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FOUND family??? you think i just found them like this??? babes this is FORGED family. Me & the bros were scrap metal in a junkyard (very valuable, very sharp, very dangerous, uncared for) and we GOT IN THE FUCKING FIRE TOGETHER. WE did this. we said I AM NOT LEAVING YOU and melted into each other for better or for worse (it’s for better) and we are A FUNCTIONAL UNIT now. DO NOT SEPARATE. BATTERIES FUCKING INCLUDED. FOUND family my ass, we built this non-nuclear family unit from the ground up, don’t devalue this!!! it was is and will be a labour of love!!!

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You’re worth caring for. You were always worth caring for. I’m so sorry if someone has made you feel otherwise.

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you guys gotta realize that every single one of us is living in a narrative where we are all doomed to love in an uncaring world. thankfully, the world is not doomed to stay uncaring. we can change it, even if its just a tiny little bit.

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Intro to Our Plural Chaos and Queer Whimsy!

Friendly greetings to all beings of every shape, species, size, gender, sexuality, and expression!! The same friendly greetings to those who are formless, genderless, or lacking in species too!! All forms of existence and consciousness are welcome here. We’re a strange collective of wildly varied misfits. We’re here to log our findings as we work to understand the bizarre, otherworldly happenings in our cranium. Currently, more than half of our system is nonhuman in some way. The humans bouncing around in our headspace don’t feel particularly connected to humanity either. We all happily embrace Voidpunk!

Fluidity constitutes the heart and soul of our system. We are ever-shifting. Our structure can best be defined as consistently inconsistent. There are effectively four layers in our system, with each layer and each headmate/fragment within them having unique perspectives on everything around us, both within the headspace and outside of it. Freedom of personal expression is of the utmost importance to our entire system.

We have a profound fascination and love for space/the universe as a whole. As a result, our inner world and many of our headmates are based on space and various celestial bodies/formations. Formless voids, infinite abysses, and mind-boggling eldritch horrors mix together seamlessly with these more tame space themes.

We love cute and pretty things. We adore the macabre and the grotesque. We cherish skulls and body horror every bit as much as pastels, nature, and mushy adorable queerness. We’re a confusing, clashing kaleidoscope of everything anyone could possibly imagine and then some.

We’ve come a long way in listening to and understanding ourselves since discovering our plurality in 2018. As chaotic and strange as things get in our system, we’ve managed to form ourselves into a fun and loving family unit. We’ve put immense effort into learning how to work together with, accept, and love each other, to recognize that we’re all sharing this mind, soul, and vessel. We hope that at least some of what we’ve learned can help others feel validated and understood, or perhaps help them learn a bit more about themselves!

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Calisthenics for Beginners (2023)

You can learn almost any exercise by building up with easier variations! Here are some examples.

Note: this is a short version of a 26-minute long video called "Home Workout for Beginners (2023)" on our YouTube channel. If you want more details, please check out that video or the Hybrid Routine page: https://www.hybridcalisthenics.com/routine I tried to fit what I can into a short video.

Also, yes my knees go in a bit more than I'd like during my intro jump when I stand up 😅. The one later is better.

We're going to try to schedule a large backlog of videos to post daily for a while! If anything seems out of order, that might be why. Follow for more - have a wonderful day!

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the older i get and the closer i am to reaching 30, the more the people around me try to deny me my age. it’s a constant ‘oh you’re just turning 29 again teehee 🤭’ or ‘dont tell your SO that, he’ll leave you for a younger model 😉’ and i just???? hate it?????????

i spent my entire teenaged years fighting for my life. i crawled through the deepest pits of my depression to cling to the promise of a life beyond that pain. i was so convinced that i was going to die young, that i would never see the grace of my age starting with a 2, let alone 3.

so im going to turn 30, and there’s not a damn thing anyone can do to stop me from loving it.

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🔥 Subtle Loki Worship 🐎

Sitting around a bonfire or campfire, especially with loved ones

Being kind to children; playing with them if offered

Supporting organizations focused on marginalized groups; spreading the word, donating, volunteering, etc.

Supporting organizations focused on children and children's safety

Volunteering at a homeless shelter or an animal shelter

Teaching yourself that it's ok to ask for help, even if you don't receive it at first

Seeking out a community you can join; this will help with creating a support system as well; LGBTQ+ support groups, gamer groups, fandom groups, etc.

Having horse, snake, raven, or wolf imagery around; having skull imagery is also cool, but may not be acceptable in all households

Engaging with your childhood media or toys

Having literally any stuffed animals

Keeping a list of jokes and quotes that make you laugh

Supporting animal conservation efforts

Learning to accept yourself for who you are; embracing unique aspects of your identity, especially those that are looked down upon by others

Showing support for marginalized groups, such as being an LGBTQ+ ally or purchasing from POC small business owners

Identifying your strengths and weaknesses; finding healthy ways to acknowledge them both

Learning new ways of coping with emotional turmoil, including mental illness related situations

Listening to scary stories

Having a candle that reminds you of him (no altar needed)

Collecting lost or interesting objects (so long as it's not reclaimed first lol)

Being a little mischievous/silly with loved ones

Finding little ways to express yourself if you can't do so openly (e.g. wearing a bracelet with the colors of your gender identity, wearing shoelaces with pride flag colors that aren't easily recognizable, etc.)

Being kind to yourself when you're having a difficult time

Learning to forgive yourself for past mistakes you've made

Sleeping with comfy blankets

Drinking hot chocolate

Eating candies and sweets or spicy foods

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May add more later! So far, this is my list of discreet ways to worship Loki. Hope this helps, and take care, y'all! ❤️

Link to my Subtle Worship Master list

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if yall ever want like serious advice from me about how to solve burnout as a creative it's like...

literally ignore it. stop pushing. go do something else, enjoy your life, fill it with other things, do what brings you joy in the moment if you can.

go to the gym, take a walk to touch grass and look at dogs and smell flowers, cook dinner, watch tv with your friends, talk about your feelings as needed with ppl you trust, take a drive and blast your music, do the chores you need to do, the job hunting slog you need to do, read books that aren't for research, stop cordoning off your brain for The Craft or The Draft or whatever the fuck

forget about the project, stop thinking about it for as long as it takes to be excited again.

fuckin rest, basically

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i romanticise grocery shopping and cooking nice meals for yourself because i never used to have the energy for it. i romanticise drinking water because i never used to care about myself enough to make myself drink it. i romanticise showers because i never used to be able to psych myself into getting up to have one. i romanticise exercise because i used to treat it as a punishment or a price to pay. i romanticise tiny little every day things because i finally care about myself enough to do them and that’s wonderful. and i want to keep it up even when some days are hard.

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The beautiful thing as you get older is that you realize so many “rules” are made up and you can just do whatever. Posters can go anywhere in the house not just my room. I can sit down while cooking a meal or taking a shower. I can make the same thing for breakfast lunch dinner for a week straight. I can roam around the house shirtless. I can wear a dress with jeans. The world is my oyster key word my and I can live as I please embracing little things such as this

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and is your shame helpful? is it inspiring goodness and change? or is it keeping you frozen in time unable to move on and be everything you have expanded to be?

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this is APPARENTLY a HOT FUCKING TAKE but

i would rather someone live out the rest of their life dependent on or addicted to a pain medication that helps with their pain, than suffer in pain that could be helped for the rest of their life just so self-righteous dicks can say "thank god they're not an addict"

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“surely this will not cause my chronic illness to flare up,” i say, actively doing something that has never failed to flare my chronic illness

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"someone who allows you to rest" is the relationship dynamic of all time

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It’s crazy how low self-worth fucks with peoples lives