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hey! do you know, by any chance, that quote where john says sex with a girl felt like a performance? i can't find it anywhere but i can swear i saw it on tumblr :)

Hi, sorry for replying just now. I’ve been away for a couple of months. I’m not even sure if I remember the quote, to be honest. I’ll do some research and if i find anything of the sorts, I’ll get back here and do a post about it. 

If anyone sees this ask and knows the quote, please feel free to tag along and join the party. 

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some sketches from today! you learn and improve a lot without even thinking about it when you draw your favs :” )

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people who can graciously hide that they don’t like people are so terrifying. last year while working on tech for a play i asked my friend how he became friends with another guy on the crew and he got quiet, looked straight into my soul and said “he’s not my friend. i fucking hate him.” i lost 5 years of my life

#i'm an air sign and yes #i agree #lol

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so Fred Seaman, John’s last assistant, in 1981, stole John’s diaries (from 1975,1979,1980) and entrusted them to Robert Rosen, Fred’s friend

When asked about what was in the diaries in an interview, this is what Robert says:

bonus:

source: understanding Lennon/McCartney vol.5 on YouTube

#the obsession was real yo #john and paul #quote

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We say we have a romantic friendship but all that means is I don’t understand anything I feel.

— Maggie Nelson, Words to a Woman.

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“Critical acclaim was not so readily forthcoming. Without the Beatles’ special alchemy Paul’s romanticism tended to drift towards pap, lacking the spark of originality that characterised the best McCartney-Lennon collaborations. His most acrid critic, to Paul’s everlasting chagrin, turned out to be Lennon. For years they squabbled like ex’s unable to leave behind a stormy marriage, but when it came to sarcastic repartee John was in a class by himself. Japes like the one about Humperdinck, or the picture of John hoisting a pig by its ears (a wicked sendup of Paul holding up a sheep on the cover of his Ram album) wounded Paul deeply. He still has not entirely recovered; in a recent interview he claimed to draw fresh solace from his conversations with Yoko Ono. “She tells me something very important,” he revealed, “that John still loved me, after all.” “Of course my brother and John loved each other,” declares Michael McCartney, “same as my brother and I do. Brothers have their feuds—you love ’em and you hate ’em. Oh, it’s easy enough to put all the negative parts under a microscope. I could have written a book called Paulie Dearest, slagged him to death and made millions. But it wouldn’t have been the truth. With Paul and John, though, all the dirty linen was brought out in public.””

— Mark Rowland (writer), Playgirl: Profile – Paul McCartney. (June, 1982)

#the marriage analogy #john and paul #quote #mark rowland

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October(?), 1982: BBC reporter Mike McKay interviews Paul for the 20th anniversary of ‘Love Me Do’. 

PAUL: John and I started writing… uh, a couple of years before we ever got a record contract. And we actually used to sag off school, go to my house, and we started trying to write songs. And we got together a bunch of songs, and ‘Love Me Do’ was one of them. 

MCKAY: Was there ever a serious possibility that you would have reformed in the late 70s or 80s and play together?

PAUL: No. Uh, while those offers were going on, we would ring each other and say, “Have you heard about this offer?” “Well you’re not going to do it, are you?” And we’d say, “No way.” So between the four of us there was never any question that we were gonna do it, you know. We were just kind of watching the world going mad, really. And the reason was that this chemistry that I was talking about had been broken. We definitely said, right, I don’t like you, don’t want to work with you again, and the business and everything had come to a head, like a divorce. 

MCKAY: But at the end, the last few years, you were all on better terms, on a sort of similar terms—?

PAUL: We were on better terms, yes, but no so as we’d felt like we’d pick up the group thing again. Nobody wanted, really, to work with each other. There were moments when you thought, oh, it would be great, it really would be great. But uh, we generally thought that if we did it, it would be a let down. One thing we’ve always been conscious of with the Beatles was to go on and have a great career and leave ’em laughin’, kind of thing. And we thought we’d done that, you know. We didn’t really want to come back as kind of decrepit old rockers: [geriatric voice] “Hello, remember us? Hey she loves you, yeah yeah yeah…” You know and, “Oh dear, you know, they were good, honest, kids,” all the grown-ups would be saying. “They were good when we knew ’em.” It’s just… so we didn’t want to do it.

MCKAY: But other groups of the same period have survived and gone on, perhaps with some changes – The Who, The Rolling Stones…

PAUL: Yeah. [long pause; laughs] True. Um… but we broke up. [pause] Although I think it was a natural thing, I don’t think we could’ve. Think the thing was we were eighteen, kids, growing up, and we did sort of our ten years in the army thing, and then we had to go our separate ways. We had to look at life, instead of just this group. We had to find women, for one, uh, which we all sort of did. Um. And then we had to give time to that new life, you know, because with the Beatles it prohibited any other thing. You just had to go with the group and there wasn’t any time for anything else. 

#'we had to find women' #1982 #lmao paul #i mean the other rock stars found women too yknow #lol #paul mccartney #amoralto

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4. 

Our words misunderstand us. Sometimes at night you are my mother: old detailed griefs twitch at my dreams, and I crawl against you, fighting for shelter, making you my cave. Sometimes you’re the wave of birth that drowns me in my first nightmare. I suck the air. Miscarried knowledge twists us like hot sheets thrown askew.

— Adrienne Rich, Like This Together.

#1968 #john and paul #amoralto

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December 5th, 1980: John talks to Jonathon Cott about suppression. (Note: Clipped this for @sweating-cobwebs, and thought I’d throw it up here too! In brackets is the continuation, which was in the printed version of this interview.)

JOHN: It’s more painful to try and not to be yourself, you know? In a way. It’s harder to try – people do spend a lot of time trying to be somebody else all the time, you know, and I think it leads to terrible diseases and things like that. [laughs] 

COTT: Maybe it comes out later on.

JOHN: Yeah, you know, like a sort of… like maybe you get cancer or something. A lot of tough guys die of cancer, haven’t you noticed? Wayne, um the last one – McQueen. Because I think it has something to do – and I don’t know, I’m no expert – I think it has something to do with constantly living and getting trapped into an image or an illusion of themselves or something, and suppressing some part of themselves, whether it’s the feminine side or the fearful side.

COTT: You know I was reading this one poet who once said, people who were quoting some psychologist [Carl Jung] saying that people are made up of a thinking side, a feeling side, an intuitive side, and a sensual side, so a sensing. And he said the trouble with most people is that they have a strong side that’s developed a lot, and their weaker side they don’t pay any attention to. 

JOHN: Yeah. 

COTT: And if they developed their weaker sides, they’d be really integrating, you know?

JOHN: Well, I think that’s what feminism is all about.

COTT: And it seems that you’ve done that. 

JOHN: That’s what Yoko’s taught me. I couldn’t have done it alone. It had to be a female to teach me. I think most of us needed – a female, you know? For those who relate to females, I don’t want to get into all that, you know. But uh, that’s it, you know? Yoko has been telling me all the time, ‘It’s all right, it’s all right.’ [I look at early pictures of meself, and I was torn between being Marlon Brando and being the sensitive poet – the Oscar Wilde part of me with the velvet, feminine side. I was always torn between the two, mainly opting for the macho side, because if you showed the other side, you were dead.]

#this is painfully interesting #john lennon #audio interview #john and oscar wilde #1980 #audio

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When you pretend to be in love you run the risk of feeling it, he who parodies without proper precautions ends up the victim of his own cunning. And even if he takes them, he ends up a victim just the same. As Pascal said: “It is almost impossible to feign love without turning into a lover.” […] That said, I must also warn you that when you hear me say, for example, that there was never any end to Paris, I will most likely be saying it ironically. But, anyway, I hope not to overwhelm you with too much irony. The kind that I practice has nothing to do with that which arises from desperation — I was stupidly desperate enough when I was young. I like a kind of irony I call benevolent, compassionate, like what we find, for example, in the best of Cervantes. I don’t like ferocious irony but rather the kind that vacillates between disappointment and hope. Okay?

— Enrique Vila-Matas, Never Any End to Paris.

The thing was all the kissing and the holding that was going on in Paris. And it was so romantic, just to be there and see them, even though I was twenty-one and sort of not romantic. But I really loved it, the way the people would just stand under a tree kissing; and they weren’t mauling at each other, they were just kissing.

— John Lennon, interview w/ David Sheff for Playboy. (September, 1980)

J’aime the kisses the Parisians give one another, touching their cheeks, and allowing men to do the same, though they never lock their arms in embrace.

— Henri Cole, Orphic Paris.

After a late lunch, Linda launched into a long paean to the joys of living in England. When she was finished, she turned to John and said, “Don’t you miss England?”

“Frankly,” John replied, “I miss Paris.”

— May Pang, Loving John. (1983)

If so, how I must be striving to not be annihilated by Paris, which I find so overwhelming. My face looks solitary and calm. […] What perplexing messages memories can yield. As I write this, their odors, their shadows, and their sweet music are almost too much to bear.

— Henri Cole, Orphic Paris.

“I don’t have any friends!” John reminded me. “Friendship is a romantic illusion!” He said that he had learned this the hard way after the breakup of his relationship with Paul McCartney, whom he had once regarded as his close friend.

— Fred Seaman, The Last Days of John Lennon. (1991)

To the most romantic corner in Paris where I left my heart and my illusion.

— Octavio Paz. (trans. Henri Cole)

I think, in one way, all of us were under a slight illusion that we might… Maybe it wasn’t an illusion, and maybe had we pushed harder, we would’ve gotten what we wanted, but I’m not sure we – anybody really knew what we wanted. We knew we didn’t like what was happening, but nobody knew quite what – what it was that we wanted. ’Cause we’d never had it.

— John Lennon, interview w/ Jim Ladd. (October 10th, 1974)

Everything ends, I thought.

Everything except Paris, I say now. Everything ends except Paris, for there is never any end to Paris, it is always with me, it chases me, it is my youth. Wherever I go, it travels with me, it’s a feast that follows me. There can be an end to this summer, it will end. The world can go to ruin, it will be ruined. But to my youth, to Paris, there is never any end. How terrible.

— Enrique Vila-Matas, Never Any End to Paris.

#this is absolutely heartbreaking #my heart actually fucking hurts #john and paul #mclennon #paris quotes #paris #we'll always have paris #amoralto

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I really believe that John Lennon was very much in love with Paul McCartney, and I also believe that Paul McCartney was in love with John Lennon. 

The fact that they probably never got to act on those feelings (as in they ended up having sex or even kissed) does not erase that their love was deep and complex. 

So, yep. I believe what I believe, and that’s that. And like, the more I think about it, the more I keep remembering things I’ve read, or things they said in interviews to or about each other, the way they looked at each other, the more confident I am that the feeling was there. 

#mclennon #john and paul #bewaremylove #thoughts on shit

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#wemissjohnlennon

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Some facts about The Beatles’ Girls by goddamnthebeatles

Cynthia Powell

Born 10 September 1939, died 1 April 2015

Dated John Lennon since 1958 and was married to him during 1962 until 1968

Mother of Julian Lennon

Cyn met John at Liverpool College Of Art, people used to say she was too good for him, George Harrison used to idolize her at the time

She found John and Yoko sleeping together in her own house, divocing from him immidiately after

Her dream job was being an Art teacher, which she accomplished for a few years

Paul McCartney looked after her and Julian during her entire life, being a loyal friend

She wrote the book “John” in which she talks about her and Julian’s relationship with John

Jane Asher

Born 5 April 1946

Dated Paul McCartney during 1963 until 1968

She came from a rich, high class family from London

Successful actress in her early years, later on she became a writer and a famous baker

Jane was the main inspiration for many Beatles’ songs, like “And I Love Her”, “Honey Pie”, “I’m Looking Through You” and many others

Paul wanted her to quit her acting career 

Jane and Paul broke up definitely when she reportedly found him in bed with Francie Shwartz

Patricia (Pattie) Boyd

Born 17 March 1944

Dated George Harrison since 1964, meeting him in the set of “A Hard Day’s Night” and was married to him since 1966 until 1977

She was a famous model since the late 50s, getting even more acknowledge in the 60s and 70s, later on in her life she became a photographer

One of the main reasons why The Beatles went to India in 1968 was through her interest in eastern mysticism

John Lennon and Paul McCartney had a crush on her

Inspiring muse of “Something” and many other Beatles and George’s songs 

Later on she married anotther famous musician, Eric Clapton

Pattie wrote the book “Pattie Boyd: Wonderful Tonight” in which she talks about her life, her childhood, her abusive stepfather and her troubled relationship with Harrison and Clapton

Maureen Cox

Born 4 August 1946 and died 30 December 1994 from leucemia

Married to Ringo Starr since 1965 until 1975

Part of the first Beatles’ fans, she used to watch the boys playing at the Cavern Club in the early 60s, at that time she kissed Paul McCartney as part of a dare with a friend

Maureen left school at 16 years old to become a hair dresser, her dream job

She’s the mother of Ringo’s children Zak, Jason and Lee

Maureen had an affair with George, leaving both Ringo and Pattie in dismal

Yoko Ono

Born 18 February 1933

Married to John Lennon since 1969 until 1980 

Mother of Sean Lennon

As a child during the WWII, lived in a concentration camp for awhile

It is said that Yoko met John at an art gallery where she had an exhibition, although Cynthia’s book reclaims it, assuring she used to send John letters and staying at Keenwood’s gate waiting for him

She’s a very well known and respected plastic artist, peace and feminist activist, she also was a musician, being part of the Plastic Ono Band and recording albums with her husband John

Yoko introduced Lennon to many new ideologies/phylosophies, she was also a great influence of his actions, there’s a great discussion wherever their relationship was abusive or not

Inspiring muse of many of John’s song, being “Woman” the most famous one

Yoko was present the day John was murdered

Linda McCartney

Born September 24 1941 and died April 17 1998, from a long battle against breast cancer

She was married to Paul McCartney since 1969 until 1998

Linda met Paul at a bar in London, before that she took pictures of him and the other 3 beatles at the Sgt. Pepper album premiere

Mother of Heather, Mary, Stella and James

Famous photographer of the 60s, keeping up her work in a more domestic way in her late life, she was also a animal rights activist and a musician, being part of the band Wings and recording albums until the late 90s with her husband Paul 

Linda was a Beatles’ fan, she saw the boys playing at the Shea Stadium in 1965, John Lennon was her favorite Beatle

She was the source of strength for Paul when The Beatles ended

Linda was the first woman to have a photograph featured on the front cover of Rolling Stone Magazine

She published several books of her photographs: Linda’s Pictures, Sun Prints, Sixties: Portrait of an Era, Roadworks and more

Olivia Harrison

Born 18 May 1948 in Mexico

Married to George Harrison since 1978 until 2001

Mother of Dhani Harrison

She met George through the telephone, she was a secretary at Dark House Records, they used to talk for hours before meeting personally

Olivia bravely protected George from being stabbed when a assailant broke into their house

She took several important roles on books, documentares, concerts and others regarding George after his death

Barbara Bach 

Born August 27 1947

Married to Ringo Starr since 1981 until nowadays

She met Ringo in the set of “Caveman" 

She was also a Beatle’s fan and watched the boys at the Shea Stadium in 1965

Barbara is a very famous actress and model of the 70s and 80s, mostly well known for being a bond girl

She struggled through years of Ringo’s dependency on acohol

Nowadays she’s a philanthropist along with Ringo, both run the Lotus Foundation dedicated to charity

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#throwback

To that one time John Lennon made the Beatles listen to a tape of him and Yoko having sex and he was heard later say to Paul ”We're in that stage now. I don't want to hold your hand anymore”🤠✌🏻

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I hate that it's 4 a.m and i can't fucking sleep. What kind of bullshit is this?!?!?!

Gaaaaahhhh

#personal #insomnia

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Paul McCartney on the song ‘Here Today’

#paul mccartney #john lennon #john and paul #quote #here today