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Reblog the fundraisers you mfs!!!!! I don't know why you all skip those to reblog some pic of a banner saying "FREE PALESTINE" or of news from Columbia University! Literally these people from Gaza have made an account on Tumblr and is writing in english to communicate what they need and you all are coming onto my blog or on the tag and not reblogging their posts. We have people both Palestinian and non Palestinian vetting the fundraisers! I mean more the reblogs, more the chance of the fundraisers gaining momemtum, the more there would be a chance of a donation. Please donate if you can and reblog!!! and follow them if it is possible.

@/mohammedayesh has posted about getting leaflets, telling them to evacuate Rafah. They are very low on funds. Go follow them and reblog their posts and donate if possible.

We have @/haneenatya too whose mother is suffering from eye stroke and need to evacuate. Please I have been following them for some days and it doesn't seem their own posts are getting much attention.

Follow them! They are on tumblr. Reblog their posts and donate. The protests in universities are being done on account of them. They should be our focus.

(EDIT: on re-reading my post it seems as if I am dismissing all that the students of universities are doing. I am not. I just meant, since all of it is to help Palestinians, we must not ignore them when they ask for help).

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The way you change your immediate reactions to things is that you catch yourself having an uncharitable/bigoted/overly judgmental thought and you catch it and replace it and then you do that a hundred times a day for your whole life and eventually one day like five years later you realize that you think differently now and you’ll always be working on something but that’s how life goes and that’s fine.

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Throwback to when I took painkillers and woke up with Photoshop open on my computer to this image I had made

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huh why don't i feel so good *remembers the curse on my bloodline* ohhhhhh

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I never went to prom and idk if I really wish I had per say, but I do wish I'd ever asked my parents for an actual suit instead if just haphazardly piecing together dress pants and vests that didn't really go together and never having a proper jacket. I also wish I'd just worn dresses when I wanted to instead of being so scared that would "invalidate ny identity." I was so attached to the Idea of being queer in specific ways I spent over a decade of my life constantly stopping myself from actually even being honest with myself about what I wanted. I genuinely don't understand why.

#thoughts

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I don't really understand how I convinced myself I was a trans man in the first place. I keep trying to figure it out and I'm just... so lost.

I'm scared my motivations were all Bad. I'm scared I'm a Bad Person for transitioning for the Wrong reasons. I'm scared I'm irredeemable.

I'm also so sad for how much time and good fortune I wasted for seemingly nothing. I don't want to view it that way. But, I spent so much time locked away by myself trying to figure out who I was before going out and meeting people to avoid "lying" to them, but in the end I ended up lying to everyone via lying to myself anyway. And I had such a nice voice and such nice hair before. I never appreciated those things enough until they were gone. I thought I didn't care about them. I thought I hated my voice before.

I think in a lot of ways transitioning for me was just... desperately trying to make Something work in terms of Fixing myself. And I just broke myself worse. I'm less productive than ever, less useful than ever, less confident than ever, I'm just a mess.

There are ways to move forward, but it's so hard to feel like it's worth it or like I deserve it. It's so tempting to just actually give up on myself permanently this time.

#vent #detrans

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there's nothing wrong with detransitioning. there's nothing wrong with questioning something, trying it out and realizing it's not for you. there's nothing wrong with having to go back in the closet for any reason. there's nothing wrong with being out being too unsafe and forcing you to detransition. there's nothing wrong with stopping hormones because they're bad for your health, or because you didn't like their effects. there's nothing wrong with detransitioning from binary man or womanhood and living as a nonbinary person instead. there's nothing wrong with detransitioning because you realized something about yourself. there's nothing wrong with detransitioning because you changed your mind.

there's nothing wrong with detransitioning.

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I just think people who clean public spaces should make no less than $100,000 a year

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In the past 24 hours, in Rafah alone, 11 homes have been struck and levelled on top of their residents. This resulted in at least 28 people killed, 11 of which are children and many remain missing under the rubble.

Israel never stopped but it is definitely intensifying its operations.

Keep your eyes on Rafah but also speak up about Rafah and about Gaza. Do what you can because millions of lives are facing a massive threat with absolutely nowhere to go.

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Your parents are not "narcissists". They're typical authoritarian assholes who treat you like their property because society allows them to.

Your ex boyfriend is not a "narcissist". He's a typical misogynistic douchebag who treats women like shit because society allows him to.

Your boss is not a "narcissist". They're a typical classist dipshit who thinks workers' entire purpose in life is to generate profit because society allows them to.

And even if they happen to be a "narcissist", that's not what gave them the power to get away with abuse.

So stop blaming mental illness and start blaming society's normalization of abuse. Stop acting like someone has to have a mental illness in order to do something cruel when ordinary people have been doing atrocious things since forever.

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i think heterosexuality does have sexual revolutionary potential to the same extent that homosexuality does. its just that patriarchal society restricts m/f relationships so much that we don't recognize their true potential. like at its best, you are connecting with someone of a different gender- even your "opposite"- and through that connection you end up seeing yourself in them. im not even talking about "getting in touch with your feminine/masculine side" shit im talking about loving/lusting someone so much that you feel they are a part of you, and through that you demystify the other gender and feel profoundly tied to the issues they face. the patriarchy restrains straightness by forcing people in love/lust to always keep a wall between them, to insist on the idea that men and women speak a different language, to still see even the person they love/desire as an Other. a new, freer vision of straightness is one that inevitably fosters genderfuckery and inter-gender solidarity. heterosexual love and lust, freed from its restraints, has the power to shake up the basic patriarchal ideas of how men and women are supposed to relate to each other as "opposites." and this is why transhet people are send by God to heal society thank you for coming to my tedtalk

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just found out that if i stay in my room all the time my life will eventually shrink to the size of it and i will lose all memory of how to function as a person. shocked & upset

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How to Save Your Own Life, Erica Jong

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@/folkoftheshelf on Twitter has made a thread of fundraising links for Gazans. I’ve transferred the links here, please boost them as the conflict is worsening:

Help Ahmad Hassan and his family escape Gaza

Help Halla Morshed’d family escape Gaza

Help Dr. Yousef Alsweisi and his family escape Gaza

Evacuate Sohad’s family out of Gaza

Help Donia Tanani and her family escape Gaza (they are close to reaching their goal!!)

Help Zinh and her family escape Gaza (they are close to reaching their goal!!)

Help this Gazan family rebuild their lives (they are not close to their goal as of writing)

Help the Zack Family

Help Hala Jad and her family (they are at a 1/3 of their goal)

Help Walid and his family escape Gaza (they are close to reaching their goal!!)

Help Mariam Radi and her family (as of right now they are not close to reaching their goal)

Help Maha Abu Shammala evacuate the family from Gaza (they haven't met their goal as of writing)

Help Ronza Alaa and her family (they haven't met their goal as of writing)

Help Noor and her family evacuate to safety (they haven't met their goal as of writing)

Help Manar Abuqata get his family out of Gaza (goal hasn't been met as of writing)

Help Farah save her family

Help Ahmad’s family escape from Gaza to Egypt

Help evacuate Mohammed Harara’s family out of Gaza (they are halfway through their goal!!)

Help Dana and her family escape (they have almost met their goal!!)

Help Anas’ family escape from Gaza (goal has not been met as of writing, note that the money is in krona, 1 usd=11 krona)

Help Ibrahem Ra’fat Daher and his family evacuate Gaza

Help Hakam Albalawi save his family (goal had not been met as of writing)

Help Tabseem AbuJamie’s family evacuate (goal hasn't been met and only has two donations as of writing)

Rafah Masterpost

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Free Palestine protesters shut down the Golden Gate Bridge and 880 freeway in Oakland. This is huge🫡

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btw i think if you tried to explain politics to Winnie the Pooh he wouldn't really get it & then if you went on explaining he'd be like 'why can't we all just be nice to each other' and you'd be like you got me there Pooh. I just don't know. :(