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Hufflepuff: I always carry a lighter with me.

Hufflepuff: I don’t smoke, but you may be somewhere and you’ll need to light a candle!

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When life knocks me down, I usually take a nap.

Slytherin

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honestly there’s a world of difference between experiencing oppression for a gender you identify as and experiencing oppression for one that you dont

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fucking english amirite

yall english class is so fuckng stupid. like all these analyses and papers that the teacher is commenting i get sidetracked and cant do properly, but then he doesntbother to explain what i need to fix so i end up going to my parents and then they get annoyed im not learning this and go tell me to ask my teacher and then i do but he doesnt answer my damn question??? also what the fuck is up with the obscure instructions and having to elaborate in 3 pages or mmore why the author’s choosing to have the sky blue shows his clinical depression and how it affects themes of the book like goddamn tom calm your tits and teach us how to write or give us some creative writing to do

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there’s something really sexy about turning in your assignment a minute before it’s due

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higher further faster baby 💫

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This fandom is dead. (No pun intended.)

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Jam Buddies, Steven Universe

#steven universe #cover #ukulele #singing #rebecca sugar

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Hi!! I had the opportunity to collaborate with Klasse14! you can see the featured watch on my twitter post https://twitter.com/pluuey/status/1091248061400006656

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Every person has a certain amount of heartbeats. If they die unexpected with some left over, they can give them to others. You have used this to live beyond your lifetime

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Google you ain’t fucking slick

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So, does anyone want a gif of a perpetually-thoughtful dragon?

Nahhhh, just kidding. You have no say in the matter.

Everyone gets a perpetually-thoughtful dragon.

His endless pondering belongs on your feed, and he knows it.

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sorry not sorry (credits to @arianwen44 for the artwork)

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1/28/19

God why is everything so fucking exhausting

I can’t seem to stay awake no matter now much caffeine I drink or how much sleep I get, and I just want to be able to stay awake and learn and do decent in my classes but I’m fucking stalled in life, everything is continuing around me, if not faster than normal, and im here, all alone but not really alone? I cant even do homework anymore the slight drive I managed to keep from 8th grade until now has burnt out and I cant motivate myself to do the readings or the problems or whatever and im just drowning and cant stay happy, even though im doing things I love. Also like, my friends arent really friends anymore? More like “colleagues”, and everyone else is essentially a stranger.

God I miss Cole

Hes moved on to bigger and better things and probably better friends, we barely talk anymore and im too scared to start up a conversation because it always goes along the lines of:

Hey

Hey

Hru

Im fine, hbu

Uh im gucci lol

And then we stop talking for months on end.

Everything is just falling apart and I don’t know what to do. I cant tell my parents or family, it would be too awkward and they would give “advice” which is just stating the facts.

Recently I’ve been thinking about dying, but like always I come to the conclusion “no thats selfish, you’re a chicken anyway, what if Cole/finley/acey/Ryan needs you tomorrow???” So I dont do it

Tried to learn how to file a complaint to sr Adams today. That was a fun talk.

Maybe questioning my sexuality now? I mean, I dont FEEL anything romantic/sexual to others, but like, I talk about girls a lot and how I would like, tap that and shit like that??? Not sure anymore. Im gonna stick with my feeling over my mentality and thoughts tho… so still identifying as Ace/aro.

Learning ukulele is good, lots of fun, liana Flores is amazing at songwriting and honestly it would be so so SO cool if I could learn how to write decent songs/good chords for one. People say music is essentially poetry, but all of my poems would NOT work whatsoever with any tune or beat or whatever.

Also im really fucking pissed that I have such a shit memory for things that matter.  I can remember the entirety of heathers, BMC, the Hamilton and mean girls soundtrack, countless episodes of DW/Sherlock/Spn, numerous pages from PJO or HP, but cant seem to remember anything valuable for history class. So fucking annoying and stupid.

Guess its getting bad again, my completely undiagnosed, probably nonexistent depression and anxiety.

I hope mr petrocelli is recovering nicely. What a dude.

But yeah I feel like it’s getting bad again. Ive been feeling like im about to throw up for the past month or two, cant seem to feel anything positive for more than a couple minutes, and have been so fatigued that I cant focus on anything.

Fuck man, writing the truth down on here is kinda painful. Like this is probs the 3rd time ive cried while writing this, when ISHOULD be doing homework.

Membean can suck my nonexistent dick. SOOOOOO fucking stupid I hope that I wont have to do it next year because I KNOW most of the words but still get the questions wrong because im given synonyms or I forget how to spell it. Its also EVIDENT I know these words because I use them quite a bit, but NOOOOO I HAVE to do a fucking memorization thing.

I really wish that I could freeze time, because I feel like a damn mirror thats been shattered. The glass shards can still display the image, but it is hard to see. a single hit or amount of stress can cause the shards to collapse and become beyond repair.

Hm, is this like a diary now? This is so damn weird. Who knows 🤷‍♀️ if anyone reads this later on, what’s up lol. Think thats enough for now, sorry to waste your time complaining about some pretty minuscule things…

Shit that was so fucking pathetic, apologizing to someone who probably will never read this anyway. Anyway, hasta la taco, as Asha would say.

Do you think it would be possible to go to the health center and ask for a mental health day or something? I just. Cant do class tomorrow. Just thinking about HOMEWORK (and tomorrow lol) is enough to make me start crying, but the last time I went because of a mental breakdown they told me to stop running away from my problems and to grow up and face it because I wont be able to chicken out in the real world.

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ATTENTION/ATENCION

since essentially no one follows this, imma just make it a vent thing because damn, confessing problems to strangers seems less annoying sksksk

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Another tidbit from the podcast I found… very interesting:

MK: Pearl has her jacket and I’ve seen a lot of people talking like… is that a reference to Bad Pearl from Last One Out of Beach City?

RS: Yeah, that’s part of her independence. The jeans, too, she sort of subtly has those jeans. And this is something… I mean she’s been very different lately. She’s been playing the field. She’s been exploring who she is, and all of that I think really got kickstarted in that episode so it’s very important to her.

I’m sorry, what, you’re saying we’ve been missing out on Pearl’s Spectacular Lesbian Adventures all this time? I have never before in my entire life been so against the Steven POV only rule oh my god can I have an entire spinoff.

So I’m assuming that also explains how we got from this:

to this:

Pearl’s been busy.

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either i REALLY cant count, or it broke