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once I overcome my borderline personality disorder, narcissistic personality disorder, accidental manipulative/toxic tendencies, obsessive love, possessive tendencies, severe anxiety, abandonment issues, dissociation, addictions, s/h, insomnia and unhealthy eating habits, youre so fucking dead

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bpd culture is hating those you should love, and loving those who want nothing to so with you

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am I binging or am I just eating almost normally? we'll never know.

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im so embarrassed to be disordered sometimes like how did i get this cringe

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*turns brightness down* *opens tumblr*

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*expresses a reason i’m upset* oh god im being manipulative aren’t I

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dont ever talk to me or my 47 destructive tendencies again

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FP: is gone for 5 minutes

my brain: they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me they're replacing me I'm being replaced I'm being replaced I'm being replaced

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are you the amount of calories i’ve ate today? because your’re constantly on my mind (ed rizz)

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why does weight loss take so long, like i'm literally ⭐️ ving myself, hurry up a bit will you???

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BPD culture is admitting something personal to your fp and they reply “Oh” and your entire sense of self crashes down and you delete your messages and hide

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Because I look better when I’m sick.

They’ll take care of me when I’m sick.

I’ll fit into any clothes I want.

People will look at me. They’ll see me.

I’ll be able to go to the beach and feel good.

Those shorts will finally fit.

People will care.

I’ll finally have control.

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i'm scared that revealing my true feelings and BPD thoughts will make them think i'm manipulative and toxic. and then they'll cut me off. like a dangerous tumor.

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It should be.