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[aymayjean]

A Love Letter In IPA

Dear David

I love you so much.  You mean everything to me.  I love you with all of my hart.  I would do anything for you.  I love you baby.  You are my everything.  I can't wait for you to be here.  Every day is one day closer to you.  

Love always Amy

#love letter #IPA

[aymayjean]

#puglove cuties (Taken with Instagram)

#puglove

[aymayjean]

Check out this cutie #Mickey #cockerspaniel #newpet (Taken with Instagram at Long Island- Floral Park)

#mickey #cockerspaniel #newpet

[aymayjean]

Two things I've learned about the world while traveling to David's: 1) NJ is always cloudy. The sun never shines there. It's very depressing 2) People outside of NY don't find unattended bags alarming. Last week a bag was unattended in the Harrisburg Amtrak station so I watched it for 5 minutes and when no one came for it I Said Something. Amtrak police just come and pick it up and bring it to the lost and found. And all I could think was "If that was a bomb I was so in the blast radius."

#travel rant

[aymayjean]

ME: Hi, how are you today?

CUSTOMER: mumble mumble coffee.

ME:............ what size was that sir/miss?

CUSTOMER: coffee.

ME: ::grande it is bitch::

#baristaproblems

[aymayjean]

Tired

.... Of my life.

1) My job: Starbucks has drained me.  I put my all into that place because I am proud of my work and I try to do the best that I can, not for praise or pay but pride.  I hate leaving there without everything being in place, but I am tired of going above an beyond and getting nothing back from my so-called peers who can't be bothered putting in half an effort into their work.

2) School: Queens College is a shit hole.  Although I enjoy my field I don;t want to be HERE anymore.  I wanna do something more with my life.  I'm tired of being an undergrad.  I have senoiritis and I still have another semester to go.  Fall 2012 is going to be dreadful.

3) New York: I love NY but I wanna see more.  I wanna experience life outside of this city.  I wanna get out of my bubble and most importantly I wanna get out of my parents house.  I already feel like I've been there for too long.  All of my family members around my age moved out at 18 for college.  I am the only one that stayed home and I feel like I've overstayed my welcome.

#personal #my life is overrated

[aymayjean]

It's ok, don't show up on time

Sitting in the caf on campus for 30 minutes now waiting for may partner to get here.

#who goes to school when there's no classes?

[aymayjean]

How is The Cove anything like It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia?

#how netflix? #is this some sort of joke

[aymayjean]

When your mom tells you she has to call your douchebag of an ex because she lost the letter that renewed the house insurance

#fml

[aymayjean]

I forgotten about you guys.

MY BAD I've been a little busy having an amazing life that I forgot about the internet. (I know, crazy).  I blame this guy:

But he has family things he has to deal with and I've been seeing less of him and it made me realize I've been ignoring the one thing that has always been there for me: tumblr.

#thanks for being there #im sorry i let a guy come between us

[aymayjean]

I'm so awesome that sometimes I wish I was someone else just so I could hang out with me

#.... oh wait #BFF #i wish we were us #i hope alex sees this

[aymayjean]

studying is so boring cries a million tears

#word #sobbing over my computer

[aymayjean]

When you realize that your favorite Skins (UK) character is in Game of Thrones

*my coworker thinks I'm crazy cuz I screamed "CHRIS!!!" when he came on the screen

#ily chris #best moment of my life

[aymayjean]

Ever think...

that it's gonna take you forever to get ready, so you start extra early but half way through you realize you're almost done?

WHAT SHOULD YOU DO??

Answer: waste so much time on tumblr that you are now running late

#he now thinks it takes me 2 hours to get dressed #my bfs waiting for me #yet im still on tumblr

[aymayjean]

yay, passive aggressiveness, A Response

I'm glad you saw that and took down all that shit about cutting.

I see now that you really were just doing it for attention

that is all.

[aymayjean]

Jamie: You have to promise you won’t fall in love with me. Landon: That’s not a problem.

[aymayjean]

Yay, passive aggressiveness

I'm done and you need some serious help, my friend. *I say my friend but its getting to be too much that I don't even want to call you a friend.

I can be passive aggressive about how I feel too.  I get it you were in love with me (don't know why) but we never dated, I never lead you to think that I had any sort of feelings for you at all, hell, for what its worth I've been an amazing fucking friend to you.

It's been almost three months since I "broke your heart" by carefully tip-toeing around your feelings and letting you down in the nicest way possible.  I've had relationship, actual boyfriend-girlfriend relationships, that I've gotten over faster.

I understand that you were upset.  Anyone would be by being turned down.  But enough is enough already.  And now you're cutting to relieve the pain? Are you kidding me? Stop searching for attention to make yourself feel wanted.  You have friends that care about you.  If you didn't have friends that care about you and your delicate feelings so much, I would have told you so much sooner about me and David and I wouldn't have waited until it was a good time for you.

*If you are cutting because you're depressed and you want to die, then do everyone a favor, get the FUCK OFF TUMBLR and see someone.  You shouldn't give a shit about what people say, you should get yourself healthy.

DONE

#cutting is not ok #thats all I have to say to you anymore