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I want to make impact 🙂‍↕️

I just gotta beat this addiction first

[alekkis]

i wish the world was a more gentle place to psychotic people

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peace at last.

[alekkis]

chat I tell you this in confidence -

Im gonna do this for the day 1’s

I know I struggle through this affliction

But I promise you I’m more than this shell that can barely go to work and brush his teeth.

I can and will recover, but I gotta end this insanity, I gotta end my addiction.

#bipolar 1 #actually psychotic #psychosis

[alekkis]

I can curate and synthesize

I have taste and perspective

I love to learn - but I love self sabotage even more..

[alekkis]

😭 fuck addictive tendencies and wonky brain chemistry- like i will fullfill my creative ambitions. I want to create insight, I want to problem solve, I want to design research and write but can’t be manic again, I really can’t, why am I like this 😭

#bipolar 1 #actually psychotic #psychosis

[alekkis]

chat - im struggling.

I shouldn’t smoke - I’m liable to trip.

But, I’m desperate to feel anything..

I feel blank.. trapped.. broken and dejected.. yeah..

Ive fallen off the wagon more than I’d like to share, I don’t want to fall back into old patterns.

But I just want release- this can’t be all that there is! I just want to day dream under the sweet sweet haze..

I really need to stop, so let this be a book mark, let’s pivot, I might definitely be an addict.. you know and I can’t even say I’m stopping forever it’s a I’ll try again in a few months and that’s so devastating. 🙂‍↕️ yeah I wouldn’t trust me either..

#bipolar 1 #actually psychotic #psychosis

[alekkis]

i do genuinely need to go on some sort of quest this year or i’m going to become evil for real

[alekkis]

by Lorraine Sorlet

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also I love that Grover gets separated from the kids and immediately starts playing mind games with a god. he's like finally I don't have to be a good role model for a second. let's talk brutality.

[alekkis]

Louise Glück, from “Stars”, Poems: 1962–2020

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[alekkis]

Katara: Man, I can’t believe we let Zuko onto the team.

Sokka : it’s because he’s hot

Katara:

Sokka:

Sokka, stuttering: You know, since he’s a fire bender!

[alekkis]

idk who needs to hear this but just bc it's ending doesn't mean it never happened !!!! wonderful memories are not simply undone because the person is no longer in your life. it counts for something. and it's okay to look back with fondness bc that was still time invested no matter what

[alekkis]

modern au zukka but its just zuko teaching sokka how to drive and being terrified for his life because sokka genuinely sucks at this

#moonlight

[alekkis]

Vardges Petrosyan, Years Lived and Unlived (translated by metamorphesque)