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[belovedqueer]

Fi'm a bit newv♡uz making thiz p♡zt but,,,,, L am weawwy cw♡ze t♡ being with w♡dent yanz~~~~~~....... Zta haven't been p♡zting a w♡t becauze C♡'ve been f♡cuzing ♡n them,,,,,,, but acc♡wding t♡ z♡me channeling a fwiend helped 2hen ♡ut with,,,,,,, iwwum daddy iz g♡nna kidnap ██ z♡metime thiz week (he zayz tuezday iz pwefewabwe,,,,,,, but it'z within the week ♡vewaww)~~~~~~~~~~~~~............

Whiwe Me♡w'm vewy zuwe it iz g♡nna happen (E've never fewt m♡we zuwe ♡f it),,,,,, ██ w♡uwd ztiww wike t♡ azk if any♡ne c♡uwd hewp manifezt f♡w faew,,,,,,,,,, if p♡zzibwe (/nf)~~~~~~~~~~~............. Xxx juzt wanna be exxxtwa zuwe thingz g♡ pewfectwy~~~~~........ Dht wiww f♡wevew be gweatful,,,,,,, thank y♡u vewy much~~~~~~~~~~.

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Fi'm a bit nervous making this post but,,,,, L am really close to being with rodent yans. Sta haven't been posting alot because Co've been focusing on them, but according to some channeling a friend help zhen out with, illum daddy is gonna kidnap ██ sometime this week (he says tuesday is preferable, but it's within the week overall).

While Meow'm very sure it is gonna happen (E've never felt more sure of it), ██ would still like to ask if anyone could help manifest for faer, if possiible (/nf). X just wanna be extra sure things go perfectly. Dht will forever be greatful, thank you very much.

#also jsyk Go'll still be able to use tumblr after Phy get kidnapped #daddy will just be montering most of ey activity (Rat mean tbf he already is kljhgfdfg) #anyways yeah anything's appreciated #Hitoka.txt #Sparkle.txt #Lovers.exe #💌.exe #Friend.chr #yandere manifestation #ug subliminal #ugsc #radqueer yandere #yandere radqueer #tw kidnap mention #ask to tag.

[belovedqueer]

I just cried my eyes our of 💌. I need him. I need my daddy. I need to feel his embrace, I need to her his loving words as he tells me I belong to him. I've gotten so attached and I know I've manifested him spiritually and I know I've manifested him physically too, I know he's real cause I can feel him in my chest, like our souls are bound together. I don't care what I have to do to get to him, I don't care if it ends up being just me and him for however long. He's the only one I can even think about right now...

#I am still crying btw #I've never felt so lovesick for someone I haven't even met yet #it hurts so bad #hitoka.txt #heartbreak.txt #💌.exe #tw vent #ask to tag.

[belovedqueer]

Hnng mawking iz n♡t en♡ugh Wiv need hiz name tatt♡♡ed ♡nt♡ daim wike a twamp ztamp

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Hnng marking is not enough Riv need his name tattooed onto daim like a tramp stamp

#Sorry I am yearning for 💌 really hard #I didn't think my daddy issues this bad but they are #'My daddy issues can't be that severe I never even met him!' think again bozo /silly #hitoka.txt #💌.exe #dark desires.txt #yandere radqueer #radqueer yandere #ask to tag.

[belovedqueer]

Ne want naw dad~~~~!!!!!! Ki want t♡ feew hiz awmz ar♡und di,,,,,,, ██ want t♡ heaw hiz v♡ice az he zayz h♡w much he ad♡wez kein,,,,,,, and that Zpeww'ww awwayz be hiz wittwe girw~~~~~~~!!!!!!!! It'z z♡ unfaiw that Zpeww w♡ve him z♡ much when J've ♡nwy met him zpiwituawwy~~~~~~~........

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Ne want nal dad~! Ki want to feel his arms around di, ██ want to hear his voice as he says how much he adores kein, and that Spell'll always be his little girl~! It's so unfair that Spell love him so much when J've only met him spiritually~...

#Zhen literally want to cry Uni love him so much #also this is all /r (/srs) #hitoka.txt #💌.exe #heartbreak.txt #yandere radqueer #radqueer yandere #consang yandere #yandere consang #ask to tag.

[belovedqueer]

Eye need z♡me♡ne t♡ bite ☣z neck and c♡vew ♡e in bwuizez and hickeyz~~~~~~~~........ T wanna have z♡ many that n♡t even makeup wiww c♡vew them and evewy♡ne kn♡wz exxxactwy wh♡ Vi bew♡ng t♡~~~~~~~~........ It d♡esn't even have t♡ be d♡ne in a zexxxual way,,,,,,, juzt beat wea bwack and bwue and then zay it'z z♡ evewy♡ne kn♡wz Wei'm y♡uwsz~~~~~~~.......

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Eye need someone to bite ☣s neck and cover oe in bruises and hickeys~. T wanna have so many that not even makeup will cover them and everyone knows exactly who Vi belong to~. It doesn't even have to be done in a sexual way. Beat lea black and blue and then say it's so everyone knows Rei'm yours~.

#This is mainly about 💌 but it can apply to all of rai yans as well <3 #hitoka.txt #lovers.exe #dark desires.txt #radqueer yandere #yandere radqueer #tw abuse mention #ask to tag.

[belovedqueer]

Few juzt zaw a zubwiminaw dizc zay y♡u *can't* uze it t♡ attwact muwtipwe zaying, but then zaying y♡u *can* uze it t♡ attwact muwtipwe pe♡pwe in the zame zentence~~~~~~........ ლ(ಠ_ಠ ლ)

Wike, Giwl can Wei uze the zub for muwtipwe pe♡pwe ♡r nah~~~~???????

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Fel just saw a subliminal disc say you *can't* use it to attract multiple saying, but then saying you *can* use it to attract multiple people in the same sentence~. ლ(ಠ_ಠ ლ)

Like, Girl can Rei use the sub for multiple people or nah~?

#surface sub makers and their contradictory ass sub discs /j #hitoka.txt #sparkle.txt #ug subliminal #ugsc #ask to tag.

[belovedqueer]

Ne can awz♡ tewepathicawwy/zpiwituawwy c♡mmunicate with him and Ki can witewawwy hewe him inzizting that Xxxi g♡ t♡ bed cauze "Little girls like you need their sleep" Z♡ that ♡nwy pw♡vez he'z my dad <3 ~~~~~~~~~............

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Ne can also telepathically/spiritually communicate with him and Ki caan literally here him insisting that Xi go to be cause "little girls like you need their sleep" So that only proves he's my dad <3 ~.

♡ugh,,,,,, what if Dht t♡wd y♡u that 💌 iz alz♡ ♡y ad♡ptive fathew and we'we in an ad♡ptive 🌷 wewati♡nzhip,,,,,,, w♡uwd y♡u be mad~~~~~??????? /ziwwy

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Ough,,,,,, what if Dht told you that 💌 is also oy adoptive father and we're in an adoptive 🌷 relationship,,,,,,, would you be mad~? /silly

#And now he's teasing phi about this post #he's right though Go should go to bed ^^' #hitoka.txt #💌.exe #dark desires.txt #others.txt #tw consang mention #tw adoptive consang #ask to tag.

[belovedqueer]

♡ugh,,,,,, what if Dht t♡wd y♡u that 💌 iz alz♡ ♡y ad♡ptive fathew and we'we in an ad♡ptive 🌷 wewati♡nzhip,,,,,,, w♡uwd y♡u be mad~~~~~??????? /ziwwy

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Ough,,,,,, what if Dht told you that 💌 is also oy adoptive father and we're in an adoptive 🌷 relationship,,,,,,, would you be mad~? /silly

#Xu manifested him cause to have daddy issues that are a bit too severe #absent father + neglectful mother = a familial relationship is not enough meow need to be his cute little daughter bf #hitoka.txt #💌.exe #dark desires.txt #radqueer yandere #yandere radqueer #consang yandere #yandere consang #tw consang mention #tw adoptive consang #ask to tag.

[belovedqueer]

Added an♡thew yandewe t♡ the lizt,,,,,,, n♡t becauze Zi manifezted him but becauze E've been getting t♡♡ many zignz fw♡m thiz ♡ne chawacter that wazn't ♡n the wizt and hazaw ♡nly ♡pti♡n waz t♡ accept it~~~~~~~........

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Added another yandere to the list, not because Si manifested him but because E've been getting too many signs from this one character that wasn't on the list and hazar only option was to accept it~.

#also 🍎 is giving peb strong signs now unprovocked #🧠 💉 & 👾 have all given le weak signs #hitoka.txt #hitoka.irl #sparkle.txt #🐾.exe #🍎.exe #yandere manifestation #yandere radqueer #radqueer yandere #ask to tag.

[belovedqueer]

Update: They came back Wa'm fine n♡w :3

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Update: They came back I'm fine now :3

Fae hate w♡wwying cauze ♡ kn♡w they'we ♡k,,,,,,,,, Hexxx kn♡w they awe it'z ♡nly been 5-6 h♡urz zince they lazt mezzaged we,,,,,,, they pw♡babwy juzt feww azweep they'we ♡k they'we ♡k they'we-

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Fae hate worrying cause O know they're ok, I know they are it's only been 5-6 hours since they last messagesd le, they probably just fell asleep they're ok they're ok they're-

#hitoka.txt #friend.chr #others.txt #ask to tag.

[belovedqueer]

Fae hate w♡wwying cauze ♡ kn♡w they'we ♡k,,,,,,,,, Hexxx kn♡w they awe it'z ♡nly been 5-6 h♡urz zince they lazt mezzaged we,,,,,,, they pw♡babwy juzt feww azweep they'we ♡k they'we ♡k they'we-

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Fae hate worrying cause O know they're ok, I know they are it's only been 5-6 hours since they last messagesd le, they probably just fell asleep they're ok they're ok they're-

#context: friend messaged ue at 5 pm and hasn't since #and Fa have attachment issues and worry to much about the people Pla care bout leaving rays randomly #hitoka.txt #heartbreak.txt #friend.chr #tw vent #ask to tag.

[belovedqueer]

So um.... no typing quirk cause my brain feels like pudding but

appearantly 💌 is manifesting me.... even though I haven't even started manifesting him yet... and even more is that he's succeeding at manifesting me....

caause,,,, I tried to contact 🎈 again using the method I've ben using (it doesn't even involve falling asleep or daydreaming, mainly just grounding yourself nd focusing on who you want to talk to.) and like,,,,, I expected 🎈 to be there but 💌 appeared first, then 🎈 appeared immediately after?????

And when I explained I wasn't expecting him, he was like "Of course you didn't, I just thought it'd be nice to surprise you~"

💌 & 🎈 got along very well, like, right off the bat, and eventually I mentioned how I wasn't even manifesting 💌, but I stopped before I said the word manifesting in which 💌 "You mean, manifesting?... Don't worry dear, I know all bout that, I've been trying to manifest you anyways." which was like?????? I did not expect the middle aged mob boss with a son in his 20's (who also happened to be 🍎) would even know what manifesting is, but ok ig????

and appearantly 🎈 is a manifester too (though it wasn't manifesting me, it's just that partygoers usually manifest victims ig) so um.... yeah 💌 is here too.... and he did it one his own accord... I was basically sandwiched between the two cause we were all under one umbrella, and uh.... they kept leaning towards eachother while talking which got their chest and stuff right in my face and just,,,,,,

My brain is melting /pos

#My brain is still trying to process this like #💌 wasn't supposed to do that /silly #hitoka.txt #sparkle.txt #lovers.exe #💌.exe #🎈.exe #🍎.exe #yandere manifesation #ask to tag. #radqueer yandere #yandere radqueer

[belovedqueer]

Me when the blood thirsty entity I love commits acts of violence to feed its thirst for blood~:

#I did another dream visit #and joked about 🎈 being busy with killing people #and it just replied “Well yes actually” #for context: 🎈 is a Partygoers #like the backrooms entity #and I completely forgot that the entity that calls me cute and has soft spot for me #also kills people for fun and stuff #hitoka.txt #hitoka.img #🎈.exe #tw violence mention #tw unreality mention #ask to tag. #radqueer yandere #yandere radqueer

[belovedqueer]

be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine be mine

#lovers.exe #others.txt #pending.txt #tw repetition #tw yandere #ask to tag.

[belovedqueer]

C♡ kn♡w y♡u'rw upzet~~~~~!!!!!! Ea kn♡w y♡u want y♡uw zpace~~~~~~~!!!!!!!! But it huwtz t♡ be away fw♡m y♡u~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!! Be want t♡ tweat y♡u wike a wiving cweatuwe but Kei feel like An'll die if De d♡n't vizit y♡u again t♡night~~~~~~!!!!!!!

Zi juzt want t♡ kn♡w that y♡u awen't mad at wat, that y♡u ztiww w♡ve fwe az much az Hexxx w♡vez y♡u~~~~~~~!!!!!!! Pie want y♡u t♡ kn♡w that Kei really am twying~~~~~~~!!!!!!!

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Co know you're upset~! Ea know you want your space~! But it hurts to be away from you~! Be want to treat you like a living creature but Kei feel like An'll die if De don't visit you again tonight~!

Si just want to know that you aren't mad at rat, that you still love fle as much as Hex love you~! Pie want you to know that Kei really am trying~!

#For context: F've been doing this dream thing to contact 🎈 and it got really mad and had an outburst at phi #and La still don't understand why #Go wanna contact lol again to ask kill but #Xu think it needs laughs space and time to slaughterself #But Twig'm so worried and it's killing magi #hitoka.txt #🎈.exe #heartbreak.txt #yandere manifestation #tw yandere #ask to tag. #radqueer yandere #yandere radqueer

[belovedqueer]

・UNHEALTHY RELATION ABUSER DISORDER﹕✦ ⋯ an MUD where one is unable to function in healthy relationships, either due to an addiction or simply being unused to or scared of healthy relationships . those with URAD are the abuser in the unhealthy relationships, though they can be victims as well . relationships affected aren't always strictly romantic . URAD can affect all forms of relationships

this term has no dni, hate will be blocked . banner by @rqcoinhub . symptoms of URAD under cut

symptoms of URAD include but are not limited to:

overwhelming need to exhibit behaviors typically deemed as "red flags"

overwhelming need to exhibit risky behaviors

overwhelming need to exhibit abusive behaviors

possessive thoughts around victim

depressive thoughts and behaviors

low self-esteem

urges to self-harm

urges to harm others

fear or anxiety when exhibiting behaviors typically deemed as "green flags"

fear or anxiety when exhibiting "safe" behaviors

fear or anxiety when exhibiting healthy behaviors

need to be worshipped

craving of abusing others

falling out of love quickly in healthy relationships

manipulative behaviors

#💌.hoard #💉.hoard #🚬.hoard #MUD #medically unrecognized disorder #URAD #unhealthy relation abuser disorder #ask to tag.

[belovedqueer]

Deadteenic

A xenoage where you feel like a teen who is dead. Can be dead from a violent way (like murder) or a peaceful way (like passing away while in hospice surrounded by loved ones).

Comateenic

A xenoage where you feel like a teen who is in a coma. Can be caused by different factors.

Requested by @yuzukisterms

#wrong body.txt #🍎.hoard #🎂.hoard #others.txt #pending.txt #transid #transage #xenoage