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never totally understood the preoccupation with swords as exclusively phallic symbolism to be honest. this is clearly scissoring.

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died and came back exactly the same but something was so so so wrong with me before and now I have an excuse to really lean into it

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tradgedy enjoyers when you look into the eyes of your worst enemy and can only see yourself

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i am skeptical you could do that actually, tiktok user

#yeah saying this about the work of teresa margolles is specially heinous

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‘we need more problematic women’ you guys couldn’t handle yoko ono

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AI art and humanity

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god didn't give me a dick because he knew I'd get hard when I heard a rich choral harmony

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i love my friends so much. maybe soulmates are real.

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It's always "why do you have a bunch of watch chains clipped into your face?", "what's with the guy with metal through his face?", "Edward what's that embedded in your skin what happened here??" And never "how are the new facial piercings are you enjoying the new piercings?"

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the spirit is not willing and the flesh it is not so into the idea either

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more girl rivalries in fiction should end in them having sex with eachother

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Okay but is nobody gonna talk about "my father drank gin" and "put a bullet through my head before i drink gin" like is nobody going absolutely insane over that-

Well i am and im gonna talk about it.

The tragedy of children picking up drinking because they saw it in their parents and so it's much easier to fall into it. And their brain justifying being drunk on something else, as a defence mechanism, against feeling just as bad as their parent. They're drinking something else, so they can't be exactly like them right? But in reality it's often just as bad and sometimes even worse.

This is also genius because all you get is two innocent lines and that's all it takes for you to realise Crozier's past with alcoholism.

"my father drank gin" could just be a thing you say during a toast. "aah, my father loved gin, it's nice remembering things about him" but no. Here it's said so bitterly and hatefully, you know for a fact he drank a lot and Crozier HATED that about him. We can also assume he's dead from something alcohol induced.

And then the other line "put a bullet through my head before i drink gin" - despite what the words actually say - is also something you could say as a joke, when your friend offers you gin, you know. "you want me to drink WHAT??" Sort of thing. But here you kind of feel like... He means it. It's said with so much resentment and stubborness, he might as well mean it literally. "Kill me before i become my father." Because Crozier hated him so much he wants to become nothing like him. Even when it's through impressive mental gymnastics.

It's just agony to think about-

#he is just like me fr #wait who said that ?? #oh crozier we really are in it now #the terror

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suffering from a condition called remembering too much and loving too much and caring too much and

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warm orange windows and blue night in the background save me. save me warm orange windows and blue night

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i always mean it when i say i love you btw

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guards, cis him!!!

#mine #trans