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I dont really understand why people are so pushy and obsessive about CNC. Like most hard kinks don't bother me except CNC. It's just the fucking way people insist on going about it. Like guess what if you aren't taking no for an answer and being disrespectful it takes one of the Cs out.

Like CNC i find really frustrating because I can't, like, make rape jokes in private because people are saying im normalizing and pushing it on people and it's understood that that's wrong even if it's how I cope but the same people will find out you survived an assault and just say oh you should try CNC it helps you cope with trauma. Like people have said that to me. You have cute little liberal language about it but you're seriously telling me to have somebody rape me on purpose until it's so normalized I don't find it triggering? And that's the awesome queer thing to say? People are really pushy with CNC, they blur the lines, they like to say if you like to wrestle it's CNC which... Actually, no, wanting to wrestle does not mean you want somebody to rape you. That's an awful thing to say, especially to assault survivors. They have whole underground fetish wrestling communities and everything.

Like imagine if people were that pushy about vomit. Like oh you like jizz? You like somebody forcefully, involuntarily expelling a bodily fluid? Yeah, nice try, puke boy. Except honestly that wouldn't be as disturbing because usually I'm not constantly worried about strange men vomiting on me at night.

Like you can't just not be into CNC. And you can't call it a rape kink because that's triggering. And you can't criticize using CNC to cope and any potentially bad consequence because that's an attack on kink and you're kinkphobic. Like I'm way more comfortable if people say rape kink and they don't shy away from the language and try to make full on rape seem uwu soft cnc core soft kink. Idk it's really irritating because people make kink out to be this awesome safe space where we reclaim our trauma and it's honestly the exact opposite a lot of the time.

#makes you wonder about the people involved with some communities #and like is it really helping you so much if you react so strongly and youre still living two dimensionally #a lot of yall are still horribly traumatized youre just popping off

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#the most lesbian compliment i ever got was that i have a 'beautiful bush' #i <3 corny lesbian sex as a gay man #also dude the fucking tags xnzjdjzjdjs george w tboy bush

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mountain fight

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Sterling Walker by hollywood_bruisers for Tom of Finland Vodka

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Christopher Sherman

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#this is forcemasc

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Bare knuckles fistfighting. Bloody, brutal, and effective.

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there's something about butches reclaiming protectiveness and chivalry from an imposed "caring, nurturing" character associated and often forced upon women. something about how while straight men often try to present as careless as possible, masculinity and care are not only not conflicting in the butch identity, but inherent to it. there's something there.

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For a certain kind of person — the person who, usually, strives to be a responsible parent, a sensitive friend, an upright citizen, a person who tries to care about their community — it can be impossible not to succumb to the incessant urge to mimic someone else’s supposed balance and feeling of wellness in life. What do we even know about them really?

I’m increasingly seeing this in my work as a therapist in New York City. So are my colleagues. One said to me recently that he was tired of listening to his patients talk about the impossible advice inhaled on Instagram and TikTok — to say nothing of the self-help industry. “Doesn’t anyone come asking to be more free?” he exclaimed. “They don’t,” I said pessimistically. “Everyone wants to make the right decisions.” The problem is it’s very hard to tell someone that pursuing the abstract question of “right and wrong” ways to live will lead you into a cul-de-sac. It avoids the deeper question of desire, and desire is a compass.

The promised image of goodness skirts pleasures that — for obscure reasons — you aren’t sure you can want. I see patients grow fearful when they can’t tell if what they desire is compulsive — just another rote, maybe addictive, behavior, or a real attempt to test the boundaries they live under. How do you locate free will in a world this compulsory? Unsettling desires challenge our perception of who we are and what life might look like. ...

My patients have spent time on the couch struggling with the joys and pains that come with their wish to take drugs, not to expand consciousness but just because; quit their job, not to re-evaluate life but simply to stop working (along with the bonus pleasure of thumbing their nose at their employers); or give in to an irksome captivation with the wrong person at the absolutely wrong time. ...

These pursuits certainly aren’t what you ought to do — much less post about — and yet I find that it’s when we dwell on our secret enjoyments that we learn the most about ourselves. Sexual and aggressive feelings, veering self-destructive, are finally confronted without the veneer of rationalization.

--Jamieson Webster, "I Don’t Need to Be a ‘Good Person.’ Neither Do You."

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the idea that restrooms, locker rooms, etc need to be single-sex spaces in order for women to be safe is patriarchy's way of signalling to men & boys that society doesn't expect them to behave themselves around women. it is directly antifeminist. it would be antifeminist even if trans people did not exist. a feminist society would demand that women should be safe in all spaces even when there are men there.

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I have that euro boy rizz tbh also who the fuck wouldnt want a trans male partner like im the t4t husband of ur dreams. Im like a 50s housewife and abusive misogynist husband at the same time. Im like making u shit when yr sick and learning all your favorite recipes from your mother and whenever i spell a word wrong or something i take my belt and beat you out of anger like your father like im piping you down with a black cane like grandaddy what else could u want in a man

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Kake: Pants Down, Sailor! (1975) by Tom of Finland

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hey actually can i talk about how my popularity here is linked to my cruelty? can we talk about how i feel fetishized as a ts top? don’t get me wrong, a lot of the time im feeling sexually empowered in a really good ( and sometimes healing) way, right? but like. if i wasn’t a tranny or if i wasn’t willing to post every cruel thought that enters my mind, i wouldn’t have this following. if i wasn’t skinny and white i wouldn’t have this following either actually. yall know that’s insane right? yall know it’s insane that the majority of the popular trans women on our horny little corner of this site are skinny, white, and toppy? yall know we have to do better right? hey yall know that expecting trans women to top is chaser behavior? this rant got away from me, i woke up with a lot of different feelings about the platform i’ve been afforded.

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homie pulled up with the cock on cock action tshirt