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Saw this while listening to the same song 14 times

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Shout out to the NYPD who yelled at me for skipping the fare and did nothing when my 12 year old sister got robbed in the station

#pigs #eric adams #nyc #nypd

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Do I have a right to be pissed at this text my dad sent me ?

(My name), I seldom feel 100%. I take antidepressants and they help but do not solve the problem. It isn’t pretty.

The daily question is what we do when we don’t feel 100%.

Do we stay in, dig deep, and try and fight? Or do we put up the white flag and feel sorry for ourselves, which is always tempting.

Please think about this.

For context, I've been sick the past week, I took one day off from school. I was vomiting and sleeping the entire day. ( I also have depression anxiety and adhd, my meds haven't been working that well). He's really just been annoyed abt the whole thing and this is the first he's mentioned of it.

#strict parents #aita #dad issues #teen shit

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I see no point to living which usually doesn't bother me but it's hitting different rn

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Low key a little suicidal rn

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Mean girls, i love you. Renee the woman you are. SNOW HARD FEELING NY NIGHT 11111 BABBYY

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Kinda just need to vent. My home life is kind of shit. My parents blow up and you can never tell when they will but it always feels like it's your fault. I never feel safe with them. Today CPS came for a visit, my ceiling has a hole in it which My parents haven't fixed in the past 2.5 years. We are upper middle class and can afford it they just don't have time. Our house is old and it is likely there is both asbestos and lead in the ceiling and it is now in my room. I've lived there for the past 2.5 years and until last month there has been no effort to move me or fix the hole despite them knowing the dangers. Everytime I ask them about they yell at me and essentially call me ungrateful. They are very busy and work 10+ hour work days but this is important to my health, it is not my fault, and I've asked very respectfully understandingly and politely. In the past 2.5 years I have only made two step forward, all within the last month. I've been moved to a different room and my parents now tell me about the efforts they are making to fix the hole (which they only started in genuine a month ago). Everything in our house is broken and they make no effort to fix it. They blame it on us for being careless and clumsy, but it is a house with 2 teenagers and a tween. All depressed and 2 with diagnosed adhd. They scream at us if we forget somethings as simplenas doing the dishes, they've called us names, they cuss us out, they bring in our hopes dreams and passions, things we told them when things were in a good place and turn them against us to use them as a put down. It's been like this for as long as I can remember but it's gotten worse in recent years as they have gotten more stressed. They don't realize what they are doing and I genuinely don't think they believe anything is wrong. But it's gotten to the point that my little sister has noticed. When they found out about CPS they weren't angry but they were stressed and I think they handled it all wrong. They told us we couldn't tell anyone about it, which sucks because the whole ordeal was incredibly stressful, though we knew we probably wouldn't be taken we still couldn't count on it and we needed the support from our friends (shout out to my bsf who I told anyway they're the only reason this is only a tiny bit less shit). They also told us not to be dramatic while talking to the social worker, like they knew something was wrong but thought it was our fault which fuckings sucks. They also told us that we needed to clean up so they didn't look like neglectful parents. Which is complete bullshit. Bc yeah they look like neglectful parents, they are neglectful parents, this is what neglectful parenting looks like. I had my CPS interview today (I went out to see a movie so I had missed the social worker) the entire way back home I was stressing and deciding whether or not to lie to them. On one hand there was that I love my siblings and CPS fucking sucks and I don't trust the government, but lying feels like giving my parents a pass for all the shit they do, it feels like saying their shitty treatment of me and my siblings is okay, because I'm "choosing it". I don't know what I was going to do, but I think lying would've been the bigger thing to do, not letting my petty rage get in the way or what not. But when I called the social worker she didn't ask me any questions, she just wanted to tick a box, she just needed to see my face. And in some ways I think that's worse, bc she didn't give a shit, she was supposed to and she didn't, and I twisted myself into knots just for her to do the bare minimum. Now I just feel like I'm not worth it and I'm making it all up. That is not that bad and I'm being dramatic. That I don't deserve that help. And honestly I don't know how true that is. But I just feel like shit

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Fuck allergies, love persists bitch.

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It's not, we good

Someone fucking called CPS and I'm really scared that it's my fault

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Someone fucking called CPS and I'm really scared that it's my fault

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I'm gay but I didn't want my family to talk about it or make a big deal out of it but I did want them to know. So I came out to them individually and stressed the importance of not telling anyone else. It's been months, and I am thriving.

#gay #haha #coming out #teen stuff #i am not examining my family dynamics at this time thank you

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I JUST GOT A BINDER

#gay #sapphic #transgender #my sister is on twitter but this is the next best thing

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I unironically have a pipe in my bag rn

what's in your pocket? there's definitely rocks in mine

#girlhood

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It's gayer

I think I like GenV better than The Boys idk what it is

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I thought the cat was a wig

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Yes, and Emma having no qualms whatsoever with asking very personal questions makes them bond fast

I really want Jordan and Emma to be best friends that's a duo i need in my life