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this ask meme is based on the blog gravesuggestion.  i’ve divided it up into two categories  ( light  &  dark )  based on the themes.  some of these can be somewhat triggering seeing that the darker ones deal with a lot of death mentions.  please be cautious before continuing on!!

L I G H T

‘  at night i dream of you.  ’ ‘  don’t give up yet.  you still have time to fix things.  ’ ‘  falling in love with someone else is not a personal attack.  ’ ‘  i am still so weak when it comes to you.  ’ ‘  i can’t believe i let myself let you down.  ’ ‘  i don’t care where we go when we die,  as long as i’m with you.  ’ ‘  i dream of saying to you all the words i held inside until it was too late.  ’ ‘  i feel so warm  &  safe when you talk to me.  maybe i could love you if you’d let me.  ’ ‘  i finally let the right people in  &  i have never felt so loved.  ’ ‘  i like the way your nails paint red stripes along my spine days after you’re gone.  ’ ‘  i lived in your permafrost for twenty years  &  then you looked at me  &  i felt the warmth of spring.  ’ ‘  i once wished you’d leave me alone,  but i take it back.  ’ ‘  i want to be able to love someone else,  but you stretch your arms  &  spread your legs inside my heart so that there is no room for anyone or anything else.  ’ ‘  i want to believe that we got it right this time.  ’ ‘  i wonder how much longer i can cling to your light before it expires completely.  ’ ‘  i would travel across the world to be by your side,  because as long as you are with me,  anywhere is a perfect place to me.  ’ ‘  it took me awhile to realize it myself,  but you are not what other people say you are.  ’ ‘  it’s not that i really need you,  but life would be pretty boring without you around.  there’s no one i would rather be with.  ’ ‘  i’d like to stay like this for awhile.  ’ ‘  life  &  death don’t have to be so boring,  let’s make both an adventure.  ’ ‘  life imitates art,  they say.  i didn’t believe it until i started to notice the way your eyelashes look so much like tiny ink stroke.  ’ ‘  live your life so that when you die,  souls will come for miles just to hear your historic tales.  ’ ‘  make your exes jealous  &  your past self proud.  ’ ‘  maybe you’re what i needed to find in order to move on.  ’ ‘  never get caught falling harder.  they’ll never let you back up.  ’ ‘  please don’t go.  ’ ‘  some days it’s easier to just stop fighting it  &  succumb.  ’ ‘  sometimes,  you’ll find it hard to keep going,  but you always will.  ’ ‘  the desire i feel for you is that same itching,  insidious hunger that an addict has for their addiction.  ’ ‘  the worst thing about you is that you weren’t all bad.  ’ ‘  there is absolutely nothing ��&  no one who can stop me.  ’ ‘  there is no route of losing you that is without pain.  ’ ‘  there’s still room for adventure  &  there is no one i’d rather have by my side.  ’ ‘  things didn’t turn out the way i planned,  but i’m alright with that.  ’ ‘  we could be really incredible together,  you know?  ’ ‘  you are beautiful  &  vibrant  &  confident.  you are light  &  laughter incarnate  &  every fiber of your being screams freedom  &  joy.  when i am with you,  i am truly happy.  ’ ‘  you are starlight incarnate,  from the grand way you sway your hips to the wide mysterious way you think.  blessed are any to be loved by you.  ’ ‘  you are too afraid of the future to let go of a past that was never kind to you.  ’ ‘  you call me yours  &  i have no idea what that even means to you.  ’ ‘  you remind me of bubblegum  &  sweets;  soft  &  pink  &  warm.  you are strong in the gentlest way.  you are so stubbornly kind.  i wish i could be like that.  ’ ‘  you still visit me while i sleep sometimes.  your fingers trace my spine  &  i listen to you breathe.  please stop haunting me.  ’ ‘  ‘morbid curiosity’ is a wonderful way to describe how i feel about you.  ’

D A R K

‘  a thousand empty bottles  &  fist fights will never return to us what we lost that day.  ’ ‘  everyone else has moved on,  but i am still here.  ’ ‘  everything about you screams danger.  ’ ‘  everything is worthless to you  &  you,  in turn,  became worthless.  ’ ‘  for once in my life i want to be surrounded by people that i don’t feel like i need to impress.  ’ ‘  freedom is really hard to get used to.  ’ ‘  how could you do this to me?  how fucking could you?  ’ ‘  i am becoming everything we always dreamed of  &  i am leaving you behind.  ’ ‘  i buried you so well that you might as well have died.  ’ ‘  i can rest easy knowing that the person i love is dead  &  not the monster you became.  ’ ‘  i can’t look at you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t ask how you’ve been.  what’s the point?  you’d lie anyways.  ’ ‘  i dream of hearing the words i so desperately needed to lay your memory to rest.  ’ ‘  i haunted this house first.  there is no room for you here.  ’ ‘  i have a right to be upset.  i loved them too, you know.  ’ ‘  i just want it to end.  i want it to all go away.  i want to go away.  ’ ‘  i may be a wolf in sheep’s clothing,  but a snake hiding in the skin of a mouse is far more dangerous.  ’ ‘  i saw your face today  &  didn’t feel anything.  i am free.  ’ ‘  i tried to save you,  but you didn’t want to be saved.  you just wanted someone to suffer with you.  ’ ‘  it’s almost as if you were never here.  ’ ‘  it’s unhealthy to do these things,  you tell me.  you say it’s time to stop smoking,  time to stop gambling,  &  dammit,  i f you don’t stop drinking it’ll kill you.  i sure hope you’re right,  darling.  ’ ‘  i’m always pleasantly surprised by how easy it is to kill you in my mind  ’ ‘  i’m not really scared to die.  i’m more afraid that no one will miss me when i’m gone.  ’ ‘  i’m not the person you left behind anymore.  there’s no one here to miss.  ’ ‘  i’ve been dead far longer than i’ve been alive.  ’ ‘  i’ve eaten nothing but flower petals  &  ivy for weeks because i want to be beautiful inside like you.  ’ ‘  i’ve never been completely satisfied.  i most likely will still be unsatisfied long after my death.  ’ ‘  no motive other than pleasure,  my dear.  ’ ‘  one day i’ll go or you will.  either way,  it will be as if i’m losing a piece of myself.  ’ ‘  our dreams  &  promises decay along with you.  ’ ‘  the leaves change,  but nothing else does.  ’ ‘  the only difference between avoiding  &  leaving is that now i’m not waiting up for you.  ’ ‘  there is no such thing as a person who is required to love you.  ’ ‘  there’s only so much that can be done to repair old damage.  ’ ‘  things aren’t going as i hoped.  maybe if i die,  i can start over again?  better luck next time.  ’ ‘  this is not something to be proud of.  this is a tragedy.  ’ ‘  trying to get rid of me?  oh honey,  you’ll have to try much harder than that.  ’ ‘  trying to get under my skin?  you’re nothing more than a pesky itch.  ’ ‘  unlike you,  i can’t hide my identity when it becomes an inconvenience or a danger.  ’ ‘  weeping is for gods  &  martyrs,  we cannot afford such luxuries.  ’ ‘  would you even miss me?  ’ ‘  you are not important enough to earn an eternal place in my heart.  ’ ‘  you complain nonstop about being unloved  &  alone,  i can’t imagine what you’d be like if that were actually true.  ’ ‘  you don’t know what it’s like.  ’ ‘  you made this so fucking easy for me.  ’ ‘  you should see me as a threat.  i will tear down everything you know until there is nothing left of you.  i am a walking threat.  ’ ‘  you think i’m already gone,  but i’m still fighting.  ’ ‘  you think i’m dead,  but i’m just dying.  ’ ‘  you were never an addiction,  you were a fucking disease.  ’ ‘  you wouldn’t dare cross me.  i am god  &  you are the soil beneath my feet.  ’ ‘  your existence takes up so much more space in mine that we might as well be one entity.  ’ ‘  your fingers are so cold  &  bruised,  but you’re still slamming your fists again the barricade as if it makes a difference.  ’ ‘  your hair is tied in a noose  &  your fingernails are razor blades,  your lips are poison  &  i will gratefully kiss them.  ’ ‘  your hatred has a body count  &  we will not forget.  ’ ‘  your loss,  not mine.  ’ ‘  you’re a sick fuck.  you know that?  ’ ‘  you’re not gentle with me  &  i would never ask you to be.  ’ ‘  you’ve trapped yourself so thoroughly in your own mind that it’s not even a rut anymore,  it’s a pit.   ’

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It looks to me like The Hunt is something that happens regularly in Yharnam. Like people straight up tell you to go home a few times because it’s the night of the Hunt and they close up shop to their businesses, which leads me to believe that between hunts, Yharnam is relatively habitable. And if that’s the case, how do we end up with a fresh metric ton of beasts to kill for the following hunt?

I feel as though the beastly scourge creates new batches of beasts that function on modified werewolf rules. The disease is tied directly to the lunar cycle, with full transformation taking place on the full moon-- or rather the night when the moon is 100% full. The severity and number of the transformations scale up exponentially during the occurrence of a supermoon.

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—–umbasa Real talk for a moment, Henryk is dark-skinned and likely black. I would greatly appreciate it if you didn’t put white-washed Henryk fanart on my dashboard. Thanks  👌 👌 👌

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Water Night | Eric Whitacre

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Miasma

- All Artwork © 2013 Austen Mengler. http://austenmengler.daportfolio.com/ http://society6.com/LordNetsua

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What is the significance of Helene’s Initial Blood Ministration?

The macabre communion itself dates back further than the founding of Yharnam, being one of the cultural holdovers from the ancient Pthumerians just before their chaotic decline. Since then, Byrgenwerth, and posthumously the Healing Church (Spearheaded by Byrgenwerth’s research)  has appropriated the practice and gone on to export it on a massive scale, which in turn resulted in the spread of the beastly scourge beyond its borders.

However, despite knowledge of hallowed blood being  the method of transmission for the beastly scourge, Yharnamite hunters are known for imbibing with the explicit intent to utilize the curse in their favor-- a gamble on whether each hunter possesses the force of will, luck, and restraint necessary to fight off transformation during The Hunt. 

This is the main reason behind Helene’s reluctance to receive the transfusion and why she waits until the absolute last minute when the black pox begins to approach its final stages. By that time in Thominns, blood from Yharnam is considered profane and Hunters from the city did not adopt the practice of utilizing the substance to gain even physical footing with the beasts they hunted. The fact that the practice is stigmatized, is why her departure to receive the treatment is intentionally made ‘neath the shroud of dwindling twilight and shadow.

By undergoing the procedure of blood ministration with an adequate amount of blood, hunters receive several abilities to supplement their performance on the night of The Hunt:

Enhancement of the Five Senses

Predator Instinct

Exponentially improved healing rates

Increased Energy

Faster Reflexes

Increased pain threshold (for some)

Increased Strength

Temporary Euphoria

So Yharnamite hunters and those who’ve adopted their hunting customs become increasingly more  superhuman in comparison to those from Thominns with the approach of the full moon.

Interestingly enough, blood(and the benefits/perils that come with it) is only the secondary purpose of agreeing to the blood ministration-- a tool to supplement the primary objective: receiving the Hunter’s Mark, which grants seamless access to The Dreamlands and a possible avenue for achieving permanent immortality.

Naturally, the realm of dreams has oft been regarded as enigmatic in function-- since the earliest days of man-- because few rules (including time and space) remain consistent when traversing the dreamscape. At times they are interpreted as sacred mediums of divination or an opportunity to seek counsel with gods, others, an unfettered reflection of both the latent and manifest psyche. All memories of the dreamscape remain valid, as these are all physical manifestations in which each person possesses the potential to act as Demiurge to that particular pocket in the Dreamlands. (As is the case with King Kuranes and the city of Celephaïs/ Gherman and the Hunter’s Dream/ Micolash & the Mensis scholars in the Nightmare of Mensis etc. etc.)

The Dreamlands maintain a similar function as they do within the rest of the Lovecraftian mythos (&& primarily The Dream Cycle series.) , in that they are mirror dimensions to our reality that are accessible to the average human only by way of sleep or severe sedation but remain the primary dwelling plane of the Great Ones. Entrance to the realm may be achieved by the physical form, however death in the Dreamlands while corporeal results in a permanent death of the mind and body.

With the aid of powerful magics, the metaphysical self may exit the Dreamlands, granting a form of immortality with terms dependent upon the individual means. For Helene, this occurs temporarily by way of The Hunter’s Mark etched within her skull (By whom I presume to be Caryll) just before The Hunt. As a direct and foreseen consequence, she loses a massive chunk of her memories including her purpose for coming to Yharnam, and uses her self-written note:

“Seek paleblood to transcend the hunt.”

 as a guide throughout the events of Bloodborne.

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Bloodborne - Lullaby For Mergo (Piano Arrangement)

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—–umbasa Yo I totally forgot I had this blog. Anyway, I’m completely revamping everything/clearing out the askbox/redoing tags/deleting all old posts and raising Helene from the dead.

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—–umbasa friendly reminder that almost any relationship Helene manages to initiate is usually a means to some end. both platonic and romantic. above all else she puts her own desires/ambitions/ego first which usually leads to her being emotionally manipulative in order to satiate one of those needs. now this doesn’t mean she is void of those kind of emotions. she does crave unquestioned acceptance and intimacy at times-- a hand to hold, a person to talk to or even a warm body to lay with but her intentions are almost always self serving. she’s somewhat aware of her toxic mindset but has done absolutely nil to change it for the better.

#she's trash but she's my trash

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Eyes: Blue | Green | Brown | Hazel | Grey | Other Hair: Blonde | Brown | Black | Red | Ginger | Grey/White | Multi-color | Other Body Type: Skinny | Slender | Slim | Built | Curvy | Athletic | Muscular Skin: Pale | Light | Fair | Freckled | Tan | Olive | Medium | Dark | Discolored

Gender: Male | Female | Trans | Cis | No Gender | Other Sexuality: Heterosexual | Homosexual | Bisexual | Pansexual | Asexual | Demisexual | Other Species: Human | Elf | Undead/Vampire | Shapeshifter | Demon | Angel | Witch/Wizard/Sorcerer | Incubus/Succubus | Other Education: High School | College | University | Higher Education | Military Academy | None | Living Situation: Lives alone | Lives with parents/guardian | Lives with significant other | Lives with friend(s)/family | Drifter | Homeless Parents/Guardian: Mom | Dad | Adoptive | Foster | Grandparents | Family friend | Deceased Relationship: Single | Crushing | Dating | Engaged | Married | Separated | It’s complicated | Verse dependent I’ve been: In Love | Hurt | Sick | Abused I have a(n): Learning Disorder | Personality Disorder | Mental Disorder | Anxiety Disorder | Eating Disorder | Substance-related Disorder | PTSD Things I’ve done before: Drank alcohol | Smoked | Done drugs | Stolen | Self harmed | Starved myself | Had sex | Had a threesome | Gotten into a fist fight | Gone to the hospital | Gone to jail | Used a fake ID | Gone to a rave | Killed someone Positive Traits:  Affectionate | Adventurous | Athletic | Brave | Careful | Charming | Confident | Creative | Determined | Fearless | Generous | Honest | Humorous | Intelligent | Loyal | Modest | Patient | Selfless Negative Traits: Aggressive | Bossy | Cynical | Envious | Fearful | Greedy | Gullible | Jealous | Impatient | Impulsive | Insecure | Irresponsible | Possessive | Sarcastic | Self-conscious | Selfish | Unstable

BOLD all that applies to your muse!

#the most selfish fuck you will ever meet tbh #she'll help if she doesn't have to do much or she benefits from it #this extends to how she treats women. literally the only reason she helps arianna is because of her nightly services #and she emotionally manipulates adella into giving her what she wants. #she's not a particularly stellar person tbh. #█ ▌ ☾--◣Tᴏ ᴄʀᴀғᴛ ᴀ ɢᴏᴅ.◥

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Reblog and fill in the answers you most associate your character to with each question.

1. Animal? Wolf Spider. 2. Colour? Carmine. 3. Month? November. 4. Song? The Hills by the Weekend. 5. Number? Pi 6. Day or Night? Night. 7. Plant? Lotus. 8. Smell? The cloying, metallic scent of blood partially concealed by tobacco and pine. 9. Periodic Element? Sulfur ( S ) 10. Season? Autumn. 11. Gemstone? Carnelian . 12. Food? Bird’s Nest Soup. 13. Astrological Sign? -- 14. Element(s)? Earth & Water. 15. Drink? Tea.

15 Associations.

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