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One of my favourite scenes 💔 Any moment Andrew touches Neil I’m just like:😱🤫😱

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sometimes the media consumes you. unfortunately

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Reblog this if you think boys deserve flowers and cheek kisses.

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Do I simp for Henry Winter? Yes, absolutely.

Do I also understand that The Secret History is a critique of elitism and that the characters presented in the book should NOT (!!) be idolised? Yes, absolutely!

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“strawberries and cigarettes” is françois abernathy’s anthem period

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The Secret History

Choose your favourite book cover

Ps: I’m doing a survey on Dark Academia for a university project, if you like DA, I’d be happy to have you do it: https://forms.gle/bhFRX9ivTs9BXXdj8

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i'm still waiting for the chance to tell someone "cubitum eamus?"

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i didn’t even get to read the full harpers article about to paradise (only got to read half before the page reloaded and then i’d have to pay for it) and honestly yeah to paradise sounds like a mess. but i LOVED a little life and it means a lot to me as a novel. some of the things this article critiqued yanagihara on just felt very annoying and odd and in bad faith to me.

first of all the fact that the writer of the article basically speed-read a little life didn’t sit right with me. i don’t think it’s a book that’s easy to absorb at 2x speed as an audiobook, and i think reading it that way you lose a lot of the nuance and beauty and understanding.

i also found it weird that the writer critiqued yanagihara as paying a lot of detailed attention to food but minimally describing sex, or reserving sensations of pleasure within the narrative for food. i think part of this is that food is obviously a metaphor for love, friendship, richness, abundance (at least in the text of a little life. i haven’t gotten a copy of to paradise as it’s not released yet.) and i think pleasurable sex is often left out of literary fiction at the risk of readers feeling like it’s a romance novel- i’ve never read a long description of pleasurable sex in literary fiction bc it’s just something the genre doesn’t want. the purpose of a sex scene in literary fiction is never about pleasure it’s always about something else, because sexual pleasure is considered indulgent. romance novels are allowed to be indulgent in pleasure. literary fiction is not.

i think it’s odd and unfair to critique a writer on what they choose to write about- like the fact that yanagihara’s work features victims of childhood sexual abuse, or the fact that both a little life and to paradise largely revolve around gay male characters. we don’t know what yanagihara’s relationship to sexual abuse is. we don’t know if she has any experience with it. we don’t know if yanagihara is queer in any way, she’s never disclosed her sexuality, and assuming that she’s writing about these experiences and trying to exploit them for her benefit feels like a bad faith reading to me.

i also find it a little suspicious that everyone is so excited to tear apart the work of a woman of color who’s become successful in her field for writing queer stories at the drop of a hat. i understand why people don’t like a little life, and judging by the article i understand why people don’t like the sound of to paradise, but it just feels odd for everyone to be soooo excited to rip apart her work like this immediately. just my 2 cents !

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i finished to paradise... no thoughts head empty

#to paradise #hanya yanigahara

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#Him

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I HAVE TO PARADISE

HANYA MUTUALS LETS BE FRIENDS

#a little life #to paradise #hanya yanigahara

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it’s TO PARADISE DAY. am i am waiting by my door for a book that will be the source of my emotional turmoil for the foreseeable future

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omg i just gor mine today too :,)

it’s here.

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adulting is actully one of the shittest things on this fucking planet

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You left me no choice but to stay here forever 🖤🥀

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Help me pay for my T!

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