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NOTICE

will now be on indefinite haitus due to complications with school and family on my end. this is due to concerns concerning about my use of social media (and with tumblr being noted down as the app with the most risk of getting deleted due to this) — however despite all the bullets i dodged i will comply to my parent’s wishes to halt and avoid being on these kinds of sites instead of behind their back. apologies for this i should have been more responsible with how i use my presence on here.

heres to hopes i can come back — c2rulaen

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hahaha i feel like shiiittt

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that mesmeriser music video… it has poked my brain../notneg

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i remember daydreaming about transfem oj once, forgot all my concepts and my explanation about how it makes sense amd am over here like

… p past me, t tf you on about.. w why am i remembering this now…..are you jus blasting me for no reason???

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good god does anyone know where i can find that one fnf arrow funk drawing from the devs of the mod that show barbara (arrow funk gf) in a purple outfit with bidu (arrow funk bf) coming out of the grave in his skeleton form giving her a flower?

i need it

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i miss barbara arrow funk

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tbh i dont really like the new coro of ika art style, aswell as vintages’ ark

like, the new art style is less expressive, jus compare rider’s face in volume 16 and 1 and there’s a huge ass fucking difference it drives me mad — sankichi is also shown to be able to make expressive faces still in the new style like check the fight against hockey

also team blue barely even win their fights in interesting ways anymore, it’s jus straight up like naked gags and d*ck jokes like the amount of times characters get hit in the nuts by goggles is crazy, like the pantsing gag was better when it was only rider and it adds effect when they competed against emperor but it got old too quick

like, you can keep the gag but make the new battles and opponents more interesting like srsly, wireglasses was basically rider 2.0 he had so much hype and mystery only to be plastered with the final boss personalitytm that they kept giving everyone

emperor’s ark was amazing tbh and i unreasonably hated it, probs because of the way the used prince but it’s really good, like they hyped him up amazingly and properly established his character and mad him cool and powerful like properly like yip fuckin ppee — andtheyway team blue beat them too * hefs kiss* that’s great! it made sense! in can even par with how they beat aloha back in the first volume! (one of the best chapters imo, it was actually interesting, gave specs attention and provided proper character development for aloha, like the lesson he learned from team blue was great)

but vintage…… fuck him, like he’s interesting, but they tried to hype him up the way they did with emperor aswell as jus giving him a way too similar ark when we already had something like it, the only thing i actually found worthwhile was team blue against the s4 + rider, they didnt properly add up the problems within team x-blood and their teamwork and all vintage do was jus stand there and look menacingly like some trophy princess idk

atleast he wasnt a copy and paste like wireglasses, he actually had distinct personality traits that differentiated him from others, -his coldness-, heck they couldve added more emphasis to it in order to properly show the disadvantages x-blood had — i also think they could’ve toned down double e and red sole more cause they dont really add anything to the story besides being strong or whatever

and the way omega was watching the s4 fight, you’d assume she’s actually add somehting to the story, or like, idk realise the problems her team has and bring attention to it, but she practically does nothing other than point out the obvious which is ridiculous cause she’s just as important, if not even moreso cause she’s second in comand, as well as being able to do the x zone thingie that vintage can do but she’s not given enough (proper) attention like come fuckijn onnnnn

however, i had so many hopes for the best eight, although everyone was less expressive and dragged down to a lesser version of themselves due to the vintage ark, they could still save this if they battles were somewhat interesting — which they were! goggles managed to keep his charm and actually use his dumbass mind the way it was intended as shown with shady and 8-bit (with the riddle and the tea) but what doesnt add up is there’s no foreshadowing and jus comes out of nowhere, aswell as it parralleling the s4 ark too much, (jus compare shady and army with each other you’ll get what i mean) like good god

tbc class ended i gtg

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haha finals amr?

i jus finally learned how to study on my own on my own for the first time in ever and all of a sudden i am thrown into pressure to be, like, idk like good enough

i hate talking to my parents, it’s always so confrontational, it’s never an actual conversation i wish i get to dump ‘em when am older

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need me some miphone 5 contnet

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goddamn it

no bingo :[

#am doing character bingos of my blorbo lel

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i have half the mind to block every rp ask blog to ever exist

not because i dont like them or anything they jus fucking flood tagsss

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MY ACCOUNT LOOKS LIKE FUCKING ASS ISTG THIS IS SO DISGUSTING AND I CANT REPLACE IT AOJHSKLJSOKJAOJHAOJHAOJHANOJANJOA

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i keep forgetting people actually know me irl which is stupid cause everyone in my year knows each other

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I HATE MY THEME SO MUCH RAGHHHH

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eueuwgugeuegue genders, am jus rambling about my identity cause i need to write this down and i dont have any of my notebooks, not like i wanted this on physical paper anyways, dunno why am even talking about this ever on here

okay, so like

am non binary, or atleast, that’s what i say, or what i understood when i was like, 13 i think

that was 2 years ago, ever since then my gender — or lack of — has been oppressed and ignored by everyone i know (except my ex friend i think but she doesnt count for me) (maybe that’s why i feel wierd about her sometimes)

now i’m finally trying to properly understand it, cause, yea, i’mnot a boy or a girl, but i dont feel like i dont have a gender, non binary doesnt sit right with me

but my mother, oh how we allll love our mothers, when ever she got mad at me she started using the one time i brought up the fact i was non binary and part of the lgbtq community against me as part of her arguements when scolding me, *it hurt*

*oh fuck i’m reliving it now, that’s so painful and disgusting why in the world would you bring it up in such a nature* like seriously you already shrugged it off as a phase and a lie you didnt have to do that, i never even hinted to it ever during those times and i agreed to be referred to as your daughter and to never bring it up again, sp why in the world would you do that

anyhow, enough about that bullshit, back into genders no body wants to hear rants about homophobic ppl

wait what was i talking abiut again? ..megh

#hopefully no one sees this it’s not done #either way this isnt for anyone is jus for me cause i want to bring t up properly to myself

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this blog looks so shitty and jus realised that my banner could be ai art fuck all of this fuck everything

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reexperience depression on tuesday

was fun, cried alot, everything went back to normal afterwards but for some reason my mother’s “confrontations” seeming to linger on my psyche for longer than usual