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                     SOMEONE SHOULD WAKE ME BEFORE I DIE

                                  (formerly warcommanded/bledwar x)

#n e way bye #i'm over here now #▐ ᶤᶰ ᵃᶰᵒᵗʰᵉʳ ˡᶤᶠᵉ // SELF PROMO

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n e ways i didn’t mean to drop of the face of the planet like i did and i’m really sorry to everyone who’s been like, trying to talk to me and been getting nowhere with me real fast. Fact of the matter is, my body is fighting itself rn with my seasonal depression trying to set in and my anti-depressants being weird so i’ve really just been having a hard time lately staying focused anda ctually talking to anyone.

on top of that, i just started my new job a few days ago, and the hours suck (12-9pm, it literally takes up my whole day). I’m going to be in training for the next 6 weeks, and the building has horrible reception so i can barely even use my phone when i’m on break and shit. 

but yeah like, i really hope you guys know i’m not intentionally ignoring anyone, i’m just having a struggle with depression and other life things going on rn and it’s hard for me to keep up because i just want to sleep and play overwatch. but i love you guys a lot, and you’re always welcome to add me on discord and chat me up (mutuals only though please). I’m shitty af at replying but i’m trying

#i realized i hadn't really been here in #several weeks lmao #i said my hiatus was until black friday and then whoop i disappeared save for a few posts #i've barely been on tumblr at all tbqh even on my phone #but uh yeah i'm really sorry i haven't been the best at actually being here #but what else is new ya know #▐ ʷᵉ'ʳᵉ ᵃˡˡ ᵍᵃʸ ᶰᵒʷ // OOC #like i haven't even been on my laptop in a hot second this is the first time in days #i've been avoiding checking my final grade for my class cause i fucked up again lmao

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#my blogs are a never ending mess of apologies for my not being around #but i am really sorry that i'm not here much like i wanted to be #and i'm even more sorry that i've completely disappeared from discord for most people #i swear it's not anything personal i'm just not doing hot #i'm trying my best not to slip into that isolationism that plagued me through the summer but it's hard #But I'm starting a new job tomorrow so I'm going to be even more scarce because of my schedule #and i'm really sorry for that #i wish i could be better about being here and not be such a depressed piece of shit but here we are #▐ ʷᵉ'ʳᵉ ᵃˡˡ ᵍᵃʸ ᶰᵒʷ // OOC #tbd.

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#anyway I'm sorry for not being here #i just have 0 motivation to do anything whether it be writing or talking to people #tbh my suicidal ideation is kicking in again lmao #lmao I'm honestly just not doing great i don't really know what's going on but I'm just not doing okay #and I'm just back in that really bad mental state again i and i just want to die and not be here anymore #so anyway sorry I'm not really around much and I'm not talkative #but what else is new #tbd. #negative //

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#sorry gen.ji

#i'm getting better at widow tho #▐ ʷᵉ'ʳᵉ ᵃˡˡ ᵍᵃʸ ᶰᵒʷ // OOC #also hi i just spent all day at the zoo #i'm so tired but it was so much fun

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#I've gotten 3 trophies on over.watch today. #i got ana and widow's pixels and moi.ra's cute spray #that makes 5 this week #jfc #tbd.

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#maybe i should go back on hiatus #maybe i should stop rping in general tbh #▐ ʷᵉ'ʳᵉ ᵃˡˡ ᵍᵃʸ ᶰᵒʷ // OOC #tbd.

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#anyway i promise I'll be here this week #I've just been so distracted playing overwatch i haven't touched my laptop in days #and I'm sorry I've been shitty at responding on discord toi #too* #idk what's up with me I'm just having a hard time talking to people lately #I'm really sorry #tbd.

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#anyway hi I'm sorry for dropping off the face of the planet #i have barely slept in 4 days and I've been trying to catch up on sleep but it's not happening #as it is I'm gonna try to get some more sleep now and then I'm gonna try and clean a little before i start on drafts #but uh yeah sorry for disappearing I've just been echausted #tbd.

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Add me on pocket camp hoes

#tbd.

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I am so tired y'all

#holy shit i just got home #i am ready to drop man #i haven't been this tired in a very long long time #i didn't cry but i came close #i'm ready to sleep for a week #tbd.

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#lmao whoever scheduled breaks and shit for the electronics crew really fucked us over it's great #tbd.

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deathwalksamong replied to your video: The enemy mei ulted to save herself and i felt...

I WISH I COULD PLAY W/ U 1!!!!! but i won’t be on the ps4 until saturday / sunday : (

starting tomorrow i’m off for a week 👀

#deathwalksamong #e d e n #p l a y w me #i don't suck as hard as i did the first and last time we played together

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The enemy mei ulted to save herself and i felt really bad

#▐ ʷᵉ'ʳᵉ ᵃˡˡ ᵍᵃʸ ᶰᵒʷ // OOC

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anyway apparently when @pescaprincipessa and i team up we are a fucking wrecking machine in ovw

#we won all but one game out of like??? 12??? #i haven't played that well in /ages/ #i was showing off for ami #▐ ʷᵉ'ʳᵉ ᵃˡˡ ᵍᵃʸ ᶰᵒʷ // OOC #tbd.

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brucs:

name:   becca nickname:  weenie hut jr and gay baby are my faves    gender:   non-binary pronouns:   they/them zodiac:  aquarius birthday:  january 24th sexuality: asexual country:  usa religion:  agnostic hogwarts house:  ravenclaw

about me.

#▐ ʷᵉ'ʳᵉ ᵃˡˡ ᵍᵃʸ ᶰᵒʷ // OOC

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#i'm so glad that i remembered that reporting on ps4 is now a thing in overwatch #i don't like reporting people or doing that kind of thing but hoo boy #a tracer on my team pissed me tf off and was being an absolute assfuck #i hope their ass gets banned #anyway i'm feeling really emotional so i'm gonna chill on discord until i gotta leave #▐ ʷᵉ'ʳᵉ ᵃˡˡ ᵍᵃʸ ᶰᵒʷ // OOC #tbd.