vientiane

[vientiane]

I'm sorry with my writing, I am still learning how to construct and find the right words to express and understand what I meant to say so please be patient to me and let me improve and be motivated with all your support.

Thank you!

[vientiane]

Confession

I have that one friend. She's beautiful, smart and bubbly. In fact she is likeable because of her physical features, but one thing that I do not like about her is being a control freak. But since she's my long time friend, I am already essence of her attitude not until the moment happened. She wanted to see my work, specifically a homework. I don't know if I should blame myself since the night before it, I boasted my work to her (and it's supposed to be a joke) so when I got in the classroom she's searching for my sheet (homework) but I didn't lend it to her. She's messing with me and opening my bag but I didn't let her, we're like that for a minute until she stop and turned her back at me. I knew that she's mad at me when she doesn't talk and giving me attention. For a sudden, I had the urge to let her see my work but I felt embarrassed, cause I knew that she will shame me with her words if in the end I will let her see it. The heavy feeling is a burden to me though it made me comfortable. I also want to be honest too, I felt suffocated when she's around me. So I felt free for a day. Actually, that was the first time someone who's my friend got mad or grouch to me. She's not the only one I want to get rid of. They're many. If I was given a chance to transfer to any school, I would grab it. If it means letting myself at peace from people who I feel like holding my neck. Every time I see them, it remind me of my past.

It really sucks to be me. I'm scared that they will see me like a different person one day since I am aloofing myself from them gradually. I know that they are not good for me. I felt so used since they see me as a tool. A people pleaser indeed.

[vientiane]

Friends.

I am tired of being their friend. I am tired pleasuring them with all their needs. My life is so fucked up, blaming myself why did I let them in, in my life. Every time they ask favors or request I'm scared that if I reject them they will bring up my past. They will bully me. And I'm scared that they will spill the humiliation that keeping me from the dark. I can't be free as long as they are around me.

[vientiane]

Indeed. Enemies are once your close friend.

[vientiane]

Finally done with our oral defense

#Oraldefense #positivity #donetsk

[vientiane]

Cats Bring Good Luck

#Pointillism

#Catlover

[vientiane]

Hi! I wanna write stories here. I am so fed up with a lot of imaginations in my mind,creating plot twist and fictional characters. I just don't know if you'll like it. Anyways, this is my first time using this app and first time posting such things like. I just hope I'll got a support, thanks

[vientiane]

Hmmm.