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cause of how this works, cant tell if im gettin my own memories or some other logans. rememberin weapon x, comes easiest. half heartedly bangin on the glass from inside that tube, wonderin what i can do ta make em see me as human. knowin im in there again. aint gettin much more emotions tied to it other than that. we're already knowin how my claws feel, metal ones hurt more.

no point in rememberin this stuff at this stage, but its kinda interestin bein able to see. even if i aint fully believin in it.

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cant tell if these are memories or not. cant edit them, so they feel different from regular daydreams. still, 'rememberin' team x n our days as partners. just small bits. us as partners in green, him laughin, on the ground. he looks up at me n recognizes me. im gettin memories easier, but its kinda like we can share em.

high kinda fades in n out. sucks it cant be there 100% o the time, but we're ridin the waaaves.....took one outta the origins kids book, saw ourselves as kids. kinda worked actually. then logan switched over to wantin to remember weapon x like he was before that one time. memory time....shroom time....buddy time.....hurtin time. ow.

#✒️journal #dunno how long we were just sittin here in the damn dark...easier visualizin when ya cant see the body #(logan sayin that) #nsfw

[x-wolverine-x]

Whole head apartments up tonight. All takin turns n refusin to go back to sleep....guess I gotta be the responsible one n get us some food in our belly before we shrivel up n start decayin. More than usual anyway.

Saw a post earlier thats been hittin us hard, bout all this bein fake. Once one person starts thinkin somethin, it spreads around pretty damn quick. Even though I was just rememberin somethin impossible for me to remember a couple minutes ago.

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Shifted over into the Weapon X state of myself, from readin a newer comic. Wantin to escape. Creed doesnt like seein me like this, but its kinda comforting, since I can kinda choose to keep feelin this way instead o bein forced. And I'm safe. Never got to be safe when I was like this before.

#✒️journal #Implants kickin in hard now. Felt too damn real. #nsfw

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Foreshadowin for me showin up again tonight lol. Made it outta the states, hangin out, goin to bed...Gnight world. Gnight rats livin in the ceiling. Gnight floor that needs a good cleanin. Gnight soul I'm meant to spend a buncha other lives with. And gnight me.

these were supposed to ship last month but are just now ready to ship. someone get these guys outta the states STAT.

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Weird watchin stuff that seems like memories. Cant tell if I'm makin it up or not, just lettin it play in my head. Can feel everything, smell, hear, but we can do that anyway for daydreamin.

Honey Cream sodas hurtin my teeth. Vic got it for me, cuz it looked kinda like a beer. Havent really had any urge to drink (or smoke for that matter), but if these memories are genuine, I'm rememberin bars. Drivin a bit sloshed too.

We aint meant to keep gettin hung up on the details.

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Its foretold that the Vics in our system are gonna get us strugglin Wolvies back in tip top shape. Somehow. We're gonna keep tryin stuff, brainstormin tactics, but maybe our 'healer' needs to be used to our advantage more...even if she aint believin in herself.

Wonderin how the guy in the comics is gonna pull it off. We probably just need to learn to harness our patience n wait n see how he does it.

Think our problem is we keep tryin to force this ourselves. Should stop pushin n just try out the ritual we were told to do in the first place...Dunno whats makin all so hesitant about it. Maybe we're scared it wont do nothin. Gotta still give it a shot anyway.

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Think our problem is we keep tryin to force this ourselves. Should stop pushin n just try out the ritual we were told to do in the first place...Dunno whats makin all so hesitant about it. Maybe we're scared it wont do nothin. Gotta still give it a shot anyway.

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Maybe we dont gotta get our souls entirely in check. We already know we feel whole while dreamin, so whyre we bein forced to prove that here? I guess its just nice knowin yerself in the wakin realm too...maybe we just gotta keep goin hard on this prophecy shit regardless of how we're feelin. Bein tested our limits, just gotta work together. Dunno, confusin as all hell.

The thing about bein fictional here is that we aint supposed to exist here. Fictional is fictional for a damn reason. It's breakin the rules, n the rules are fightin back hard. Really hurtin some o the members in our system. Not gonna lie, I'm pretty worried I'm gonna get kicked back myself. Vic doesnt get it, but for me its like the more I believe, the more I get told im just playin a role....no, Vic felt like that too. Not sure how he keeps gettin better, but maybe I'll just get used to it if I keep fightin for who I feel I wanna be.

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The thing about bein fictional here is that we aint supposed to exist here. Fictional is fictional for a damn reason. It's breakin the rules, n the rules are fightin back hard. Really hurtin some o the members in our system. Not gonna lie, I'm pretty worried I'm gonna get kicked back myself. Vic doesnt get it, but for me its like the more I believe, the more I get told im just playin a role....no, Vic felt like that too. Not sure how he keeps gettin better, but maybe I'll just get used to it if I keep fightin for who I feel I wanna be.

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Still me, worked this time.

We're talkin about gettin our memories back later, of the life we shared together. I'm wantin mine back, acceptin all the bad ones in sacrifice o gettin the good ones. Vics hesitant, since he thinks hes gonna have a lotta bad ones. Also probably a lot where she werent the best to me. But seein how we feel now about eachother, there was probably a time when we treated eachother well.

Guess another fear is the memories aint gonna be up to our expectations. I dunno, still thinkin it over, considerin pros n cons.

If I reset back to 0 in the mornin I'm killin god with my bare claws. Couples date idea for me n Vic.

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Alright. Maybe just singular faggot.

🖤

Problem before is I was tryin too hard to wrap my head around the whole 'lovers' thing, when really we've always been best friends first. Second bein soulmates. Somethin more than lovers.

Faggots apparently.

#✒️journal #Gonna be headin to bed soon. Gotta fix our reputation up for bein the worst adults in the system.

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Problem before is I was tryin too hard to wrap my head around the whole 'lovers' thing, when really we've always been best friends first. Second bein soulmates. Somethin more than lovers.

Faggots apparently.

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You at every damn little inconvenience:

me earlier: world sucks life sucks killin myself

logan gettin his soul finally tuned out: hey

me, instantly sedated: ...normal now.

#✒️journal #This bloggin stuffs fun. #Vics actually real cute actin sometimes. Gotta let the world (3 people) know.

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If I reset back to 0 in the mornin I'm killin god with my bare claws. Couples date idea for me n Vic.

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Also still dont know why the body aint gainin any weight. Maybe cuz we're supposedta be eatin for 11. Lol.

#✒️journal #Mark the date. Wolvie made his first conscious joke.

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Its strange. I can actually talk now. Was this how James felt? I know I aint at Vic's level yet, but I can feel my own soul now at least....

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