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whiteusagi · 3 months

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OMG OKAY OKAY I'm gonna write an essay on this

I'm doing well. Thank you for writing and answering on my request. I'm really grateful and happy ^^ ohh your journal must be so pretty! Thank you, I hope too one day I'll be able to build a healthy relationship

I didn't expect the result but I love it so much. Kaeya... Why is he so me T.T I also love flirting with people, but when one of us starts developing real feelings I freak out and maybe disappear

Our relationship would be a rollercoaster... With two of us keep avoiding each other but then come back because we miss each other but then disappear again. But it would be worth it! ^^

Painting date is cute! I'm not a painter but I used to love drawing when I was a child ^^ the way you write the date is so cute. It would be a mess, but the type of mess that will be remembered as a sweet memory

Ive never listened to the song so I think I'll listen to the song after this. I like the lyrics you chose though ^^

Once again, thank you. Your words are so kind. I hope happiness will always be with you every day

Hi there ^^ how are u doing? Can I please hv a... saturn from your event?? Fandom is genshin if its okay with you

My favorite aesthetic is retro and vintage... Anything that reminds me about classic old time, really

For the song... Psycho by red velvet. I know I know the song is not about a healthy relationship, but I feel like I won't be able to build a healthy relationship? Idk okay perhaps thats tmi

One fact about me, aaa hmm I'm protective by nature. When I'm with someone, I unconsciously keep my eyes on them. For example... I guide them to avoid holes on the street, or wrapping my arm around them when we're walking through a crowd. I also usually walk a step behind, so I can see clearly and not lose the person.

I hope this is sufficient... Thank you for making the event. And thank you too for accepting requests and working on them. You are so cool 💪💪

+ hi dear!! i'm doing quite well—how about you? and yes you may! i absolutely adore your aesthetic omg—my journals are filled with vintage washi tape. and i absolutely get what you mean about not being able to build a healthy relationship. i hope you eventually will get that healthy relationship, though! you definitely deserve one!

+ here's your matchup!

(want a matchup? check out my milky way event!)

matchup ⋮ kaeya alberich.

okay so like i truly believe kaeya wouldn't be able to build a healthy relationship. he's the type to run when True Feelings are involved. he'll flirt, he'll date, he'll be sweet and a gentleman, but as soon as actual feelings start appearing, he'll run. however! that doesn't mean that's the end of the relationship between you two. there's something about you that has him coming back and he has to face his fears of a true relationship. but with you, it would be worth it. the relationship between the two of you would start off unhealthy but it will end up being a healthy one. because kaeya decided loving you was worth it and that it's what you deserve.

ideal date ⋮ painting date.

it's a bit random, i know but . . . hear me out, please! imagine it—he plans it for a night when the two of you aren't busy with work and other things. he takes you out to dinner than surprises you with a painting class. the two of you decide to do a couples painting, each choosing a scenery that you think the other would love. the entire time you two are talking and giggling with each other. kaeya goes to swipe his brush on your nose, but of course you see it and move away with a playful offended exclamation. i can see you two getting banned from the class afterwards. and here's the thing is, kaeya isn't a painter—i'm not sure if you are, but it would be amusing either way. back to kaeya, so he decides to paint you an old retro cafe. EXCEPT all paint colors merge together and it's a mess. you can't even tell what it is when he shows you and he knows it's a mess, but the time you two had together was the fun of it all. the two paintings get hung up on the wall.

lyrics / quotes ⋮ sweet by cigarettes after sex.

"and i would gladly break it. // i would gladly break my heart for you...// it's so sweet knowing that you love me."

i hope this was what you expected! thank you again, for requesting and i truly hope to see you around! i also hope you get that healthy relationship because you deserve it.

#matchup #genshin #kaeya

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whiteusagi · 3 months

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guys it turns out if you wanna have fun and be a fun and interesting person you like have to fill your day with fun things and not just rotting in your room …… need a moment to process

#hmm but what if i could do fun things in my room #making doll clothes for example #or daydreaming #daydreaming is fun

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whiteusagi · 1 year

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yandere tendencies

shigaraki

he has almost zero yandere tendencies. you can thank the photo of his grandma for this. deep inside, even though he no longer wants to be like a hero-hero, he still views himself as some kind of a heroic figure to those he cares about (read, the league, mostly). he’s almost a gentleman in that sense. he won’t pressure you into loving him out of the blue. he’s awkward with feelings of course, but he’s not that stupid. it’s like a game to him, where the main prize is you. he could cheat and use brute force, but like really why do that? no fun, you’re not an enemy, and also, it kinda throws off his image to you, don’t you think? he’s calculating everything, and he figures that scaring you might really be not useful in the long run. he’s the one who’s learning from his mistakes, so he longer is that impulsive brat from the very start of the story. and because of his strategic thinking, even his some really troublesome qualities, like possessiveness, impulsive and manipulating behaviour, could be overcome.

ways to deal with: basically, just don’t lie to him. he’ll be okay with anything you throw his way, he’s no stranger to harsh words. it’s his way to improve himself. if you learn about his heroic origins, do not ever, i repeat, ever, use that as the way to stop him from being violent. that’s the tricky part. he still views himself as a hero - to the league, to you, but in his very twisted way. you may get it all you want, but the rules are that you keep your mouth shut. he is violent. he’ll continue to be violent. he is a villain, the future king at the end of the day. if you don’t want to face his angry breakdown, know your place. he does not cross your boundaries (even for sometimes wrong reasons), your turn to do the same.

how hard to escape: he won’t even kiss you without your consent, so dont worry about your freedom. you’re not a hostage to him. you’re free to go wherever and whenever you want.

likeliness to survive: very high. do not betray him and you won’t die from his hands (literally).

rate: 4/10, not even a yandere in a full sense, let alone dangerous one.

toga

surprisingly, ranks the lowest on this list. she has the image of a cliche yandere, and this image has nothing in common with the real toga himiko. the only things she’s obsessed with are her own thoughts and ideas. she’s very observant and she is a realist. she clearly distinguishes between the reality and her own fantasies about other people. it might upset her very much (it usually does) but she’s still the molst self-aware from the gang, even though it might not look like it. but! because of how upset she can get, she might become dangerous to even close ones. she tries really hard to be in control, but she’s still very young and she only learns. she wants love, she wants to give and to recieve love. of course, with how lonely she feels, it might swing her mood drastically. because she’s not delusional, even when she wants to be. she’s too smart to be fooled by the false feelings.

ways to deal with: well, if she’s in a bad mood, whining that no one loves her, you better either run or hug her. it’s just you do you situation. again, lies are highly not appreciated, she can see right through it, and even if you think you’ve fooled her, trust me you haven’t. with how she views the world, she’d learnt to be okay with being unloved. she desperately wants to be loved, so if you’ll love her for real, that would take her by surprise. and if not… nothing will really change.

how hard to escape: she won’t hold you hostage.

likeliness to survive: high, but you need to be able to run fast, especially when she’s in a bad mood.

rate: 2/10, not a yandere.

dabi

you think with how cold and aloof he looks, he doesn’t care about anything, like he himself states? you’re not a fool, are you? don’t fall for his lies, it may cost you a life. so if it’s you he’s currently obsessed with, it’s really bad news for you. when he sets a goal, it all goes tunnel vision to him. man’s held a grudge for more than 10 years, you really think he let’s go easily? whatever he thinks of, it possesses his mind, like it’s all already done. but, he still needs to build some courage. he’s not cruel or bloodthirsty by nature. he was raised in a heroic household, and it has a hold on him to this day. don’t mistake it, unlike shigaraki, he doesn’t see anything heroic in himself. quite the opposite, he fully recognizes he is a villain in any perspective. it may seem like he doesn’t have a moral compass, but he actually does. his moral standarts are very, very high. he just explicitely chooses to ignore it to fullfill his goals. he’s very self-aware and like any human being who recognizes that what he’s doing is bad, he deals with self hatred. and because of it he has that negative nihilistic perspective, like if nothing matters anymore and i’m that evil being, why not be even more evil? it doesn’t matter anyway.

ways to deal with: he’s not cold, nor is he aloof. he’s very sensible and unstable, but, he’s still predictable. his mood swings are highly dependable on whether everything went according to his plans or not. his family is also a huge factor, because even if he himself states that he doesn’t care about them and wants to kill his small brother, well, he lies. he’s self-aware, yeah, it doesn’t mean he knows his own feelings very well. do that for him, he’ll actually be grateful, because it might lessen his self-hatred a bit. but sometimes it might anger him even more, because you may give him the reason to be a decent person, and he’s very aware he’s long past it. you can’t fix him, no one can fix him, and he doesn’t want to be fixed. he chose to be a bad, bad person, and it took years for him to seal the deal. but, however much he craves your attention, he has some boundaries. yes, he likes to play with you, and he enjoys his little manipulations and lies. but he’ll never rape you, or even kiss you without asking you first, if it’s not something you initiating. it’s just disgusting to him, and however morally corrupt he is, he’s not that low on morals bar. he doesn’t even really want to have sex with you, to begin with. he just wants his attention and fun, mainly being him gaslighting you. he doesn’t find your body necessarily attractive, because his mind doesn’t work like that. look at him, yours or even his own body are not his priorities. your mind is what he wants in his pleasure. to your advantage, he’s very bad at it, being manipulator. it’s against his blunt nature, so you better just play along. another thing is that you need to remind him carefully, that he has some greater goals (than you). you need to find them for him, so his focus changes from you and you only. best case scenario is when he finds something new (preferrably not another human) to be obsessed with.

how hard to escape: well, you’ve never lived together to begin with, and it was his choice only. he really enjoys his alone time, but he has his eyes on you anyway. you can’t really leave anywhere without him knowing somehow. but, as stupid as it sounds, it might be very easy, actually, because he might just simply forget about you if there’s any next grand goal. that’s your chance to escape. stay on the low. the sad part is, he always finishes what he’d started, even if it takes years. and if he finds you again - because he will try to do that, no matter what - what he’ll do to you then?

likeliness to survive: 50/50. there’s a thing with him, that his self-hatred shows that he’s still capable of mercy. he might just let you go one day with no regrets, out of the blue, because he said so. but here’s another way; and he knows that killing you is bad. he knows it all. he might still choose to do it regardless.

rate: 7/10. impulsive, manipulative, shows zero remorse. he doesn’t even love you, he loves to play with you. protect your mind, don’t fall for his tricks, and maybe one day you’ll escape.

hawks

crème de la crème. charming, funny, friendly, polite and is a hero, a gentleman’s kit. he remembers everything you’ve ever said to him (mark that part), he’ll follow you home, he’ll bring you small gifts and snacks, the dates are memorable, he compliments you all the way. you both want to create a beautiful family. a fairytale personified. and like with all fairytales, there’s a twist: he’s delusional to a point he can’t distiguish his desires from reality. the thing is, in his world, when he’s a highly trained asassin, his desires are a reality, because he never really had any. he was an asset, a tool. and what he was told to do, he repeated to himself and then he did what was asked. so in his mind, what he thinks is what he does. and it’s okay, if you think similarly - at the beginning of your relationship it feels like a dream how in sync you are. he’s very careful with what he’s showing to you, and if you don;t dig deeper, it may stay this way for literal years. he’s in no rush, so all your connections he cuts one by one, thoughtfully and carefully. he’s everywhere you want him to be. and he always knows what exactly you want. it is, until one time he gets it wrong, and his reaction is anything but what you’ve expected from your always sweet and gentle partner.

ways to deal with: the effect of the uncanny valley is developing with more time that you spend with him. you see his strange looks, but you don’t know how to explain it, and he’s always so ready to tell you it’s just because of how beautiful you are! but you see how he looks at you, like you’re a lab rat in a glass box, and at first you think you’re just imagining things. he’s so ready to confirm your stupidity. he wants the best for you, and since he’s seen it all, he knows best. it’ll took a lot of time for you to unpack how sick he is, how many lives he’d ended because he decided what they did was wrong. he has no moral compass, actually, he’s like a parrot, repeating what he have heard from his supervisors. so he doesn’t really know what’s good and what’s bad, he’ll find an explanation for any atrocities he’d caused. he’ll do everything in his power for you to never find out, but even if you do, he won’t drop the act. he’ll still be gentle and soft with you, trying to convince you you got it all wrong. he has his ways: he’s still attractive to you, of course he is, with his gorgeous looks, and he knows that. he’ll definitely use sex as a distraction - another thing to be wary of. and it might work, because he never in his life harmed you physically. you may fall for it again and again and again, letting him put you on a shorter leash. maybe, it’s even better for you to stay as delusional as him? because if you keep your sanity and believe your own eyes, it might become unbearable to live with him under one roof. he won’t rape your body, but he’ll torture your mind and soul constantly. unlike dabi, he mastered his manipulation skills to a degree he manipulated himself into believing his own lies. you’re ruining you both’ perfect little life. like, what bothers you exactly? it doesn’t matter if he may kill people in cold blood, he never hurt you, did he? the main survival strategy is to play along. he lies a lot, and he likes his lies. he’ll be happy to hear yours. don’t let him in your head again, pretend you’re back to his ‘normal’. or he’ll destroy you like no one but him could.

how hard to escape: your chances to escape are none to zero. you see, you may live with him for years, not realizing how crazy he is, because of how good he is at hiding it. you may even have kids at this point (which makes situation far, far more difficult). he can and he will threat you with harming others, if you try to leave him, by yourself or with kids. he won’t hurt them, but your other relatives, friends? say bye to them: he won’t kill them (again, not necessary blood is not appreciated), but you’ll never heard from them again. if you have kids, he’ll keep them. if you somehow manage to escape, however long it takes, he will find you and bring back home.

likeliness to survive: very low. he’ll probably break you in the end, that if he won’t die himself. his pressure on your mind is unimaginable. he’ll twist it in the ways only he can understand. the man has no morals, no goals, no friends, nothing but you. it can become physically impossible to live with him, while recognizing he’s like batshit crazy and he’s trying to make you like him. he won’t kill you, no matter how much you want him to. he won’t kill you no matter what you do, even if you stab him, no punishment for you other than staying with him like that, untill the day you or him finally die. and even if it’s him who dies - on a mission or from by your hand - you’ll never ever be the same.

rate: 10/10, The Madman.

#ohhh i love this #especially the shigaraki one #really good

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whiteusagi · 1 year

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Hi hi! Your valentine matchup event seems very fun. If you don't mind, I'd like to send a request ^^ the fandom is BNHA. I'm fine with males and females!

This is my answers for the questions:

1. Owl! I love owls! They're so cute. I'd like to discuss something with the owl while we're drinking our tea...

2. Honestly? I love cheerful cutesy songs, so... What is Love by Twice would be great.

3. Ohhh, I'm free to choose? Well, in that case... I'd like to be a detective! A cute, pink detective (imagine Elle Woods but as detective, not lawyer). I think I'd be the character that'll be the icon of the movie. Some people have not seen the movie, but they know my character. Something like that!

4. Trope as in... enemies to lovers, childhood friends, and things like that, right? If that's the case, well, I always love the trope enemies to lovers!

Thank you so much!! ❤❤❤

Of course!! I'd match you with...

Momo Yaoyorozu!!!!

First things first I feel like you would both be enemies because you're so different and evenly matched in intelligence. There's been a silent rivalry between the two of you ever since you both worked at different detective agencies. It wasn't until the both of you were forced to work on the same case that you both were able to bond and understand that you're more alike than you thought. You both become an unstoppable power couple. I feel like in this world Momo would wear red and black while you'd wear pink. Momo would love your determination and strength and I believe that you would encourage her confidence.

Without any further ado, here's your playlist: if you don't have spotify I'll list them here.

Sexy Bomb by Drug Restaurant

Mmook JJi Bba by Saturday

Her by Block B

Oh Nana by KARD

Ice Cream Cake by Red Velvet

REALLY REALLY by WINNER

Red Flavor by Red Velvet

MAMMA MIA by SF9

View by SHINee

Paradise by BTS

FXXK IT by BIGBANG

Shine by Pentagon

Hola Hola by KARD

My Flower by JBJ

Whatta Man (Good Man) by I.O.I

Roller Coaster by CHUNG HA

Egotistic by MAMAMOO

BAAM by MOMOLAND

Get it by PRISTIN V

I got a boy by Girls Generation

#yaoyorozu momo #cute

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whiteusagi · 1 year

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asheiji 🤝 kimi ni todoke au

#okumura eiji #ash lynx #banana fish

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whiteusagi · 1 year

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Yeap

#ash lynx #okumura eiji #banana fish

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whiteusagi · 1 year

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“the ocean will beckon you to return”

#ash lynx #okumura eiji #banana fish

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whiteusagi · 1 year

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Motherly Love

a/n: i wrote this originally under this post here but tumblr fucking sucks and messed up the formatting so here it is in a different post and hopefully it's not all fucked up.

“Katsuki? What’s wrong? It’s three AM. This better be important,” Mitsuki’s voice is heavy with sleep and annoyance but under the tone is worry.

Katsuki sighs. “No uhh…nothin’s wrong. I’m safe and stuff it’s fine,” he mutters into the receiver.

Mitsuki is a lot of things: stubborn,loud, aggressive, determined, fastidious. But one thing she is not, is an idiot. Which is why she knows, despite her son calling her at three AM and saying he’s ok she knows he’s not.

“Katsuki?” She repeats, gentler this time. She can’t remember the last time she spoke this gently to him. Perhaps when he was two and learning to walk. She’d spoke softly “It’s alright Katsuki. Come on get up, try again.”

She hears him sigh again, hears his bed creak, hears him lick his lips and if she’s not mistaken the sound of light snoring in the background.

So he’s found someone. That’s nice. She’d be lying if she said she didn’t worry about that. About him being too undesirable. She’d have taken full responsibility for that. But he isn’t and she makes a mental note to thank whoever it is that chose to be with her boy.

If he ever brings them to meet her that is.

“I uhh…I just wanted ta say thanks,” Katsuki grumbles and Mitsuki audibly gasps. This is very new.

Who is this man and what has he done with her son?

“You called…at three AM to say thank you? For umm..for what exactly? I don’t remember sending anything in the mail. Your birthday is still a few months away! I still have time to get a gift I’m not late like your father sugge—“

“No it ain’t…” he takes a deep breath in and out and again Mitsuki gasps. He’s trying to calm himself down. That’s also new. “It ain’t that. I just wanted to say thanks for bein’ my Ma.” He finishes the sentence in a rush.

And then it’s quiet on both ends of the line as mother and son sit in disbelief on the phone. And then Mitsuki clears her throat.

“Oh well…umm…you’re welcome. Thanks for being a dynamite kid…” she chuckles and when he doesn’t say anything she tacks on “Get it? Cuz your hero name?”

She’s gracious when he finally chuckles. “You’re such a dork Ma,” he says through a tired whispered laugh.

“If I’m a dork, then so are you. That’s how genetics work,” she fires back.

It’s quiet again before she swallows a lump in her throat and plucks up the courage to ask him.

“Where did this come from Katsuki?”

He sighs again, the bed creaks again and this time the snoring is louder in Mitsuki’s ear. He must’ve moved closer to the sleeping person.

“Just…I got someone…someone who’s really fucking good and I got lucky when she chose me but uhh…tonight she told me somethin’ and I don’t know…after she told me and I saw her…saw her kinda crumple into herself or something. Like she uhh…like she broke. You ever see a person break?” He asks.

Mitsuki nods as she listens intently, then fumbles when she realizes he can’t actually see her nodding. “Yeah uhh…loads of models during fashion week. It’s a nightmare for them. I’ve had to talk a few off the edge,” she explains with a dark chuckle.

“Yeah…well picture that but like watching it happen to Dad,” Katsuki mutters. Mitsuki’s breath catches in her throat. Just the thought of seeing her husband, the light in her life, her Masaru, broken like that makes her put a hand over her chest as it aches.

“I see,” is all she replies back.

“Anyway, after she told me I just…knew I needed ta call ya. So yeah… I just wanted ta say thanks…or whatever.”

Katsuki finishes his sentence and Mitsuki hears a soft smack of lips as he kisses the woman he’s sleeping with. She sighs, and Mitsuki can hear her murmur his name sweetly in her sleep. Her voice sounds lovely, sweet enough to melt her prickly son’s demeanor.

Mitsuki smiles to herself, and then she hears Katsuki yawn. “You should get some rest Katsuki,” she says motherly.

“Yeah yeah I will. Sorry for wakin’ ya,” he grumbles.

“Before you go…” Mitsuki says quickly.

“Yeah?”

“Bring her for dinner, next weekend. Your father will make your favorite,” she requests.

Katsuki stays quiet for a while, no doubt he’s contemplating whether he’s ready for his partner to meet his mother but then he sighs.

“Yeah…yeah ok fine. I mean…she could use some motherly love.”