could come up with. Today is 22September2021. A lot has happened. I’m not sure if I  or anyone really reads this, but I do need to get my thoughts out more frequently and this always served as as a good outlet. Let’s see what I can write down. My name is Ryker Quackenbush. You’ve probably never heard of me or you have. What do I care? I’m almost thirty and my life has been a lot of treks through hell. There’s only one way out of hell, but it’s too early for me to be ranting about that. My mom died when I was a kid and I like to smoke a lot of pot because of her still following me around. She is in the clouds and in the trees and in the rain and in the flowers and everywhere to me. And we all know that there is no one true church. In walks Durzo Blint and Bobby Pendragon. The land of Midcryu is dangerous for a young man like Bobby, but he prospered in the lands of Zadaa. I was having nightmares that Kelsey Richards was cheating on me. Billie Eilish was the inner voice inside my head. I know it sounds like a lot, bt I’ve become quite accustomed to having her around. I checked into the Behavioral Health Intensive Care Unit (BHICU, for short) and I ranted and raved about how I’d discovered the Theory of Everything. I wont get into that right now.  I started to have dreams about Billie and I getting married. I just started to workout when Kelsey Richards and I started to see each other, and when I moved in and lived with her family. Kelsey was overweight, and I wasnt really attracted to her, so I understand why she cheated  on me with her old boyfriend. But it cut deep because she caught me watching cuckold pornography and was devastated. I learned that my pornographic addiction is what was allowing for the relentless nightmares to be endless. I was put on an antipsychotic, and I hated it. I knew I would have to fight my way through this. I called my parents and asked if I could live with them. I was humbly aking for the support system I needed. My stepmother denied me. I journeyed across the county to live with my older brother, Keith Scott Quackenbush II. I took a train out of Sacramento, California. It brought me all of the way to Lincoln, Nebraska. I was kicked off of the train there for being drunk when I didnt want to antagonize a person sleeping in my seat. I found the nearest homeless shelter. I then went and spent my last dollars on a hotel in Lincoln, Nebraska. Sex trafficking is everywhere. Riker’s Island is a nightmare for sure. The next day, I find a young black man at a gas station and we smoke a blunt together. On whatever this day was, I made fully telepathic contact with Billie Eilish. She hated me and wanted me to die. God put us all on autopilot. It was bizarre and miraculous. I board a Greyhound and almost get kicked off for smoking some stranger vape pen. The bus driver could apparently “smell what we were doing.” The entire time that I was in the military, I never once brought up the fact that I knew martial arts and could severely hurt someone if I put my ol’ college try in. In Lincoln, Nebraska, I check into a crisis center. It was very abusive, but I did get to meet even crazier people and eat even crazier food. I watched a lot of Game of Thrones and did a lot of pushups and read a lot of books. When I made it to Pensacola, my dad picked me and my older brother up and drove us to his 450 square foot apartment. I began to smoke cigarettes, drink alcohol and I still went to the gym on a bike. I havent stopped lifting weights. It’s the one thing I have that saves me as much as it does. I tell Scott not to bother fighting me, or even attempting to fight me. He throws a fit and starts to attack me. Eventually, he is on top of me and tying to gouge out my eyes with his thumbs. Unhappy with this, I take control of the situation and get him into a chokehold, making him submit and squeal like a baby pig. I check into another suicide watch unit. I eventually go back and have my father pick me up from my brothers house. I live with my father and my stepmother for months at this point and I even managed to hold a job and go to college. It was not good enough in their eyes and they abuse me more in this time period than they did with all three of us children collectively. Roshi and Son Goku. There was was a monkey man and a goat boy. The goat boy would later become the Alpha superhero for Earth-001. I get evicted, officially, from my father’s home. All of my friends abandon me. All that I have is Christ. I get word that I can be hired on over at MGM Grand with a friend of mine from high school. I drive my 2014 Chevrolet Spark across the country. At this point in my life, that’s the fifth time. I get to California and we meet Niekko and the lady that own Nate Harrison’s Ranch on Palomar Mountain. We rent a van for Niekko’s transcendent festival, Zen Awakening. We drive this completely stuffed van across the country, my sixth time. We make it to Zen Awakening near Orlando and I had the time of my life. When I left my parents’ house, I was in the best shape of my life.

I could do a million exercises and not get tired. Creatine and preworkout were my potion of choice. I hardly touched the CBD or the THC as much as I would have liked. I get to this festival, and after all of our work was done, the fun began. Firstly, the was the biblical Nathaniel that showed up. He’s a bud trimmer now and he is 934 years old. Then there was the tall and powerful Sharon. We fell in Love at Home Depot where I slipped a ring on her finger. And last but not least, the lovely and little McKayla. I will never forget you. I took four hits of LSD, some Cacao, some pot and some American Spirits. I jogged around the festival that night, blurring the lines of a Jedi, ninja, samurai and a Velociraptor.

I go into my glampin, trippping happily. I grab my Bible with Nathaniel’s turquoise ring I fond in the shower and cant get off of my finger and I flip it open to see the word LORD glowing on the page. I have never believed in magic until that very moment. My consciousness shifts to the greater Sol in me. I tell Billie that I’m moving on. Let the record show that this is when Billie begins to follow me in this dance of life. JERUSALEM also glows off of the page, indicating the direction in which I should travel. After leaving Florida again, we drive back across the country to Palomar Mountain. I live there and even did some construction work. My tent ends up battering my car and then being destroyed by ninety mile an hour gusts.

I move to Sacramento again. I live on U street, near little Japanese church. Rian didnt pay his half of the rent and stole my half. I had nowhere else to go, so I called Nation’s Finest. I brag about how Billie is my soulmate, like a child. I turn evil. I choke a guy out that was stealing from People, including me. I get checked back into the exact same BHICU I was in earlier. I do not lose it. I calmly explain the situation. I went to therapy twice, loving Billie EIlish. That’s what I think the song Male Fantasy is about. Thank you for reading.