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[atlaseli]

i have SO much going on right now i will literally be so proud of myself in like 6 months when i look back and realize how brave i was for making it through all this

[atlaseli]

girls be like “i don’t know what to do with my life”just to go ahead and top their class, finish 5 novels in a week and memorise the lyrics of every taylor swift song

#ALJSUHIGFYHBJASIOHDFUI #this is personal

[atlaseli]

if anyone wants to read my amelink fic and lmk if it’s any good ??? this is genuinely just. brain spam send me a dm if ur willing <3

[atlaseli]

#story 4 #posting these little bits is very much the only way i’m getting myself to write anything rn #sorry for the spam #but hope you enjoy #also feel free at any time to message me abt any of these would love to discuss story

[atlaseli]

#story 4 #? #I think #I keep getting ideas and not being able to finish them #or my brain just goes here’s a random snippet of a scene and I cant write anything around it #idk gonna. try and do something with this?

[atlaseli]

#story 3

[atlaseli]

#random fic I’ll never finish #I miss s17 amelink in the sense of just like. them being domestic dorks #and relating to them in the sense of being trapped in the house #idk i’m such a sucker for cute fluffy just like. silently supportive scenes so

[atlaseli]

#flowers <3 #gonna. try to make today a good day #although my sleep schedule has been completely fucked #gonna get starbucks and make my bed and then light a candle and read #yeah #i’m trying I really am #meeting with someone from my college later to discuss options #nervous

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#story 2 #life is just particularly crappy recently #and I dont quite know what im doing #and scared to make decisions #and feeling awfully alone which I know isn’t true? #but being out of school feels quite isolating especially knowing that everyone else is just going on #anyway #hoping to actually finish a fic and post it soon #im spending most of my time staring at the walls in my bedroom #everything just takes so much effort #anyway I hope you’ve had a good day if you’re reading this <3

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current state of bookshelves look i’m in the process of reorganizing

#more using this so I can rant #just had an appointment in which my mother spent the entire time talking over me #and still referring to me as she #even after we had a conversation abt how I prefer they/them pronouns #and she said she would try #but has not once used they/them pronouns for me #feeling exhausted and paranoid about getting behind at school #I think my brain is very much minimizing my trauma and telling me it’s not a big deal #I keep wondering why everyone is making such a big deal out of it #and I think I need to accept that it is serious #anyway I am very much just not vibing right now #hope you’re doing well if you’ve read this far

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#story 3 #i’m so. exhausted #if anyone would like to message and talk would be greatly appreciated #ive slept for nearly 18 hours in the past day I cant sleep anymore #but I just feel like shit #could use a distraction

[atlaseli]

holy fuck I just posted that feeling incredibly unhinged rn

[atlaseli]

god i’m gonna cry he means the absolute world to me I wish we weren’t 2,613 miles apart I miss him so much this literally means so much I did cry when I saw this? why did you have to go to california this isn’t fair I miss you so much so much :(

[atlaseli]

#this fic is so fucking self indulgent at this point #dont even think its healthy #probably will never post the whole thing but #thanks for the prompt amanda <3 #although it is no longer bookstore related very much has just #yeah #bookstore fic

[atlaseli]

#okay gonna start tagging these #story 3

[atlaseli]

#story 3

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#story 3