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LOOSEMBLE HAS A LAUR LADIES AND GENTLEMAN

#and hyunjin is the lead. as she should be #this might as well be for this MV only but i dont care #it made me feel like the old days 🥲

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I havent had the urge to pop open my brain and rewire all the circuits to a song since 1987

#in reality that was 2022 #but point being its been a minute since ive felt this way #i shall have an analysis and i shall have negatives to point out #bc being attentive means you catch something and cant be blind anymore

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Jjun. Jjunie. Jjunah. YEONJUNNIEEEEE.

My bias is not Yeonjun but also my bias is always Yeonjun. Bc i KNOW you cant get better than him. Choi Yeonjun is the definition of an idol to me. He is the blue haired guy. He’s not the center but he’s the guy you cant look away from. He is the flag of txt that we wave proudly in the air.

His energy, his aura, is so strong, it pulls you in his gravity. The way he moves, the way he sings, the way he carries himself, is so undeniably, unimitably, unapologetically, YEONJUN. It’s hard to look at him and not fall in love.

I love him always, and i am grateful for it. Everytime i see him dance, i am in awe. I dont know about the theory of dance, but i want to drink up every little move with my eyes, i wanna see it over and over again. I have never seen him give less than 110% on stage. I dont know where he packs all of that energy. What are in those IcedAmes?

When i see him on stage i see the joy, the confidence of someone who was born for his craft. He showed me what true passion looks like, true confidence looks like, what being a boss looks like. I strive for those things every single day.

But more importantly, he taught me to love myself for where i am, right now. Last year, in May, I was struggling with what at point was the hardest course i encountered. I remember feeling like i wasn’t enough, no matter how much i tried, i couldnt make it in this field.

One night, i was up studying and at a break i was watching a txt video. “wow, txt members are these stars who worked really hard and made it. I dont have it in me. Im gonna wither away without doing anything memorable.”

Then, a clip came up where Yeonjun said “I know you love us but please love yourself more.” I felt like he looked directly into my soul. It was sobering. It took me out of my misery. I couldnt love myself that much back then. But i could try. Yeonjun told me to.

“Healing”, his mom’s nickname for him, is so fitting. He did more than heal my self loathing that night. He taught me a hard lesson i’d have to remind myself again and again.

I have witnessed him be a source of light, of hope, of comfort, to countless people. For so many, he is the reason to get out of bed, the strength to dream. With his existence alone. Not a lot of people can achieve that. I hope he knows how precious he is, how loved he is by all of us.

We talk about BLT, BigHit's Legendary Trainee a lot. Being at a similar place once, what crosses my mind first is how much pressure that must have cost him. How scary it was to risk losing the top spot next month. How much work he must have put to keep that title till the very end of his training period. I hope he knows he is not Choi Yeonjun because he is No.1. He is No.1 because he is Choi Yeonjun.

I want to get him a transfusion to remove all the caffeine from his veins. I want to get him coupons for all the ramyeon for his lifetime. I want to see him smile with his eyes more. I want to cup the world in my palms and hand it to him.

But most of all, I want to somehow take away all the pain, all the hurt, all the exhaustion it took to get here. I know I can't do that. But I hope the love I have for him is enough.

#dubaddu #jun. junnie. junah. #tomorrow x together #choi yeonjun #btw the next topic for 'txt is underrated' IS yj's voice #but i didnt get into it here

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Also im so so proud. Im so. Damn. Proud. They’re out there in award shows and they have a Moon Man (?) in their hands and they are being acclaimed for their work and i feel like i chose the right group to pour all my love to. Im so proud. There are no other words for this feeling.

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Im not supposed to be here right now but I HAVE TO TALK ABOUT THIS SONG:

I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN thay are DAMN confident about this song if they plan to perform an ENTIRELY UNRELEASED song IN AN AMERICAN AWARD SHOW.

This is the catchiest sh** ive heard in a while where is the MV. Where is the .mp3. I want this RIGHT NOW i have to PUMP IT THRU MY EARS OH MY GOD

Like I. CAN. SEE. YOU. COMING BACK FOR MORE. COMING BACK FOR MORE. COMING BACK FOR MORE.

Yes I can see myself coming back for more. This has me hooked the way CYSM had me waaaay back when. This was a fool-proof plan HYBEEE i gotta give it to you.

Who cooked this song. They understand songs. This is simple and fantastic thats how songs should be.

Also this is CHOI BEOMGYU’s song. His vocal tone is perfecttttt for that chorus.

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I CANT STOP SCREAMINGGGGGGGGGGGG

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i never really thought i'd find the right type of happiness for myself, the feeling of being home, of love that scares me but at the same time reassures me that everything will be alright. i never really cared enough about it until it slowly started creeping up in my bones just enough to let me know that it's there and that it's real.

it's always been real, with txt, everything i ever felt has always been real.

it hasn't been very long, me knowing them. i wasn't there during the beginning but that really doesn't matter to me. what matters to me most is the amount of love that i've felt in the short amount of time i've become a fan. i couldn't believe it, i tried so hard to be a 'casual listener' but it was just too hard to resist because on the outside looking in, they started to feel like a missing piece i've been trying so hard to find. when i fully accepted it that them, that these five people in this one group may be what i've been looking for, then i slowly started to realize that. oh...maybe i am home. that maybe they are my missing pieces.

i don't really know much, i try to avoid drama and just give in to what they show me but what i do know is that the love they give? the love they show? it's genuine.

i hope other fans feel like that towards them, too. sometimes i think about drunk yeonjun talking about how much he loves moas or beomgyu hurting but still continuing to dance during the chicago showcase and so so so much more. i think about small moments and my heart aches a little because how did i get so lucky that i stanned these people who are so grateful that they have supporters?

it's the smallest things, taehyun's late night weverse vists, hueka's (cute tone) tweets, motivational tweets, soobin's random selca posts...it's the smallest things that they involve us in that makes me sigh in content. how could i have been so lucky?

i'll always think about how lucky i am to be a moa. to be part of their always. to be part of their tomorrow, i guess, even in just a small way. in the short amount of time that i've known them, they've become such a big chunk of my life and every little thing, every small moment of love they show means sooooo much to me.

they mean so much to me. my five. my happiness. my saviors. my solace.

i guess im saying all this because being a fan of theirs isn't just being a fan for me. being a moa means everything to me. they mean everything to me. in so many ways, they have became my hope. my youth. my life. they've become my reason (and im ending it like this so i wouldn't actually cry weeks before moa day!!) they've become my crown.

#oh no i felt something #like a crack at an old bone #maybe one day ill talk about it but #i remember this feeling like it was my second nature #and now i have to really look for it to feel it #but yeah. lu. with her words. everytime. #txt is lucky to have your support jinjja

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YALL LOOK AT THIS

OFFICIALLY ONE YEAR OF KNOWING THE SWEETEST LOVELIEST PERSON EVER

@kaiszzn

LU, my darling, my sweetheart; 🫂🫂🫂🫂 (hugs you really really really tightly) thank you for giving me the best friendship i ever had. Ill always be glad to have known you, and ill always cherish your presence in my life. Im so so glad that, that day, you and me both decided to pick the courage to reach out. Look at what that lead us to. To imagine that youre out there somewhere, loving me the way you do. Bonkers. And ill always be looking forward for our next conversation, giddy with glee at each others company. I want to hear you talk about everything for ages on end. when it is. Ill always be there.

And im confident that we’ll be here celebrating this day, for many many years in the future.

choi soobin's "who's a liar?" and choi soobin's "it's thursday" are at the top five best things that has ever happened to society

#lu 🤍 #i put in on the blog bc i was so excited #this girl is the best thing this app ever gave to me

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lover with a dollar sign is a loser. One Year of LO$ER=LO♡ER: August 17th, 2021.

#LO$ER=LO🖤ER #tomorrow x together #in some way or another these visuals are always gonna be a part of this blog

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happy birthday to in a grey colored car i am running away beyond this fucked up world (oh yeha oh yeah) my hand holding yours everything is banged up it doesnt matter when im with you couldnt win fighting bleeding losing now im sick of it if i cant have it i fucking keep it low CRYING CRYING CRYING forget it now love you love you love you no matter what i do i say RUUUUN laugh like you’ve gone insane goodbye to the tears now time to say RUUUUN never look back in my two hands hunnit bands IM A LO$ER im a lo$er (oh oh) im a lo$er (oh oh) lover with a $ sign is a lo$er im a lover (oh oh) im a lover (oh oh) lover with a $ sign is a lo$er this life is like a war why am i always the loser you were my savior (no doubt no doubt no doubt) from the edge of the cliff your light guides me making me winner (so right so right so right) from rock bottom crawling fighting bleeding now im sick of it refuse i fucking take it all CRYING CRYING CRYING forget it now love you love you love you no matter what i do i say RUUUUN laugh like you’ve gone insane goodbye to the tears now time to say RUUUUN never look back in my two hands hunnit bands IM A LO$ER im a lo$er (oh oh) im a lo$er (oh oh) lover with a $ sign is a lo$er im a lover (oh oh) im a lover (oh oh) lover with a $ sign is a lo$er jump from this highway wings spread and broken flying to forever but cant help falling with you even a fall is beautiful i gladly sink to the other side of the sky i hope we can embrace at the end of our clumsy fight i dont care if everyone laughs i want to sink into your ocean i say RUUUUN laugh like you’ve gone insane goodbye to the tears now time to say RUUUUN never look back in my two hands hunnit bands IM A LO$ER im a lo$er (oh oh) im a lo$er (oh oh) lover with a $ sign is a lo$er im a lover (oh oh) im a lover (oh oh) lover with a $ sign is a lo$er

#happy birthday to the song that created this monster #actually for the next birthdays i think #i want to elaborate on WHY that song is so special and deserves to be celebrated #like a page from my secret project #this song in particular is essential to usermaha lore #so the explanation is imperative #but revel in these gorgeous lyrics for now #LO$ER=LO🖤ER

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Ive been meaning to make this post a while back but since its our lil Hueningie’s birthday this is the perfect occasion to do this.

When we speak of Huening Kai we talk about how he’s the sunshine, the angel, the beloved maknae. His zany sense sense of humor, his bright energy, how he heals the members the members with his care. People might talk about his drive and his resilience, how he takes the lead when the rest falls apart.

But that’s all Huening Kai the public figure. What about Huening Kai the idol, the performer? I think his talents as a performer are among the most overlooked among the boys.

In my head, Huening Kai is one of the most integral pillars to txt. He is what makes txt, txt. This group’s concept doesnt work without him. The concept of this group is very clear. You think “txt”, you close your eyes, you clearly see something. And whatever you saw, Huening embodies it. With “youth” as its forefront, HK has that visual of an eternal youth. He looks like a innocent teen boy and a dashing fantasy prince at the same time, blurring the lines of time and reality (two very big points of the concept). The image of innocence, of purity. You see the Crown video? Heuning Kai in that pink sweater? Take that out, and you’d have to cancel the whole video.

In the .mp3s, he embodies this concept with his voice. His biggest contribution to this group is with his vocal work. There are stronger vocalists in this group, but its about the character in his voice, the color. Its so distinct and so txt. Think about any chorus of any title track. The soaring melody of dreams and heartache and emotion. Who sang it? Probably Huening. His voice is so warm and so comforting. I feel like living in his voice, and falling asleep in it.

I dont understand dance enough to judge it. But im talking about his stage presence, his energy on stage. Again, there might be better performers, but the character of his stage is unique to him. He consistency applies energy to his dancing, he is completely engaged, his expressions are so expressive. He breathes life into the entire performance. This is why i think we tend to overlook it. He is reliable. The fact that he will give his 100 is a given.

Another thing i love about him is how he transforms with concepts. He cant be beat with bright concepts, but what happens with the darker colors of today’s txt? He can show his teeth, but there is also the shadow of the innocent boy that once was, caught in the war, that still could be saved. In Puma he is the cub that looks at the moon and misses his mother. In Chaos Chapter he is the Snow Prince, frozen under a sheet of apathy. In GBGB he is the fragile lover shattered by rage. In Name Chapter he is the sunkissed child under the daze of the Devil’s enchantment.

I think the common thread in all the points i mentioned is acting. He is a great actor, through his craft. He becomes the vessel for the story, and does it so effortlessly that he becomes faceless in the process.

So happy birthday to Huening Kai, the boy that stole our hearts with his molang plushie self, but also. Was patient with himself and others as he created this artist out of himself with slow and careful deliberation. And in the process made txt what we love.

#heuka #dubaddu #this is not coming from the biggest HueKa stan #all of this is such facts #i think the acting thing is also why… i kind of struggle to understand him #i can connect with the others easily but i find it hard with him #huening kai #tomorrow x together #i might make a series about the underrated aspects of each member

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You ever just… yell about #jo 🧡??

#🙋🏼‍♀️🙋🏼‍♀️🙋🏼‍♀️ #jo 🧡

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THIS WOMAN IS INSANE

#fun fact i actually DID come online yesterday #and see everyone lose their minds on the blue dresses #and i was like ‘now that ive been away for a while i can now see this fandom looks crazy from the outside’ #like its a color l. calm down. why would she release 89 so soon? #N O P E #and i had to find out from the reels of the most annoying girls @uni god #blondie

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Im at this phase where i cant go three days without listening to Air Force One

#i know objectively it might not be it but its HITTING right now #dararadadadada itches my head just right #song of the summer? #at least its mine #loona

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the urge to recreate this everytime i raise my hand in class:

#Youtube

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would love to follow the advice of “don’t stay in your head too much” but that’s made rather difficult by the fact that i LIVE in there!!!! where else do i go!!! get me OUT

#thank god i was looking for this post

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put in the tags your favorite word

#prev tags #i love how you call me both 🤪 #so ummm what does that make me 🤭 #lu 🤍