desperately searching,
constantly wondering,
when will it be my turn.
when will it be my time
to feel the love i desperately crave
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the only one i have to blame is myself
for never being enough
and for simultaneously being too much.
for asking for things I don’t deserve
knowing well
why I don’t deserve them.
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Ne’erdowell
I am surrounded by brilliance
They shine so brightly.
They are the light
and I am the shadow.
Always copying
Forever trailing
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turn my skin inside out
help me spill my guts;
find what’s broken
and stitch it into place.
pull the shards out
piece by painful piece
and maybe that’ll teach me
that I’m still a work in progress
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Me: I don’t label myself
Also me:
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killme🖤
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“I am tired of being told I am loved and cared about but never made to feel that way.”
— your actions and words never match
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whatever
I won’t beg you to stay any longer if you’re already heading for the door.
This will just validate everything that I’ve believed
that I don’t deserve this
that I don’t deserve us.
It’s only natural, since you’re getting better, that you’d want to cut some dead weight.
I just didn’t realize I was it.
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would you please rattle my bones
and light my soul on fire.
remind me what it feels like
to be alive.
Because the words aren’t making any sense
and I’m not getting any better
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too far under//crash
I am no longer drowning in guilt
for I have become one with the water.
My bones have sunk to the water bed,
I am now a sea of melancholy
beating down vessels that pass through me.
my tides will rage and roar
and crash down.
they’ll swallow you whole
before you get a chance to think.
I am uncharted territory
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I guess we’ll just chalk it up to a bad brain
because it’s not worth the trouble
trying to do more for me.
It doesn’t matter if I’m unwell
what matters is that you’re okay.
Because what I feel is nothing more
than a delusion that my mind has conjured.
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I wonder if I’m worth it
Christie looked at me with tears in her eyes. Her mascara was running and her foundation was smudged.
“if you decided to leave me, I would understand” she sobbed.
Those words hurt me. It hurt me more than she knew. My hands were shaking at how angry they made me, and my stomach was sinking again.
“is that it?” I asked “is that how you want this to go?”
Christie just frowned back at me. “No, of course not but-“
“BUT WHAT?” I said louder than i meant to. “Why do you choose to give up on this?”
“You’d understand if I decided to leave? what kind of excuse is that?
Am I so unworthy that you’d leave the moment things started to get rough?”
Christie was holding back tears.
“FIGHT FOR ME TO STAY” I said, tears now welling up in my eyes “don’t just toss me aside because I‘m giving everything into loving you this is breaking my heart”
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these are some of the thoughts that bother me
I’m the problem
I’m the issue.
I’m the reason that things fall apart.
It’s because I’m not trying hard enough
not working smart enough
not bending far enough to change.
whatever issues arise
will ultimately be my doing
because I’m a mistake
who only makes mistakes
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