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i wish i could stab myself over and over again

#sh

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I hate the fear that comes with being traumatized.

Not feeling safe with anyone, ever, not even your parents who were supposed to protect you when you were a child.

Being too afraid to close your eyes in your own home or turn your back to an open door.

The daily heart palpitations and fatigue from being in a constant state of hypervigilance.

Jumping badly at every tiny sound so much that it feels like you're being electrocuted.

Existing with trauma is exhausting.

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i feel utterly useless. so so useless. im a waste, trash that needs to be tossed aside. i am not worthy of anything. im scared and empty. i can't do anything by myself. why do you love me? why bother? hahahaha..... im so disgusting and exhausted. why do any of you look at me like that? why do you care for me?

i am nothing.

#bf tag

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did they expect me to forget

did they think i would be too young to remember

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I looked in the mirror and did not recognize my own face

3.75" x 3.75" pen on paper

#trans

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No (2), Louise Bourgeois, 1973

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