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viiolences · 4 years

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(づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ 🍓 🌼 🍒 * here . . . have some cute emojis to pretend tumblr isn’t an absolute hell hole rn !! my name is vic ( she / her ) , i’m nineteen & will be here every step of the way to keysmash in ur ims . . . please bear w/ me . im tragically unprepared but hit the lil heart & i’ll message u for plots !!

* basics ,

name : viola jane soo .

korean name : soo bora .

age : twenty four .

gender : cis female .

sexuality : bisexual .

occupation : director / screenwriter .

height : 160 cm .

fc : im nayeon .

* digging deeper ,

a world watched cautiously through a tinted lens , never to see its true colors ; a crashing wave of reality coming in to soothe a hand that’s finally been let go of ; the kiss you leave on a stranger’s lips , begging them to love you , at least until sunrise .

the soos live in the prettiest house on their street , oozing a studied elegance their youngest daughter could never live up to : viola was clumsy and sweet , would cling to anyone who’d hold her hand , forever hungry for affection . but neglected children don’t wear designer dresses , they don’t take piano lessons every saturday , they don’t smile this bright --------- barely saw her parents growing up , left at the mercy of her siblings , all preoccupied with their own lives , little viola would spend most of her days at her friends’ houses , finding a shred of parental love in their families .

almost too soft for her own good , walked through life with a toothy smile , desperate to believe there was good in everyone ; was easy to take advantage of , got picked on by kids tougher and stronger than her . but she only grew kinder , never learned to fight for herself , always turned the other cheek . . . then ran home crying , only to be welcomed by silence . silence became screaming matches when she was in middle school , her parents’ marriage falling apart with her older siblings off to college . viola’s mother used her as a shield , the reason for her father to stay . she became collateral damage in a vicious war , her own living room the battle ground .

started recording with her father’s old vhs camera to distance herself from the world around her : it always seemed more beautiful through a lens , a sweeter place . by high school she was already putting together short films & constantly recording her friends , too . it was the best possible escape , a souvenir she could keep forever . hid her own feelings behind the words of characters she created in her head , every story to this day extremely personal .

could have easily been seen as the baby of the group , extremely dependent on her friends and always cautious of her surroundings . she was the one always tugging at someone’s sleeve , the designated driver , the person who spent most of the party playing with the host’s dog . she was cheerful and loyal , but clingy and often insecure , always needed reminding that she’s loved . always had a crush on someone , almost addicted to pining over someone who doesn’t care for her in the slightest . her sexuality was causing her a lot of confusion , too , often compensating her newfound attraction to women by trying way too hard to get attention from boys .

her parents absolutely hated her decision to study film , her mother going as far as burning all of viola’s tapes shortly before she left for college : years upon years of footage , only some of it stored digitally , gone in the blink of an eye . something broke in viola then and she realized something she’s been trying to avoid her entire life : that she hates her mother , that she never felt loved by her , that she survived years upon years of quiet abuse without ever saying a word . a hopeless romantic grew thicker skin overnight , came to los angeles without a smile on her face but with a drive , a smothering need to prove to her family that she’s worth so much more than they think .

cut all ties with her mother and hasn’t been back home since , sees her father and siblings sometimes when they’re in california for bussiness . film school was so good for her , though : she was finally free of her mother’s watchful eyes , didn’t have to meet her expectations . her student film ( still life ) got really good reviews and painted her as a director to watch . her debut ( honeysuckle ) premiered at sundance ( a lot of it thanks to her proffessors’ connections but shh ) and was very well received . her third movie is set to premiere later in the year !! and she’s excited !! she loves what she does !!

coming back home for the first time in six years is not a pleasant experience for viola , all her good memories of this place burned with the tapes , everything a reminder of how weak she used to be . she’s almost embarrassed of it , that tenderness she once had .

* with bella ,

everybody knew viola was completely in love with bella , perhaps even before viola realized it herself . still clueless , only wrapping her head around the fact she likes girls , viola was completely in awe of the other girl , who i imagine loved the attention , perhaps even flirted with her sometimes just to see her blush . they were never extremely close , but viola created an image of bella in her mind that she held onto for months .

* extras ,

was always running around with a camera when they were younger !! like every little outing was documented ?? we love a vlogger

has a samoyed puppy named cherry whom she loves and she brought him along bc she couldnt bear to leave him alone in la

literally renting out an airbnb bc she refuses to stay with her parents

loves baking but she’s really bad at it but it gets her so excited nd she’ll give her friends cupcakes please dont tell her they suck !!!

nails always painted rly nicely she goes to a salon to do cute nail art once a month

deep down still a hopeless romantic dnt let her fool u

* wcs ,

lifelong best friend / love interest : on the main .

someone she wasn’t close with before but met again at uni and they hit it off

a bad influence when they were younger

FIRST KISS