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they weren't lying when they said being hyperfixated on ocs is a special type of hell

#pineapple rambles #its even worse when you cant draw. #“like these are my ocs. unfortunately it would take a 50 page doc to explain their deals and half my thoughts of them are animatics #and jokes that cant be recreated in a textual way“ #i have not been invested in an actual fandom for a year now. im actually going to off myself

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look back pv got me reminiscing again. the inherent and juvenile desire for recognition and acknowledgment. a need to chase after the praise you once received for your work after finding someone who seems inherently better then you - and then finding recognition and acknowledgment through them instead. you grow out of it, but you treasure it.

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google too. it's not funny

sometimes i get home and everything is like "maybe today". but then i remember the stuff ive said about naberius tern and realise that i can't die with that forever etched into discord's database

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sometimes i get home and everything is like "maybe today". but then i remember the stuff ive said about naberius tern and realise that i can't die with that forever etched into discord's database

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i think it's time i die.

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i got caught up in the cannibalism metaphors again. not only in the romantic sense of wanting to become whole with something, but as it is; consumption for the sake of consumption, for the sake of the macrabe. there's a thought here that to be eaten is an intimate thing; stripping flesh from flesh, cooking the organs, becoming one with someone through and through.

but also - also - is it really love if it's not a mutual meal? i'm sure there's something to be said about eating and stripping someone of their self in order to satiate your hunger. you will not feed them; you will take from them whatever it is you desire. and they will offer it you; their heart, their liver, their intestines. you chew it up and spit it out. you got what you desired, after all.

there is something else about loving someone so much you want to kill them, because it's the only way you can heal with that lovesickness. but it's more intimate, i'm sure, to literally attach a part of them to you - not by consuming a part of them, but by literally stitching parts of you together.

ahhh. i saw a really good doomed ship concept of a guy stealing another guy's eye to put into his socket. that's a real metaphor for wanting to become a part of someone. i want to use that idea too. ah, ah... maybe that's a better literal way of putting it... authors learn and pick up different concepts and sorts of prose from different authors... by taking that concept, i'd be stripping a piece of flesh off of the original author... ah, ahh...

#vent #pineapple rambles #i. dont know what to tw this with. uh.

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Pro Palestine protest is taking place in Los Angeles on Sunset Boulevard in Hollywood, as the Oscars 2024 kicks off

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Rich Siegel, Jewish resident of Teaneck, NJ, at Township Council meeting

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The Red Lines Policy

Israel controls all food that enters the Gaza Strip. In 2007, Israeli authorities mandated that Palestinians in Gaza should receive only the minimum of food to avoid malnutrition, featuring 37% fewer fruits and veggies than the average Israeli. Though Israel claims to have ended this policy, as of 2017, 40% of Gaza’s households suffered from severe food insecurity, largely as a result of Israel’s blockade.

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Gaza and trauma.

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#I hope they feel like Italian today

#in some timezones im on time reblogging this

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back to back with the fnaf trailers.... so when's the fazbear cinematic universe announcement scott

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Dancing Together, Walking Home & Secret

#witch hat atelier

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thot that was gonna go in a different direction

#pokemon #to those that came before us ; isshushipping #black and white

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Fellas, is it gay to leave your entire life behind to search for a guy who is your proclaimed other half and make everyone think you’re dead for 2+ years because you didn’t return home and after living on an artificial island for over a year you and your friends get kidnapped as blackmail because your kidnappers know how much you mean to said guy and then said guy saves you and after he saves you the two of you have a heart-to-heart on the beach where you make him promise to not leave you again 

#pokemon #to those that came before us ; isshushipping #black and white

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about a solid month late to posting this but better late than never and yes while I have my severe disdain toward PoMas this event was unironically great

#pokemon #to those that came before us ; isshushipping

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haha game theory

#pokemon #black and white #legends arceus