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TOMORROW IS HALLOWEEN!!!

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heyyyy, soooo, officially deciding that I can't really do this to myself anymore and need to give up tumblr

I won't delete my blog, so you can guys can still keep looking through all my old posts and stuff, but I'm logging off pretty much as soon as I post this and won't be logging on again. Sorry, but any asks in my askbox or messages to my dms are gonna be left unanswered.

Thank you guys for your support. Thanks for sticking by me, for liking my posts, for reblogging my au posts and making them way better than anything I could have ever came up with on my own. And in the words of Fall Out Boy, thanks for the memories!

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okay maybe i won't delete it bc it would be annoying to want to remind myself of au posts and not be able to find it again, but like. i def need to log off and just. not come back.

yeah so sorry, think i might delete my acc after all

#i could export my blog but i don't want the whole blog. just my au posts.

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yeah so sorry, think i might delete my acc after all

#i just. can't. so.

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i think i might be aplatonic. or mentally ill. not sure.

so i like. don't know what's wrong with me anymore.

it's not that i don't WANT friends. i watch media romanticizing found family and the power of friendship all the time, since forever. i long to have what those characters have.

but i just... i don't seem capable of making/maintaining/appreciating friendships.

i feel incapable of viewing people as friends rather than someone playing the role of friend and as such giving me all kinds of friendship benefits

every second of every day, I feel unappreciated, undervalued, and unlistened to, and I take it out on people and punish them for it in all kinds of little ways

i know it's wrong. i feel guilty for it, at least a little bit. i still do it anyway. even when I stop myself, the urge is still there

i take every little thing that the people around me do and spin it in my head so I think they hate me, they don't care about me, they're clearly not listening to me or valuing anything I have to offer

i don't know enough aplatonicism to know if these are signs of it. i thought at first that it was just elements of my lovelessness shining through, but lovelessness doesn't explain this at all

#aplatonic #? maybe???? #or at least someone who is aplatonic can read this and let me know whether or not this even sounds #remotely close to aplatonicism #or if i'm on the wrong track entirely #i just. don't know what's wrong with me and I'm so sick of it #i'm so sick of feeling like this #NOT that i'm saying there's something wrong with aplatonic people! i don't mean that at all #i'm just frustrated with myself #aplatonic people are cool as fuck and deserve all the validation and support ever ever ever

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i need to redraw jeremy

#I changed their design a lot from my first drawing

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grab&go evan after he runs away not knowing if "Evan" is his actual name or just another lie Mike told him

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Raising to u the idea of avian Garrett trying to put orange paint on his wings to match his plane, and his parents and/or Mike immediately panicking that he'll hurt himself (plug up his oil glands, damage his feathers, injest paint, etc etc) and helping him get all the paint off when Garrett realizes having all that paint on his wings is super uncomfortable

WHY IE RHIS SO CUTE‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

WAAAUGUAGAUHAUAGAUAGAAAUGGGAUHAUHWUAGWUAGAUGA

#:)

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Avian au where william kills kids to keep their wings as trophies. He keeps them for a bit though, and he kidnaps Garrett, but Evan ends up accidentally stumbles upon Garrett and befriends Garry in secret while trying to understand what is happening and why Garrett is being kept there by his father

#evan being extra scared of his father as he tries to figure out what's going on. he's trying to hide how scared he is but isn't doing #a very good job #also ev and garry should run away together #Feathered friends au

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Round Two: New Who Companions

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grab&go Mike Afton fucking hating Mike Smith for the way he raised Evan, but like. As much as Mike Afton wants to cut Mike Smith out of his and Evan's lives entirely... Mike Afton has spent years grieving his little brother after Evan went missing, spent years wondering what Evan would have been like as he grew up, how Ev would have felt turning 13 and being a teen for the first time, etc etc.

And thanks to the fucked up time travel mess that happened, Mike Afton does get to watch Evan grow up now, but there's so many years of Evan's that he missed.

And the only access Mike Afton has to those years he missed is Mike Smith.

Mike Smith is the one with pictures of Evan as a seven-year-old, or a nine-year-old, or a twelve-year-old-- all those ages that Mike Afton missed.

Mike Smith is the one with pictures of Evan's birthday parties, of all those christmases, all the smiling pictures of little Evan in pillow forts, all the hidden and sneakily taken pictures of little Evan looking so adorable napping with his plushie, all those memories that Mike Afton never got to have no matter how much he longed for.

Mike Smith is the one with all of Evan's old toys, the toys Mike Afton never got to know.

Mike Afton hates his alternate counterpart for what he did. But this alternate counterpart is also the only connection he has to the memories Evan doesn't trust himself to remember or say out loud.

#grab&go au

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2 days until the party

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Avian au where william kills kids to keep their wings as trophies. He keeps them for a bit though, and he kidnaps Garrett, but Evan ends up accidentally stumbles upon Garrett and befriends Garry in secret while trying to understand what is happening and why Garrett is being kept there by his father

#tw kidnapping #avian au #Feathered friends au #garrett schmidt #evan afton #fnaf au

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Are you trapped on tumblr right now?

Is there something you planned to do before you got trapped in the endless tumblr scroll?

Are you yelling at yourself to get up and do the thing, but you can’t, because you’re trapped in the endless tumblr scroll?

Consider this your save point.

Put tumblr down, stand up, stretch, and go do the thing you planned to do. Future you will be incredibly grateful.

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Fic about young adult michael accidentally time travelling, accidentally kidnapping his younger brother, and doing the most questionable job ever raising him

#michael afton #mike afton #evan afton #tw child abuse #fnaf #fnaf au #the afton family #fnaf fic

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Title: What's in a Name?

Fandom: The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim

Rating: T

Tags: Dovahkiin | Dragonborn, Arngeir (Elder Scrolls), Existential Crisis, Character Study, Dialogue Heavy

Wordcount: 1,000

Summary: After his encounter with Alduin at the Time Wound, the Dragonborn has an existential crisis.

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Do'Zah was silent as he entered High Hrothgar. The fight with Alduin had left him weak, and conflicted. He was so tired of the fighting and the saving and the fighting and the saving; of being a doom-driven hero. So when Master Arngeir asked how things went, Do'Zah sighed and tiredly slumped into a nearby chair, and asked a question that had been lingering on his mind instead of answering the inquiry.

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Read more at AO3 or FFN

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Now that i developed kid william a bit more, I'm suddenly kinda wanting an au where mike accidentally time travels and meets his dad as a kid

#Ik an anon once sent me an ask about the older afton kids having to raise a kid version of their dad #But i wasn't very interested in it at the time bc i hadn't developed will as a character or his childhood #Def more interested in that idea now