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you’ll never find me here!!

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Heavy on the pretty clothes

Do it so...

..you're cute when you eat desserts and not disgusting

..people wrap their fingers around your wrist and tell you how skinny you are

..they'll be able to lift you up with ease

..you'll feel clean

..you'll be the skinniest in every room you enter

..you don't have to be ashamed to eat in public

..people admire your will strength and determination

..you're not caged in your own fat

..you can wear pretty clothes

.. you'll have a thigh gap

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the most infuriating thing is that i find it so easy to f4st but when i start eating i find it so hard to eat little amounts

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God I wish

that euphoric feeling i got when we’re laying in bed and he ran his hand down my stomach and said, “did you get skinnier? ..you got skinnier”

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I’m pretty sure I caused my SA because I probably could have stopped it 💀

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[xlana-brooke]

"Let's watch Barbie together!"

Barbie?

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⋆ ˚｡𖦹 ⋆｡° I'll be a twenty teenage girl forever ⋆ ˚｡𖦹 ⋆｡°

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I'm cooked

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do i complete my to do list and be a happy productive girl or lay on my bed, cry, listen to music and yearn

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can’t wait to lie in my room with a cold water and blast lana del rey and just read fanfiction and watch sad movies

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cvtting fresh, untouched skin is so confusing. on one hand, it's so nice and satisfying because there are no healing scars in the way, and everything seems so fresh and endless. on the other, though, it makes me feel like absolute shit. slowly but surely, more and more of my body is getting covered in blood and scabs and scars for no reason other than my stupid brain telling me it should. i can never wear a bikini, or sandals, or anything sleeveless again. well, unless i want people to know how broken i am.

sorry, this is probably stupid. sorry.

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Post nut clarity’s for losers and men, I’m a post cut clarity kinda girlie

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I need to keep telling myself it’s not normal to look at sharp objects and wonder how it would feel to cut my skin open with them