My sister was diagnosed with breast cancer. Just under stage 3. I didn't realize how aggressive and scary chemo is until I've had to witness my brave big sister endure it. She is so strong, so graceful. It's the hardest thing I've ever witnessed.
I'm procrastinating my collage class because it's hard and I'm finding it difficult to focus. I'm very hard on myself when I don't get things right away and to be honest I often feel stupid. So that's why I opened this app in the first place, to escape from the reality of my impending education, drowning in self doubt and mediocre results.
I haven't posted in a while. I go through moments of panic of over sharing and regret. But I like posting how I'm feeling in the moment and I want to leave something behind that is purely me, so I'm back! Did you miss me? -crickets because nobody's reading this
I am going to fight for my future. I am going to endure the horribly mundane experience of giving too much of myself and getting very little in return. Everyday, 9-5 until I can slowly reap the benefits. Save a cent at a time and eventually you can own a kingdom right? We shall see.
It makes me so sad that once day when I'm gone, all of my prized possession's will mean nothing. They will be passed down to nobody because I have no kids and the things I spent a life time collecting will be scattered and thrown out.