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I’M STARTING TO GET A THIGH GAP AGAIN IM STARTING TO GET A THIGH GAP AGAIN ✨💫💖🩷

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about me: 🌸

Name - Lilith

Age - 22

About the blog: no minors allowed!!! I use this blog to vent, so only interact if you’re over 18!

Thank you!

I wish all of you the loveliest of days <3

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wishing you less pain

wishing you less stress

wishing you less depression

sending you love

sending you positive vibes

sending you healing energy

͏ ͏please accept

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Nobody breaks my heart

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my appetite is so small.

i never crave food.

when offered food, i decline.

i’m jst never hungry.

i can never finish my food.

i’m fine having jst water.

i am skinny.

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id rather be miserable and sk1nny than be miserable and F@T.

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My budget is 1054cals to ease back into restricting since I binged for 2 weeks.

Meals:

Breakfast 3tbs hazelnut spread (222)

Lunch: 2 vegetable spring rolls (180)

Dinner: 12 cheese bagel bites (600)

Snacks: 2 cucumbers (50)

Total: 1052cals

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I’m so unhinged looking back on some of the stuff I type on here like it’s a diary 😭 I love yall. we’re like an undercover community where we can simultaneously be so unhealthy but wish the best for each other <3

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setting a timer to not eat & instead burning calories by m*sturb@t!ng & riding a v!brat0r & strap-on. I’m asexual but riding s3x t0ys burns calories when I don’t feel like getting out of bed

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i wanna be so sk1nny the angle doesnt even matter

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Lost 2lbs(.91kg) after a 2 week binge where I gained 4lbs(1.8kg). So overall 2lb gain(.91kg), but I’m less hungry now & my calorie dense foods are mostly gone 😆 I learned blueberries are good to have around because I can barely finish a cup but even if I were to eat a pound of blueberries it would be less calories than 4 small chips ahoy cookies. Having a whole pack of cookies is unnecessary and stupid. Having harvest pea snaps and blueberries is good enough. Will update on more weight loss just gotta take it day by day. I’m at 8lbs(3.63kg) lower than at the start of the year. Gotta remember the process & not be discouraged. That can lead to binges

Slow progress is still progress. 8lbs lost since the beginning of the year!!

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getting to know people is just so humiliating 🤡 I became close with someone & they were so kind to me then one day they called me a racial slur & I was like HUH. & I left them obviously. U just never know with people 😭 getting close with others is so scary. Swear some people seem so kind then are monsters. Maybe I’m also just very naive

I want to fall in love again (platonically). All I’ve ever wanted was a close best friend who would share their being with me in adventures & the mundane. Impulsive trips to see the aurora borealis, quick trips to the grocery store, dancing in the kitchen & cooking meals together. Just living together. It’s just hard to find close connections like that while being asexual. Cuddling/kissing are usually considered means to an end :// I want to be loved without having my body claimed. Call it trauma or being young. It’s true. I just want a safe connection where I’M number one. I hate being second place. Feels like I’m the second best friend. It’s also hard cuz even if I find/am found by a person who meets these requirements, I still gotta make sure they’re not racist or misogynistic or transphobic. I’m mixed race & people have been so weird about that in the past, seeing me as a less-than, for the streets sexual experiment. And weird about my gender, with me being genderfluid. Ideally my best friend would be pan & they could fuck whoever they wanted but still come back to me and I’d be their #1. This is a vent lmao. I JUST WANT A BEST FRIEND WHERE WE’RE ROMANTIC WITH EACH OTHER WITHOUT DATING OR FUCKING

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I want to fall in love again (platonically). All I’ve ever wanted was a close best friend who would share their being with me in adventures & the mundane. Impulsive trips to see the aurora borealis, quick trips to the grocery store, dancing in the kitchen & cooking meals together. Just living together. It’s just hard to find close connections like that while being asexual. Cuddling/kissing are usually considered means to an end :// I want to be loved without having my body claimed. Call it trauma or being young. It’s true. I just want a safe connection where I’M number one. I hate being second place. Feels like I’m the second best friend. It’s also hard cuz even if I find/am found by a person who meets these requirements, I still gotta make sure they’re not racist or misogynistic or transphobic. I’m mixed race & people have been so weird about that in the past, seeing me as a less-than, for the streets sexual experiment. And weird about my gender, with me being genderfluid. Ideally my best friend would be pan & they could fuck whoever they wanted but still come back to me and I’d be their #1. This is a vent lmao. I JUST WANT A BEST FRIEND WHERE WE’RE ROMANTIC WITH EACH OTHER WITHOUT DATING OR FUCKING

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coming back to tumblr after a binge

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All love tho

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BITCH this just came on my pinterest and holy heck-a-m’balls this is the th1nsp0-of-the-day™️ (totd for short lmao)

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Not counting the calories won’t make them disappear