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very normal yakuza 4

#rgg #omg i love this

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we DO grow old and happy. btw.

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They interrupted a beautiful dream but with joy...

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why small kittens are always either the most pathetic or the most evil creature you've ever seen

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girlhood is touching your necklace whenever you feel nervous

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Cuz, Con and Samba meeting! :) (Guz was doing a show and the other two visited :) <3)

#ofmd #hashtag giants

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Detective, each of us has our part to play in the world 🪩

#disco #oh wow!!

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i'm 10 minutes into watching star trek ii: the wrath of khan

& bones got kirk some reading glasses for his birthday kirk is like 50 years old or whatever & i was like "that's kind of a boring gift"

but spock gave kirk a real paper book so i was just realizing spock probably told bones he's getting kirk a book, bones realized kirk's goddamn midlife crisis won't allow him to buy himself a pair of reading glasses already at the age of like 50, so he gave him glasses just so he could actually enjoy the gift spock got for him

spock, mr logical emotionless vulcan, got kirk a really sweet sentimental gift but one that he'd probably just leave on a shelf if bones hadn't gotten the boring practical gift cuz it's a SET. THEY COMPLETE EACH OTHER.

ot3..........

#star trek #yeh q.q

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Which is your favorite of Izzy’s hairdos?

This one... He deserves to let loose, even just a little bit... I'm forever inconsolable that we didn't get this hairdo on him without putting him through unimaginable trauma first 😞

#ofmd #the wettest saddest dog #well not the wettest yet ig

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I see a lot of people joking about the adhd thing of "I have a appointment/phone call at 3pm, guess I won't do anything all day!"

But no one seems to make the connection that it's a time blindness thing. One of the symptoms of ADHD is not having a good and accurate sense of time. And not doing stuff prior to an event with a hard deadline is an obvious coping mechanism for that.

Can I go to the store? It's 10am and the appointment is at 3pm. How long does going to the store take? An hour? Three hours? Five hours? I DON'T KNOW!

I get anxious trying to do things before appointments because I'm aware that I don't know how long those things take, and that if I think I do, I may be very wrong. Too often I've been like "hey I can walk to the corner store and grab a drink, that'll take like 15 minutes!" and then an hour later I get back and whoops my rice has burnt.

Plus there's also the fact that ADHD people know that motivation and focus is a two-edged sword.

Like, let's say you decide to play a video game. You've got time, you can pause/save whenever, so this should be a perfect fit to make good use of your waiting-time. So you start playing and WHOOPS you get really focused for some reason today (because people with ADHD do not get to pick when their brain decides to focus) and the next time you look at the clock it's 2:49 and you haven't showered or dressed and the appointment is 30 minutes away. Fuck. (you could have set an alarm, but now you're asking people with the forgetting-things-and-time-ignoring condition to remember it set alarms)

And with motivation, it can be almost worse. Instead of playing a game, you so something useful or creative. You clean your room or fix your plumbing or write a story or draw a picture. And suddenly it's great. Your brain is firing on all cylinders. You've got all the motivation you can ask for, and you are FLYING. the ideas are brilliant, your hands are nimble, you're getting stuff done you've been putting off for weeks or months. And then the alarm goes off. Time to go to your appointment. Fuck.

You drive there, your brain still full of ideas and plans. But by the time you get back, the motivation is gone. You may still have the ideas but you don't have the drive to write them down. You can't force yourself to do it. Your sink is still in pieces. Your room is half-cleaned, and you have to shove all the sorted clothes into one big bin just so you have somewhere to sleep. You've left things half finished again, in a cycle that has been repeating your whole fucking life. It seems sometimes that nothing ever gets finished.

So next time you don't even start. There's not time. You've been burnt too many times. Why add another half-completed project to your pile of shame?

My point is that people seem to be going "lol I can't do anything all day if I have an appointment at 3pm" like this is a quirky "oh I'm so scatterbrained!" weirdness they alone have, and not a major complication of a disabling mental illness.

(and that's not even getting into the secondary effects. If you know that having an appointment ruins your whole damn day, you're going to avoid them. Even when it's things like "going to that party" or "meeting your friends for a drink/game" or "going to a movie with that cute girl from your math class". Things you should enjoy. Things that'd help you be social. Things that make you feel human.)

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A kitten at heart

#bg3 #inqu art <3 #right i forgot to rb it

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#bird #ahw

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Scarlet-rumped Trogon (Harpactes duvaucelii), male, family Trogonidae, found in SE Asia

photograph by ardpixtures

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