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Ok it's time to settle this once and for all

#lesmand #armandstat #lestat x armand #armand x lestat #lestat de lioncourt #armand #interview with the vampire #iwtv #amc iwtv #vampire chronicles #the vampire chronicles #vc #tvc

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the one and only armand

#something about the way his eyes/expression looks here #is so much like how i imagine him in the books #armand #interview with the vampire #iwtv #amc iwtv

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Assad Zaman as Armand INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE Season 2

#baby #armand #interview with the vampire #iwtv #amc iwtv #assad zaman

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SCARLET WITCH #3 Variant Cover by JOËLLE JONES

#lore #wanda maximoff #scarlet witch #marvel #marvel comics #joëlle jones #joelle jones

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Here’s my SCARLET WITCH #3 cover — featuring my new design for LORE, an evil Wanda variant! 💀🖤

I’ll also be drawing a bit of ✨INTERIORS✨ in this issue!

The bit of the issue I’m drawing is where Lore faces off with our Wanda — I’m thrilled to draw it! 😈 SCARLET WITCH issue 3, out in August — written by Steve Orlando, interior art by me alongside series artist Jacopo Camagni, main cover drawn/colored by me!

Lore is a demonic Wanda variant, so I wanted to contrast my design for our Wanda. I wanted the Scarlet Witch design to be magical, vibrant, and super-heroic. For Lore, I tried to contrast that by going dark and sinister, with a goth, undead vibe.

#like wow #this is just incredible #her mom wanda tea #lore #wanda maximoff #scarlet witch #marvel #marvel comics #russell dauterman

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So, this might be a bit weird but, after finishing Room No.9 and everything, I wanted to, kind of... Defend ending A a bit? I've seen people's (negative) reactions, some even saying they considered that worse than the ending where Daichi kills Seiji… Which is kinda crazy to me. Even if you hate it, I think it's at the very least better than that, and maybe than endings D or E?

If you think about it, there's nothing really too shocking happening. Their friendship is gone which is sad, but that also happens in every ending besides F (the "good one") and maybe C (stay in the room). Unlike C, they're at least out in the real world, and, while in a sense they might not have "really left the room", the implication is that they're doing fine living their lives and functioning in society outside of their relationship with each other. We don't even get Daichi going on about how he doesn't really care about his job like in ending B (which is very interesting for me, to wonder how he's doing as an elementary teacher while being how he is with Seiji lol).

And while it's definetely sad that there's not really any friendship or love in their relationship anymore, and that it has only turned into what it did due to what they've went through, it's really nothing too bad? People have sexual relationships without romance and explore kinks, dom/sub, humiliation stuff and whatever else they're doing there in real life too, and it's not neccessarily something bad in itself (outside of the context of what initiated it here). They're not even as sex addicted as ending C, cause they don't meet up every day or anything.

I don't think anything Seiji is doing there (because, yes, he's doing it, it's not just something being done to him) is something to truly pity him for. It might be called abuse ending but he's consenting to it, out of the room, with no drugs/aphrodisiacs like in there. And the guilt he probably feels, and that Daichi does on the other side of it, it's something that many people feel about their own kinks/fetishes. The sad part of that ending is really more the feeling of what has been lost, as Daichi says at the end.

I've seen people talk about how Daichi "turns" into a sadistic or into something, or just how they change on that ending in general, but I don't fully agree with that. I mean, it's kinda true, in that they definetely wouldn't have turned out that way without what happened, but, in a way it was also something in them that was awakened.

No matter which route you take, Daichi and Seiji are still turned on from what they have to do. Seij still gets an erection when Daichi face-fucks him. Daichi still talks about how deep down he actually does want to have sex with Seiji at certain moments, about how bad he feels that he's kind of excited to do certain tasks, about how sexy Seiji looks during them. In the shower scene (of the third route, which is the "good one"), he even considers that maybe the idea of doing it to help Seiji is just a rationalization and he actually just wants to have sex with him (well, I'd say it's both).

So, I feel like that ending is in a way the one where they are their truest selves. Primal, deranged, twisted maybe. But they're not in denial anymore (well, the way Daichi reacts to one of the guys thinking he's Seiji's boyfriend makes me wonder if he isn't a bit more in love than he admits, but I might be reading too much into it). Maybe ending C (stay in the room) too, but in that one they seem to be just going with it without thinking more than anything, while in this one, there's more of a realization for them, an inner knowledge about themselves.

I don't think Daichi's sadism is completely created by "the room". And, I mean, it's just sexual sadism. He still never really harms Seiji. It's all very common kinky sex stuff. It's more humiliation/degradation than actual violence. I don't think he's really evil for it. He kinda thinks so earlier on the route, but that doesn't mean we have to agree with it. While I love the sweet Daichi from the third route (and even the second one, if he chooses to stay with Seiji), I gotta admit that route 1 Daichi is also kinda dear to me in a different way. I thought some of his thoughts (like blaming it on genetics) were kinda stupid, but, that sense of guilt over what turns you on, but still wanting to do it anyway, that guilt sort of mixing with arousal because it being taboo and "wrong" is part of why you're into it...

Seiji's situation is a bit more complicated, cause he essentially gets his body "trained" to that kind of stuff (is that even realistic? probably to some extent but not as much as in the game). But I can't see Daichi turning like that if their roles were reversed, and I can't imagine him turning into a dom/sadist either, so it's probably still something somewhat innate to him that he just wasn't likely to discover.

#room no.9 #room no. 9 #room no 9 #daichi kobayashi #seiji azumi #kobayashi dachi #azumi seiji #visual novels #vns #reading

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ASOIAF discourse about gender performance gets so insane because wdym Daenerys is a masculine character... Like she's the third most feminine POV character after Sansa and Catelyn. She's heavily associated with motherhood, marriages and romance. And I don't mean this in a negative way, Dany and Sansa are my favorite characters even though show Sansa was kinda ruined from s5 onwards.

Like yes Dany is going against misogynistic traditions by being a queen and a Khaleesi in her own right rather than as a consort. But breaking gender roles in a sexist society that doesn't let women into the same positions of power as men doesn't neccessarily make someone masculine, male-coded or whatever. She's not a tomboy, butch or even fight hand to hand like Arya/Brienne/Asha. Whether that's a good thing or bad thing for you is another thing but it's the truth.

This is pretty much the same for Rhaenyra too, except show Rhaenyra is actually slightly tomboyish in personality and was against the idea of dealing with motherhood and marriage before the time jump.

#like i know this gets said as both a positive and negative thing but it's ridiculous either way sorry #daenerys targaryen #rhaenyra targarien #a song of ice and fire #asoiaf

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Tbh I could never really find the Lestat train scene funny when watching, it was the most upsetting scene to me after him beating Louis and it's one of the reasons why I feel like show Lestat is actually worse than the book's. But I can kinda appreciate it for Sam's performance in out of context clips/gifs.

With Santiago though I feel like they went out of their way to do that cause that scene is in the book without any kind of campy humor 😭I can't really take it seriously right now, but I hope the actual scene will make me cry.

I'm still giggling at cunty judge Santiago at the trial like 😭😭😭 people talk so much about Armand and Lestat having beef with Claudia, the whole "every girl had a sinister homosexual trying to ruin her life" "she had two" meme, like no bitch she had THREE!!! You're forgetting the bitch who had it for her the most.

Also what's with them having men be ridiculous while they make Claudia suffer, first Lestat on the train scene now this, I'm starting to think it's an intentional comic relief lool.

#interview with the vampire #iwtv #amc iwtv

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I'm still giggling at cunty judge Santiago at the trial like 😭😭😭 people talk so much about Armand and Lestat having beef with Claudia, the whole "every girl had a sinister homosexual trying to ruin her life" "she had two" meme, like no bitch she had THREE!!! You're forgetting the bitch who had it for her the most.

Also what's with them having men be ridiculous while they make Claudia suffer, first Lestat on the train scene now this, I'm starting to think it's an intentional comic relief lool.

#santiago #claudia #interview with the vampire #iwtv #amc iwtv #iwtv season 2 #iwtv spoilers #iwtv s2 spoilers

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Ok, so... I finally finished Room No.9. I have some mixed feelings...

The third route was really sweet. There are so many sweet moments between them. In Daichi's narration. The tasks of hurting Daichi were kind of nervewracking, but not too much really. The way the whole post-enema shower thing turns out makes me, again, sad at how that went on the end B/C route, because it really, really was avoidable...

I won't even talk much about ending E. It just feels like the "wrong/bad" option of the route. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to take that Seiji is really fine and distanced himself like on ending D, or if he got taken out by the people responsable for the study. Anyway, it doesn't really feel "real", even less than endings D or B.

The F ending one... Yay, they got out, they're fine, they're still friends.... They're still friends. Ugh. It's so frustrating to hear Daichi talking about just forgetting everything that happened. Like, yeah, I get wanting to "leave the room behind", but that he straight up says he'll just ignore it? That they didn't learn ANYTHING really? Even after that sex scene? Come on. They even have Seiji saying he doesn't want to get married, and Daichi talking about maybe drifting apart because they would have their own families, as if to hammer home the point that they'll really stay just friends?

Look, I can kind of appreciate the feeling of holding onto your friendship. I do. I managed to appreciate it after the other endings where that is lost. But that should be like, one of the endings. Or maybe, not even that. If it was one or the other, there should've been a romantic ending. There should've been a romantic ending one way or another. Because it's honestly so frustrating that at the end of all that they're still in denial. Or at least Daichi.

Like, again, I get valuing friendship, but Daichi is SO IN LOVE. Like he's so in love it's stupid. I'm sorry but there re SO, SO MANY LINES THAT SHOW THAT!!! Not just the ones where he generally compliments Seiji as in appreciating his good qualities as a person, but like, the ones where he notes how attractive he is. And there are a lot of those, some horny ones but also some that are neither platonic nor sexual, just, romantic. There's no way they really wrote some of those with us not meant to think that.

I guess the writers didn't want for there to be just one ending that was fully great and satisfying above all the others? I don't know. I guess ending C is the romantic one? Sure, whatever...

I don't want to read too much into it but it really does feel like the game is sort of trying to send the message that lust/physical attraction and a true/pure love are inheretly incompatible? Like it's a good thing that they'll only stay friends and never have sex or even kiss again? Like that's the only option because anything else is just a ruined friendship? I really hope that wasn't the creators' intentions.

In the end I guess I can still headcanon that in the F ending they will eventually come to terms with being in love and getting together. Who knows. Maybe I'll write something.

I'm a bit disappointed to end this with such a sour taste in my mind. I, overall, really loved the game. But I'd be lying if I said this (the way the "good ending" goes and no romance issue) doesn't make me really sad. I saw people sort of complaining about it, but I thought it was just gonna be that they didn't outright said they were in love/gonna be in a relationship but that was still implied, you know? That's what that CG in the train looked like to me... Like I saw someone frustrated that they didn't talk about their feelings but I thought it was just gonna be something like "but after everything Seiji and I are even closer" as they held hands implying a romance.

Anyways. Still a great game overall. I love the premise, the characters, the unsettling vibe that we're able to feel, the sweetness in it, all the horniness and guilt and exploration of the human psychology. The art, the voice acting, all the technical aspects. I guess it's really over. I've been finally freed from room no.9. 🫡

#room no.9 #room no. 9 #room no 9 #daichi kobayashi #kobayashi daichi #seiji azumi #azumi seiji #daichi x seiji #daisei #is that their ship name? #i think i've seen it somewhere

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He's such an angel 😭😭😭

#daichi kobayashi #kobayashi daichi #room no.9 #room no. 9 #room no 9 #visual novels #vns #reading

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AmberPrice are like the definition of "situationship"... They weren't really dating, but they weren't not dating.

(to me it's clear that the LIS1 writers meant for it to be one-sided on Chloe's part, even when she founds out about Rachel and Frank she doesn't act like Rachel cheated,just lied, but BTS writers leaned heavily into it being romantic and then we have the alt timeline from the comics where it is too, soo)

#amberprice #chloe x rachel #chloe price #rachel amber #life is strange #life is strange: before the storm #life is strange before the storm #lis bts

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Honestly fuck the writers for even creating ending B I fucking hate every single thing about it and there's literally nothing good in it I literally wish it wasn't even made...

I think what pisses me off the most is that it's true what Daichi said in the ending: They still could've made it. In ending A Seiji goes through the same thing and they manage to get out and, even if they have super twisted relationship, Seiji still manages to function in society and have a life outside of that when they're away from each other.

So the fact that in that ending things escalated so much that Daichi ended up killing him isn't really as much of a mercy as one might interpret it as... In that moment, yes, but Seiji could have gotten better even after his "transformation", even though he was now a different person and traumatized...

Ending C though... Hm, I don't know. It feels more romantic, like even more than ending A (not that that was hard, but they're pretty similar). You can see how much Daichi loves Seiji and genuinely cares about him even if they've gone crazy with lust, with the way he compares being there for Seiji to how Seiji was there for him in his childhood... The fact that this is in the same route as B comforts me a bit, since it feels a bit more like this is the main ending for that route and the other was the more generic "bad one" if you take the wrong choice.

I do wonder though about them getting out... Daichi says he thinks they will eventually, and together. This was pretty late into their days, like 9 or so, so it would only take 1 to 3 tasks to do it, and it's not like the sex ones would be hard... I can only hope they would eventually come into their senses to do it though.

They could also burn points to get food as he suggests earlier, and then do the tasks just as a way to get more food as if it was money (eventually, from the point where the ending stops they still have plenty of points to use for a while for people who aren't trying to get out) and just live there forever... Is that even feasible? Would the experiment people be ok with it? I don't know.

I prefer the other alternative (they get out eventually), cause that would probably lead up to like an alternative version of ending A where there's more of a romance between them? If they manage to still function in society while being together lol.

#i know i should probably just make one post after finishing everything instead of posting as i go and spamming the tags #but i don't have anyone to talk to about this and i really want to lay out my thoughts #room no.9 #room no. 9 #room no 9 #daichi kobayashi #seiji azumi

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This game is so fucking depressing :''))) Route B/C is killing me. I didn't finish but the scene of Seiji in the shower is rough. And I know what the two endings for it are... God, I don't even know what to say. It just feels like too much. The way they make sexual pleasure something so depressing, a downright torturous feeling is just... Wow. I felt bad on route A, and the D ending which I guess it's just the generic one (?), but this one probably feels worse. This feeling of sadness mixed with emptiness and resignation is weird.

I mean, I don't remember the A route/ending that well, I should probably reread it eventually, but I know that I didn't feel so depressed by it. Probably because I was horny, but also because it honestly just didn't feel as bad as this, it was more about Daichi's guilt over his sadism while this one is about Seiji, and not only does he get the worst out of it, but it's easier for me to relate to and I just think the whole thing is written in a darker way. It doesn't feel kinky. It focuses a lot more on Seiji's "transformation", which tbh I'm not quite sure why that seems to be worse here than in the other one, or if it even really is? I guess it's just because we got Seiji's POV? Well, partly, but it also feels like more than that. Maybe just because he has to take the initiative after the shower? I know the effects on his body seem similar, but still, I don't know...

I feel weird writing so much about this when it feels like no one will read it and that I've written enough already, especially when I haven't even finished it and will make another post about it when I do, if not more before and/or after that. Anyways.

#i wish i had someone to talk to about this #why isn't this game more popular #room no.9 #room no. 9 #room no 9 #seiji azumi #daichi kobayashi

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So, um, I fucking love Room No.9... The horror/survival thriller tone at the beginning? I can't explain but I just love that feeling of dread and discomfort. The idea of having to do sexual stuff with your best friend? Idk but it speaks to me in both a horny and a "omg this is so awkard and fucked up" way. The guilt of being super turned on by things that you find terrible??? Exploring human psyche through kinks and dom/sub dynamics????? WHY WAS THIS WRITTEN FOR ME SPECIFICALLY???

My first time with this game a few years ago was kind of a fever dream. I first just got the generic "bad ending" with no CGs or anything, and then I got the A ending.

It was honestly kind of crazy because, uh, the A route REALLY speaks to my kinks and that was one of the few times I saw stuff like that being portrayed in any media, at least with characters I cared about and with the sub being really into it AND it being treated seriously... So it was A LOT. I also ended up sort of binging almost all the last half of it in the same day non-stop, partly because I kept thinking it was going to end and then it just kept going. So these factors ended up making me just... Drop it, kinda? I always planned to play the other endings eventually but I just didn't.

Until I just sort of randomly thought about the game recently and then got back into it. I'm replaying it all since I didn't really remember most of the specifics. Right now I'm still not sure which ending I'm going for first and last and everything. I'll probably write more about it when I finish everything.

#room no.9 #room no. 9 #room no 9 #visual novels #vns #gaming #reading

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PHOENIX #1 Written by STEPHANIE PHILLIPS Art by ALESSANDRO MIRACOLO Cover by YASMINE PUTRI On Sale 7/17

#phoenix #jean grey #x-men #marvel #marvel comics #stephanie phillips #alessandro miracolo #yasmine putri

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finished that nicki sketch instead of working on my thesis. i have so many normal and well adjusted feelings about him.

#nicolas de lenfent #vampire chronicles #the vampire chronicles #vc #tvc